I'm Still Bad For You.

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Fire in the void

You are still light

Even though I try to hide

Even if I am the night

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How drunk is enough

To silence the voices in my head

How drunk is enough

To speak up and wish that I was dead

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Do you like awake like I do

Stare up into night

Is it the same stars that haunt you

The smallness of the lie

I love you

Do you?

I see the years have been kind

At least on the outside

I wish I could say I’m doing fine

But I’m not...

You were right

And I’m lost

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If you’re still listening

and I’m not just noise

Send me a sign

I want to hear your voice

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Is that alright... With you

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Don't be mad at me for lying

When truth feels like dying

Don't ask me to protect you

When it hurts to look into my eyes

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Kill me by the night

In my sleep while I dream

Because to spend another night without you

Though without you is the brink

And what is the parallel

The wine before the movie

Makes for a short story

And the lingering of my eyes

The lingering of me eyes

When they catch yours

Should we have been

Is it worth the sin

It's cold in this water

And I can't warm it up

Because I can't move

You've frozen me

In my sleep

While I sleep

I dream

I dream

Of you every night

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Well I don't need to see a doctor to know the tide is coming in

I don't know how more of the life I have to live

But aging ain't the same just lingering on on the vine

Whatever life is left to me I want to see you when I die

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Reunion

Oh, I understand

From your side of the isle

This rose littered chasm of denial

If in the mire you find me distant

Know this, I’ve tried all I can

To fake the resemblance

To keep the wolves at bay

But I’m all out of tricks

So let the chips fall where they may

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Snorting Smarties

smells like sugar and wine.

Put your heart on the floor

like it's all on the line.

Standing stranded in the desert

can surely clear your mind.

Water from the well

can keep you from dying.

Dying may feel better,

if it means some relief,

than flapping dry lips

saying things you don't believe.

You put a spell on me

and my curse broke free.

You spoke the words

as if my love wouldn't cheat

I felt that wind

bite through the core of me.

I spat in your face,

with my arms opened wide

Because I saw the sun

and it's rays burned my eyes.

You were the sky

that I kept from falling through.

I drank in the sand

and sank into the dunes

Cut off from the blue

I took one last look

and turned away from you.

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At night I often think

As I lay my head to sleep

What's worth remembering

And the tides surely sweep

Ah, indeed I am a dream

All the things I wished to be

Ashes of these petty strings

Answer in my most somber spring

Winter too early to the ring

Wrapped up wrist

Lest they bend and break

She is still worth memory

Even if I am extinct

I will lace her in my end

She will bury me

with what she forgets

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The Shores of Evermore

When there are no more dreams

Your memory such a distant thing

That nothing stirs your heart

Nothing stirs the world

These spinnorial objects

Are animated sans ignition

No spark beyond the void

When these thoughts grip me

I will rest by the shore

When these dreams redeem me

I will dance forever more

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The body obsolete

Now lifted off it's knees

Before the least of these

The soul may now release

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I can take the next step

Even if it yours away from me

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Bite me

Let your venom drain

I've never known suffering

Yet I am numb to this pain

What you are, and what you need

Don't mean a fuck to me

But my blood will run thick

My flesh will necrotize

So, despite what I realise

I'll be a testament

To the rot that I hide

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I'm not the kind of star you can wish upon

I'm the kind of lie you want to tell

One day you'll deny if was a memory

And I'll remember the chance of you and me

Are you awake and sober of from the drink

Are you conscious of all we used to be

If there's a god I want it to see

That I was real and you were free

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Dearth of Wellness

There is an art to your touch

A discovery in your eyes

Your footsteps trailed by grace

The envy of the ignorant

I know what keeps you awake

What the pills don't begin to fake

You know what depths we'd find

And it's about bloody time

We are darkness

We eat the light

And drink the same lie.