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Everything about me fundamentally sucks.

I’m a failure. I can’t do anything right. I’m bad at time management I’m bad at managing my projects I’m bad at talking to people I’m bad at maintaining connections I’m bad at what I do I’m bad at making a living I’m bad at being human I’m bad at being alive. I wish I didn’t exist. All I do is take up space and use resources that could be allotted to somebody else. Somebody better. Somebody mentally well. Somebody who doesn’t fail.

#vent #depression posting #again

I hate my body I hate the fat on my body I hate how large I am I hate how much space I take up I hate eating I hate the way food makes me feel I wish I could just disappear

#body dysmorphia #bed #binge eating disorder #idk man

blueminustwo

I hate my body I hate food I hate eating I hate the way food makes me feel I hate the feeling of fat on my body I hate it so much

#body hate #binge eating disorder #bingeeating #ed vent

I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body I hate my body

#body dysmorphia #vent #sigh #binge eating disorder

blueminustwo

There’s not enough submissive Caleb in this space for my liking. I need a card where he’s begging and whimpering and crying and the power never once shifts into his hands.

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And mind you submissive Caleb is canon too

blueminustwo

You get it!! Like we need more cards that lean into this

Me LADsposting on my vent account where I agonise about my life and my body image woes…my 5 fictional, emotional support malewives would want better for me

MORE CALEB WHIMPERING AND BLUSHING AND CRYING!!!!

#lads caleb #love and deepspace caleb #I’m so serious guys #caleb xia #xia yizhou #I’m pushing my submissive Caleb agenda #sub!Caleb #if no one else is gonna do it I’ll write the fic

There’s not enough submissive Caleb in this space for my liking. I need a card where he’s begging and whimpering and crying and the power never once shifts into his hands.

#lads caleb #love and deepspace caleb #caleb xia #who can relate #lmao #no but really #I miss the puppyleb agenda #sorta tired of the whole domineering big brother who’s always in control thing #no shade if you’re into that #I can get behind that too but #I think he’s more versatile #especially main story Caleb #I wanna see him blushing and crying

ATP who want me? 🤣

#idek how to tag this #mind u im probably aroace but like #I wanna have a bf just once #I just wanna see what that’s like #if I can overcome the shame #the intense all encompassing shame #that trips me up every time

Genuinely how do I stop feeling such intense disappointment and, quite frankly, abject disgust whenever I look at my body?

#body dysmorphia #binge eating disorder #ed recovery #body acceptance #serious answers only

I’m so tired of trying to shrink myself down. Maybe I’m just meant to be the weight I keep coming back to.

#ed recovery #weight cycling #I’m just so tired #I hate the way I look but #I just don’t feel like pushing my body for another time #only to end up in the situation I’m in now #again

IM A STUPID FUCKING LOOOOSEERRRRRRRRR

#FUCK MY LIFE #loser posting #nothing ever goes right #and I’m a failure #did I mention I’m a failure?#I’ll say it one more time #IM A LOSER AND A FAILURE #and that’s actually okay #like actually #fuck yeah #I’m a loser and a failure and ugly and I’m owning that shit

I hate myself and I hate my life and I hate my body

I hate being me in every sense of the word and I wish that the “me” now would simply cease to exist

#vent #sigh #body dysmorphia #self hatred #whatever else idk #how does one induce ana #because I’ve been trying to at least eat in a deficit and I can’t even eat at my maintenance cals I keep going over #I feel like a failure and a loser all the time #I have horrible acne and my face is fat and ugly #I miss when I used to be cute and small #I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself #!!!!!

If I don’t keep going I’ll die

I hate myself. I hate my mind. I hate my body. I hate existing. Everything is awful. Im a broke loser with no money and my life is going NOWHERE.

#rant #vent #self hatred #or whatever #get me out of here

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