this is me

For when you can’t breathe. - C Rob

[lostboithoughts]

Loving you is like trying to touch a star.

I know I’ll never reach you, but I can’t help but try.

[lostboithoughts]

I read a quote that said:

“ if a goodbye hurts, it means you’ve spent your time well”

If I ever cross your mind however brief, I hope it’s with a passing that lightens your heart with a benevolent smile

And if not.. forgive me

[lostboithoughts]

20 years from now, we’ll be more disappointed by the things we didn’t do, rather than the things we did do.

[lostboithoughts]

We didn’t have a happy ending,

But at least our beginning was magical

[lostboithoughts]

Why did you have to go

Maybe I got to close

I cant see you with somebody else

And I thought I was killing time but I’m just killing myself

Because

I can’t see you with somebody else

So I’ll just keep lying face down on the floor

~ For When You Can’t Breath

[lostboithoughts]

I’ll admit it, I over play my part

I genuinely give the love I hope to receive

I love so hard to the point that I hurt my own feelings

I’ll never change that aspect of me though

Cause at least I know I showed up honest, real and as me

[lostboithoughts]

Never faked my “I miss you” or “I love you”

I only ever faked my “I’m okay”

[lostboithoughts]

Maybe, after all this time, I’ll never be with you

But still, you’re the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, and oh how deeply I love you so

[lostboithoughts]

How can someone lose something that they never truly gained

[lostboithoughts]

I took photos of the sunrise to show you how beautiful it was, but you showed me how beautiful you thought the sunset was

[lostboithoughts]

I read a quote that said:

“ if a goodbye hurts, it means you’ve spent your time well”

If I ever cross your mind however brief, I hope it’s with a passing that lightens your heart with a benevolent smile

And if not.. forgive me

[lostboithoughts]

It’s tragic how fate lets us glimpse a love that was never meant to be ours

[lostboithoughts]

My biggest fear is that we were meant to be, what if we were wrong?

And we missed out, on all the ways we were supposed to love each other

What if timing and space, was just an excuse that we used.

That’d be a real tragedy, wouldn’t it?

[lostboithoughts]

It’s crazy, isn’t it?

How life just moves on whether or not you do as well.

[lostboithoughts]

No summer ever came back, and no two summers were ever alike. Times change, and people change..

[lostboithoughts]

I did everything to find you, and in the process not only did I lose you in the end but I lost myself as well..

[lostboithoughts]

I’ve been thinking a lot lately

a lot about past relationships, friendships, the places I would go to and all the stupid things my friends and I use to get into.

It’s weird driving around town and seeing all the spots that my friends and I would hangout at, spots where my ex girlfriends and I would go to get away from people, or where I’d just ride around with music blasting or being quiet so I could think about life.

I can remember so many days from my past. what I was wearing, who I was with, what we were doing, what I was listening to, the things I believed in, I even remember the smell of the air at the time.

And now, 3-10 years later everything is different, honestly nothings the same and I think that’s just a part of growing up, and that’s ok, but just every once in a while the past just comes back to me. All of the good the bad and ugly. It just slaps me right in the face and I gladly take it. Sometimes I wish I could go back, not to redo things but just to live through it twice, really sit down and embrace those moments. The moments when I was by myself, with friends, family or past relationships. The moments that really mattered yanno? Really be able to pay attention to the small things and extra details.

Honestly I’m not sure why I wrote this, but I did and maybe some people out there can relate to this in some way and they’ll like what I wrote and maybe you can write something like this in the comments and share a part of yourself