BPD Things

Borderline Personality Disorder is a severe mental illness in which the sufferer experiences instability in moods, emotions, relationships, and behavior. Often, the sufferer falls victim to self-injury and other harmful impulses. BPD has a very negative stigma surrounding it, and sufferers may be seen as scary, dangerous, and frustrating, by friends, family, and even their own therapists. However, there is hope and there is support. One day, people will understand. Please note: Just because you can relate to the above description or any of the posts on here, does not mean you have BPD. There is a lot of overlap with other mental illnesses, and common emotional instability, especially before your 20s, when personality stabilizes. BPD is NOT something you want. If you think you have it, please see a professional to be sure and to get help. We cannot diagnose you and you cannot diagnose yourself. We will always recommend you see a professional. This blog relies heavily on submissions, so please submit all you want! :) FAQ    Getting diagnosed    Suicidal? Self harming?    Under 18    BPD Info & Resources    For friends & family

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When you feel you have lost everything, you still have

books

unexpected kindness in strangers

the rest of the world to travel

languages to learn

animals to take care of

volunteer work to do

the power of a good night’s rest

the changing of seasons

infinite things to learn

billions of people to meet and possibly love

billions of people who might love you back

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Feelings are just visitors, let them come and go.

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chronic-illness-support:

stretches you can do from a seated position (here + here)

guide to yoga postions 

how to do self massage (x, x, x)

some simple ways to relieve stress

tips for vitality and serenity 

how to relax 

visit an online support group

how to do belly breathing  

grounding exercises (mental, physical)

make a comfort box

make a pleasant activities list to refer to 

work through feelings of social isolation

cognitive behavioral therapy worksheets

visit one of these calming websites

coping skills for the disabled or chronically ill

self-care mega list

more self-care tips

even more self-care tips

do some surveys or personality tests

watch TV shows or movies here, here, or here

read some free books 

find DIY stuff to do on pinterest 

go shop on etsy, amazon, wantist, or uncommongoods - even if you can’t buy anything, sometimes it’s just fun to look!

go find some other spoonies to follow (check here and here )

I know this is a pretty small list, and it’s mostly links to posts from other blogs, so if you have thing you would like to add feel free to add or submit and I will add them! 

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We Need You!

Hey guys, 

I realize this blog has been pretty inactive this past month (ok..months), and I am prepared to start answering some questions again because I think what we do on here in forming a community is really important and helpful. I know this and other BPD blogs helped me so much before i ever even became a moderator, and continue to now. Answering others questions and concerns continues to help me understand my own issues in invaluable ways.

However, I am busier than I was when I first volunteered to help with this blog, and I think the same goes for most of the other moderators. I am curious If there is anyone else out there who is interested in helping with answering questions and creating and formatting the actual "BPD things".

If you are a person who suffers with BPD, but is in a stable enough place to comfortably read and answer questions, as well as just generally help with the upkeep of the blog, send a message! Introduce yourself and pick one question that has been asked and published on here to answer in your own words, just so I know you are comfortable in writing informatively (obviously doesn't have to be perfect, I am usually pretty casual and candid, but just so i get a sense of your writing).

I really don't want this blog to fizzle out into the depths of rarely updated tumblrs, but I'm gonna need some help to achieve that!

Also If you have any urgent questions or concerns, I will be on tumblr a lot the next 2 days so I'm here if you need me!

Thanks so much for reading and hope to hear from some of you!

<3

Sophia

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In both my last and current relationship I've noticed bpd tendencies. I behave alot differently around other ppl than I do with bfs, and my mum (who is into psychiatry) says there is no way I have bpd. Is it possible that I have it anyway?

Romantic relationships are a lot of times where BPD sufferers can struggle the most, and they can bring out some of our most challenging and difficult tendencies, so it is possible that this occurring could be a sign of BPD, but if you find that you have no issues with any of these tendencies at all in other aspects of your life, even if you suppress them, it could be something else, such as a more specific relationship based psychological struggle. Either way though I strongly recommend going to see a therapist and talking about it, it will help a ton! I have friends who's parents work in psychology, and thought they had there kids "figured out" but i can't tell you the difference it makes going and talking to someone who is completely separate and neutral from your day to day life. Even when parents are very close to their children, trying to understand and diagnose from that perspective is usually biased one way or the other.

Hope this helps!

<3 Sophia

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Reasons Not to Kill Yourself

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meajora:

Chocolate-covered strawberries

Cats in sweaters

Freshly washed bed sheets

Picnics

Pills with the sugar-coating so they don’t taste like ass when you take them

Days you get to sleep late

Red pandas

Food samples

Free stuff

Street performers

When people do art for you

Cute fat birds

Looking at the sky

Music that makes you cry

Ice cream!

Really big sweaters

P I Z Z A

Finding a sexy pair of sunglasses

Good jokes

Reading a new book

Finding money on the ground

Making wishes at 11:11

What will technology come up with next

Hot drinks when it’s cold outside

Fleece blankets

Scented candles

Buying office supplies for no reason

The smell of the ocean

Star-gazing

Looking good in selfies

Getting mail

The relief you feel after you poop

Jumping on the bed

New outfits

Haircuts!

The feeling of being loved

The feeling of being wanted

It gets better

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Hi, well I've been diagnosed with bpd. And I am in a relationship. And It troubles me because when he's around I feel like I really love him, though sometimes with really big doubts that he loves me back. But sometimes I just look at him and only feel hate, mostly when he's not around though. Then I think like fuck him, I don't need him. He's only playing with me. I'm really scared of getting used again because that has happened so often. But I don't get why sometimes, I just hate him so much.

