My soul ☁️

Just writing my feelings and thoughts down.

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I love being alone but at the same time I hate it...

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I really want to be productive because I get anxious when I do nothing, but at the same time I am to tired to get up and I want to stay in my bed all day...

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I am more than just my body.

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I don't wanna lose control again...

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I am dying inside...drowning under all the pressure...

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Du hattest mich nie verdient!

You never deserved me!

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I am scared of the touch from a men...flashbacks will come...

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I once told my parents after I came home completely drunk,I just wanted to be happy once...

They just laughed about it...one year later I went into therapy and they still make fun about it.

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Ich bin gerne alleine, doch habe Angst vor der Einsamkeit.

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I am still wondering how a human being can s...assault another human and act like it is completely normal and the victim is overreacting...how? Tell me how where you able to hurt the person you "loved" wanted to marry...over and over again, making me feel horrible everytime and shaming me for my bad reactions....

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I want my life back...

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Ich bin froh, dass du nicht mehr in meinem Leben bist....doch ich vermisse diese Nähe einer Person, diese Wärme und Liebe....

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I am wondering if someone can truly love me or if I am unlovable.

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Bin wählerisch und suche mir dennoch immer die falschen aus...

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Will I stay alone forever? Or will I find the right one in the future...

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I'm scared of getting close to a men, because of what happend to me with my ex....

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The sad thing is, you still don't understand what a horrible person you're...because you just made fake scenarios so that it's all my fault again...