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[borednurse]

I'm done improving myself, this is what y'all get

[borednurse]

I'm picking new glasses tomorrow, they have to express my absolute truth and individuation through premeditated societal signaling of fashion choices informed by inner jester dance between satire and earnest aspiration, clip-on shades would be nice

[borednurse]

I'm content, thank you universe

[weltenwellen]

Ellen Bass, “The Thing Is”, Poetry of Presence: An Anthology of Mindfulness Poems

[borednurse]

I'm picking new glasses tomorrow, they have to express my absolute truth and individuation through premeditated societal signaling of fashion choices informed by inner jester dance between satire and earnest aspiration, clip-on shades would be nice

[borednurse]

Reading "Orlando" by Virginia Woolf and I'm not sure if I'm not mistaken to find Orlando in all of the social and gender roles that they take on silly and preposterous. The racism and orientalism does not help. I imagined it's going to be a more heartfelt read, I see the intentional parody elements but there are some moments where I'm afraid I'm supposed to take as genuine

[borednurse]

I choose to belief that Orlando is written to be a little ridiculous in different ways throughout the centuries on purpose to expose the ridiculousness and theatrically (derogatory) of performance of gender and societal roles, I nice read overall

[my-dailydreams]

[borednurse]

I gave up on Heidegger's "being and time" because of it's complexity. Somehow, when I read for example Julian Young talking about Heidegger, his philosophy and whether or not it has similarities to nasizm's ideology, I don't struggle with understanding the concepts presented, but coming back to "being and time" feels like walking in circles, like when as a child I was imagining what would happen if I took a photo of a person that holds a photo of them holding the photo I just took of them holding the photo... headache

At risk of being ignorant, what an awfully written book

[goth-queen]

[borednurse]

January to April 2026 so far

- weak start into the nursing career, immense pressure from highly qualified and experienced coworkers, mental health crisis, quitting dream hospital job overnight after 2 week sick leave

- new soft nursing job, vaccinating children, working with friends, finally developing proficiency

- spending every evening, night, weekend and holiday at home instead of the ward

I went into bedside nursing because that's what I thought I needed to do to survive. I sacrificed my peace for a dogma, that charging straight into personal and other people's suffering will allow me to defeat it once and for all, like a knight slaying a dragon.

I don't think I'd have the strength to go through all of the clinicals if it weren't for that delusion, at least now I have a pleasant and well paying work thanks to that damned diploma

Some of the books read:

Orlando - Virginia Woolf

Listy do Marysieńki - Jan III Sobieski

The Tenant of Widfell Hall - Anne Brontë

Heidegger, Philosophy, Nazism - Julian Young

[borednurse]

My problem with The Pitt storytelling is that the realism the writers strive for opens up a lot of issues and ideas, that after watching those 2 seasons I'm not sure if they even *know* they ran themselves into those, but at the same time as an audience we're supposed to be charmed into believing that everything about the show is a carefully engineered machine

I think the one thing "this is going to hurt" did better, is when the narrative abandoned their convention for a second and allowed Shruti to break the 4th wall and say "I'm sorry. I really did try."

I'm weary about putting effort into analyzing the pitt even though I have a lot of thoughts while watching it, because I don't want my sensibilities to be absentmindedly walked over

[borednurse]

Reading "Orlando" by Virginia Woolf and I'm not sure if I'm not mistaken to find Orlando in all of the social and gender roles that they take on silly and preposterous. The racism and orientalism does not help. I imagined it's going to be a more heartfelt read, I see the intentional parody elements but there are some moments where I'm afraid I'm supposed to take as genuine

[borednurse]

One more "I don't get it can someone explain" comment and something will break in me

[louisegluckpdf]

[borednurse]

I'm thinking about how I had approximately 6h to come to terms with that it's going to be the last shift at my first ever job as a nurse. I was heartbroken that I'm being let go but I didn't say goodbye to any of the kids or even frown near them. Figured none of them were particularly close to me yet so there was no need to make them sad over adult problems. I focused and compartmentalized to finish the shift, helped with some high school homework, a lego setup, pushed the night-shift doctor to issue documents for "not her patient's" fertility clinic before urgent chemo.

I grew to like "difficult" kids, maybe because you're a stranger to them, it's easier to become a "cool"(reliable) adult to them, at least that's how I tried to approach the issue of setting boundaries and staying kind at my job. I'm happy that maybe I did something for one of the boys of this kind, since he waved at me unprompted when I was leaving his room for the night, at my last shift.

damn this sucks.

[cryptotheism]

Been noticing and appreciating good verbal texture

[borednurse]

Normally I eat video essays like that up and I do agree that there's a general crisis in literacy and the quality of contemporary writing but just in the first five minutes I started having some counter points that make me feel like the arguments are a bit... willfully ignorant-ish? I'll come back to this with a notebook ready next time

[borednurse]

Thank you for doing god's work

[ratzinmyattic]

dan and phil as hedgehogs!