#bingeeating

[blueminustwo]

I hate myself I hate my body I hate existing I hate the way my body feels I hate eating I hate thinking about having to eat I hate that I eat to self soothe I hate that I eat to fill the hole in me I hate how empty I feel all the time I hate the anxiety I feel about food and my body I hate how unaccomplished I feel

[ebc-art]

Come and hang, if you want to see this gut grow, live!

[chubbymuffinclub]

drmariannemiller

New year, new me? 🤔

Diet culture might use that common saying to make you believe now is the best time to change your lifestyle.

It’ll make you believe that the answer to “new year, new you” is some diet.

But what’s wrong with the current you, anyway?

Before you jump on to the latest fad diet, take some time to sit with the question of why you want to go on a diet in the first place. Is it because you want to change something about you? Are the voices your own or that of diet culture?

Growth is beautiful, but don’t force yourself to change something about yourself just because society (and diet culture) tells you to.

[chubbymuffinclub]

drmariannemiller

Guess what? I got through the new year with NO promises of dieting.

It’s another year to let myself have food freedom and food neutrality.

It’s another year to practice an anti-diet mentality.

It’s another year of loving myself. Completely.

And it’s pretty darn awesome!

What will this year look like for you?

[grit-n-goals]

ugh, i hate to admit it but i b1ng3d again. sometimes it feels like the only way i can stay recovered is if i am never around any common b1ng3 foods, especially when emotional. But then i remember that b1ng1ng is an urge in itself, and, respectfully, I’m not some fragile flower who can’t handle a small gust of wind, or some white bread. Yes, it sucks that my family houses a lot of UPFs (ultra processed foods), but what am i really going to ask them not to get my Dad an ice cream cake for his birthday after he busted his butt outside in 85 degree weather to provide for us???

According to Brain Over B1ng3, which i highly recommend trying the free workbook for, b1ng3 urges are just b1ng3 urges. Not everyone going to food when they are stressed, so it’s not inherently a cause-and-effect of: emotion -> food. Rather, it’s just a habit because of the temporary dopamine you get from eating junk, and the nervous system distraction of overeating. And this isn’t to downplay the feeling in the moment, habits are hard to break, AND its been scientifically proven that many UPFs are addictive, but you need to remember you are in control.

The moment you start telling yourself that your “spiraling” or “loosing control” is the moment that you are giving yourself permission to do the thing without the guilt of letting yourself by claiming theres something else moving your hands and your mouth. Believe me I told myself that for so long, but eventually when i recovered and faced urges, and overcame them, it wasn’t as though the urges changed, i just reminded myself that i am in control.

Yes it is hard, and yes, last night I relapsed, but now the morning after the only thing I can do is learn from it.