(almost) 9 months on T
The fast changes are behind me now, so I don’t pay as much attention to them as I used to, which is also why I post less. But not paying attention to the details means I’ve become aware of the slower changes, like body and face shape. My body has actually changed a lot. The fat on my hips and chest is slowly disappearing, and I’ve put on some muscle. Since coming out I’ve gained 10kg, half of it after starting T, and I no longer want to shrink myself out of my own skin. I have to shave twice a week to not look like mr. fluffy. When I touch my face I can actually feel that I’m present, that I’m a physical being, that I’m not outside my body looking at it like a stranger. After 9 months I’m finally starting to settle in my body after a decade of not feeling connected.
I don’t feel like a ghost when I look in the mirror anymore.