Hi atro-cious,

I can completely relate to this feeling, I've been in a relationship this past year where when I was with him I was usually happy, but as soon as I wasn't I would switch back and forth between feeling like I didn't even like him or need him or that he was playing me, and didn't care about me at all and was out having a good laugh about me or with another girl and that none of what we had experienced was real, it was all a mean trick just for him to get some ass. I would end up acting vengeful and flirt with other guys, literally out of revenge for things I had basically created and imagined in my head.  I realized in the end he wasn't right for me, but it wasn't because of any of that, and to be honest most of the turmoil came from the relationship I was having with myself in dealing with the relationship I was having with him. Does that make sense? I think a lot of times the issues us BPD sufferers have in relationships have a lot more to do with ourselves then with our partners.

I think what we have to remember is that how our brains interpret things, and what we are feeling is valid, but it is not reality, it is a temporary emotion that passes and changes. When you are feeling like "fuck him, I don't need him" try to dissect why, is this just a defense for fear of getting used again? Sometimes even the absence of someones presence can make a BPD sufferer start to question if they care about them or think that they shouldn't need them. Try to force yourself to be present in your own mind and give valid examples and reasons for everything you feel. A lot of times we can allow our brains to run away with an emotion that isn't backed up by any real truths, just little details our fear grabs onto and freaks out about.

This article is a little harsh in using terms to describe BPD sufferers such as "attention-starved" (although honestly that is probably true for me sometimes haha) so for people in the very early stages of self-examination it may be a little hard to take, but i think it really hits the nail on the head in terms of discussing flip-flopping love/hate feelings.

I hope you know you are completely not alone in your feelings!

<3 Sophia

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I have been diagnosed with BPD but my parents believe I am a drug addict and won't help me get the support I need. I used to smoke a little weed to help me sleep at night but otherwise totally recreational and never too often. How can I help them believe me? :-(

Hi Anon,

This is a tough one. If you're living with your parents and smoking weed, I can understand their concern. I am a pro-drugs person but didn't start until I was in my 20s and believe that it is a decision one should make as an adult if you can.

Are you seeing a therapist currently? Does he/she know about your weed consumption? I know it can help a lot with anxiety, but it does have side effects (like all drugs and medication) and it may not be the best for keeping your mood stable. Other anti-anxiety drugs may be better for you right now, both to help with the issue with your parents, and to help keep your mood more stable. If you're really not smoking any now, would taking a drug test help prove to your parents that it's not something you're doing anymore?

I'm confused why they won't let you get help if you've been diagnosed already. Perhaps the person who diagnosed you can talk to them directly if you give him/her a call or email. Are you under 18? Do you have any other resources you can turn to, e.g. through school, a religious leader, a family doctor? 

I hope maybe some of these thoughts help a bit. Best of luck to you!

~ Stephanie

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I'm so confused at the moment, I feel like I can't handle the situation any more. (fyi I've been diagnosed with bpd 6 months ago) My exams are coming in a few weeks and I'm about to collapse but I don't want to, because I promised my boyfriend (who's also diagnosed) & my parents I wouldn't hurt or try to kill myself, but I can't keep that promise. Neither am I able to tell one of them that things are going this bad. I'm way too scared they'll think I'm a poser or send me to a clinic again. =(

Hi Anonymous,

It sounds like you're going through so much and I'm so sorry you're in this pain. Are you currently seeing a therapist or psychiatrist? It sounds like you really need to talk to a professional who can honestly help with these feelings. It's time to reach out for help more and not try and do it all on your own. 

Have you thought about writing a letter to your boyfriend and/or parents? Sometimes it can also be easier to put things in writing rather than verbally, at least for me. When you say a clinic, do you mean an inpatient facility? Sometimes that can be the best thing if you are actively feeling like harming yourself.

You're not a poser and Borderline Personality Disorder is very real. I'm glad you made that promise, because it can help you to keep it, but it sounds like you need some additional help right now. Please talk to a mental health professional about this so you can get the care you need. We want you to stick around and you deserve to be happy.

xoxo

~ Stephanie

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I think I may have BPD, because I meet 7 out of 9 criteria. I'm under 18, but these symptoms have been ongoing for about two years now. I recently started talking to a therapist but I can't bring myself to talk about these symptoms. He started doing CBT with me but I don't think it works very well at all; it makes me feel like my thoughts and feelings are invalid. And another problem is that I don't know how to bring BPD up at all, because of its negative stigma. What do I do?

Hi Anon,

It's hard to know whether your therapist has negative feelings about BPD unless you ask. CBT can be problematic for those with BPD, just for the kinds of reasons you mention here. You might want to try bringing in something written down which would help with any nervousness you might have and give a clear list of symptoms for your therapist. I've found this page to be very helpful for preparing for an appointment like this, with things you can do and what you might expect.

What to do

Write down any symptoms you or people close to you have noticed, and for how long.

Write down key personal information, including traumatic events in your past and any current, major stressors.

Make a list of your medical information, including other physical or mental health conditions and the names and amounts of medications or supplements you take.

Take a family member or friend along, if possible. Someone who has known you for a long time may be able to share important information with the doctor or mental health professional, with your permission.

Write down the questions you want to ask your doctor so that you can make the most of your appointment.

You may also want to write about how CBT makes you feel. Do you know if there is a Dialectical Behavior Therapy group in your area? You may want to bring this up with your therapist too and say that you'd like to try something different and see if it helps.

I hope that helps you, and best of luck.

~ Stephanie