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I've checked out of life and flew out of my mind. '98

[breakingintolights]

It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[breakingintolights]

If you want to be for yourself, I respect that decision but Im also asking that you not drag others into YOUR shit knowing damn well you are only for yourself.

There’s people that subscribe to that. I do not. I will not beg you to respect MY CHOICE

[breakingintolights]

Every time I literally do not need any more shit to happen, here comes a so called friend or two to create some drama. Every time. I dont care what anyone says but id rather have “no friends” than drama.

[breakingintolights]

I’m not going to disrupt my entire life for someone who can’t even compromise 48 hours.

Stop expecting people to do things for you that you would not do for them.

If you actually cared about me, you wouldnt have even wanted me in that position. You would have understood the distress but every day you continued to add to it.

[breakingintolights]

The only words I have for people in my life up to this point is:

Why didn’t you listen to me? Why was my voice not worth listening to?

I dont ask because I know they won’t have a response. Excuses don’t count.

[breakingintolights]

Good morning.

[breakingintolights]

My newest additions

[breakingintolights]

I’m back. What’s happened?

Moved to Arizona.

Finished Undergrad.

Running a positive space on Instagram. @emmettiris_

New Activities: Pole dancing and yoga

Still living in recovery from alcohol (299 days as of today) & I’ve been taking my meds for my mental health

[smute]

god how do people just function?!? its like i can either take care of my schoolwork OR keep my apartment clean OR look after my mental health OR have a social life… but never two or more at a time. no matter which aspect of my life is going well at a given moment, theres always 3 dumpster fires blazing away in the background. i feel like im playing adult whack-a-mole

[breakingintolights]

The Cost

It’s not easy to be successful or accomplished. It comes at a great cost. My greatest success has been my academic achievements, but they have come at a great cost. Being successful in school or college really isn’t about being the smartest. For me, it’s been about time management, creativity, determination, and perseverance. Those things are costly. It is draining to constantly have to plan every move, persevere through things all (literally) the time. At some point, you do get tired of always making everything work. It costs a lot of energy. It costs you time with friends and family. It costs you time to enjoy yourself and just smelling the roses. 

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Learn to say “no” without explaining yourself.”

— Unknown

[chucrutypilsen]

Eagle Feathers and their meaning to the Lakota Warriors Each time the warrior earned a feather, he would either wear it (but he only wore a couple into battle) or put it on a pole used for special occasions. Once he had collected enough feathers, they were then made into a headdress. Because each feather had a special meaning, binding them together in a headdress made that Indian headdress even more special. Only the men, closest friends of the warrior, were involved in making the headdress. The Indian chiefs also “earned” each of their feathers. The most prized of all feathers to receive for an Indian headdress was the Golden Eagle feather. Because the Indians saw the eagle as a messenger of God, this feather could only be earned through hardship, loyalty, and strength

[swampvvitch-1990]

This is why we say that you don’t understand the significance each feather holds.

This is exactly why war bonnets are absolutely inappropriate unless you are from the tribe who reps them…

[getdownbowbow]

I see one of them in the mirror .

[deathtothempire]

[suicidal-paradise1]

I think about killing myself a lot. Lately it seems to consume my mind. But I want to live, I want to experience so much. So maybe I don't wanna die. I just wanna disappear, and go away from everyone and everything. I just wanna vanish.

[upsidedownself]

[better-off-deadx]

“Nobody would notice if I just disappeared.”

(via better-off-deadx)