Changing My Life, One Pound At A Time

HW: 149 kg SW: 144 kg (8/20/18) CW: 95 kg (210lbs as of 9/10/19) 120lbs lost

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god i’m fucking everything up

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feeling really fat today

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I’ve gained 13 pounds since my last doctors appointment (a year and a half ago) and even though it doesn’t feel like a lot, I feel very defeated. I worked so hard to lose over 100 pound, that gaining 13 feels like “I can’t believe I let that happen” and I don’t love that headspace it’s put me in since that last appointment.

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Well.

It’s been a rough 7 months.

I’ve gained atleast 15 pounds. And I was diagnosed with bipolar 2.

And the best way to treat that (along with meds) is diet and exercise...

So I started WW. I re joined my gym.

So let’s see how this goes..........

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Im feeling very unmotivated.

I have definetly gained weight during quaratine. I have gotten back to the gym but I’m still feeling bad about weight loss.

Ive been trying to be better about snacking and making healthy meals (god bless Hello Fresh) but idk what else to be doing?

Anyone else feeling the struggle?

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I’ve gained 7 pounds since this damn quaratine.

I take 2-3 mile walks, I eat as many veggies as I can, I’m trying to drink as much water as I can.

I also don’t think if it’s just me but seeing all these weight loss tips, tricks, the whole Adele nonsense I’ve been finding it all very triggering. So I’m trying to stay off that.

Anyone have anything they’ve been doing that’s helpful?????

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Posting this because 1) its been v hard to stay sane during quaratine and 2) it’s a nice reminder of where I’ve been, where I’m going and how much I have left to accomplish.

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do any of my bariatric friends have any suggestions/tips/tricks on how to make it through quarantine without feeling like you’re going to gain a shit ton of weight back????

I’ll take anything!

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Did I seriously just put on a size 12 AE jeans?

Is this real life?

[triviayoons]

i wonder how it feels to look in the mirror and not hate every single thing about your body.

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Because today was a hard day

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Felt cute this morning.

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I feel like I’ve been in a bad spot mental about my weight loss. I’ve definietly hit a big stall and I’ve been at the same point (about 202-205lbs) for what feels like eternity.

I think the worst part is feeling really good some days and then feeling like a totally failure other days like there’s no in between. Like some days I still feel like I weigh almost 340 pounds, other days I feel like a rockstar.

Lately I’ve felt like I have no idea what I’m doing anymore.

And that’s been really hard.

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Some days I feel great, other i feel like I still weigh over 320 pounds. Today was a today I felt great and I wanted to share that.

[calm-reef]

Make me admit stuff?

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 3. Have you taken someones virginity? 4. Is trust a big issue for you? 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? 6. What are you excited for? 7. What happened tonight? 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? 9. Is confidence cute? 10. What is the last beverage you had? 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 14. What are you going to spend money on next? 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 18. The last time you felt broken? 19. Have you had sex today? 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 21. Are you in a good mood? 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 24. What do you want right this second? 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 34. Listening to? 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? 38. Who did you last call? 39. Who was the last person you danced with? 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 44. Do you tan in the nude? 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 47. Who was the last person to call you? 48. Do you sing in the shower? 49. Do you dance in the car? 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 53. Is Christmas stressful? 54. Ever eat a pierogi? 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 57. Do you believe in ghosts? 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 59. Take a vitamin daily? 60. Wear slippers? 61. Wear a bath robe? 62. What do you wear to bed? 63. First concert? 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 65. Nike or Adidas? 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? 69. Ever take dance lessons? 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 71. Can you curl your tongue? 72. Ever won a spelling bee? 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 74. What is your favorite book? 75. Do you study better with or without music? 76. Regularly burn incense? 77. Ever been in love? 78. Who would you like to see in concert? 79. What was the last concert you saw? 80. Hot tea or cold tea? 81. Tea or coffee? 82. Favorite type of cookie? 83. Can you swim well? 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 85. Are you patient? 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 87. Ever won a contest? 88. Ever have plastic surgery? 89. Which are better black or green olives? 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? 91. Best room for a fireplace? 92. Do you want to get married?

[herwellnessjourney]

Losing weight is exciting. Seeing positive change is exciting. Reaching your goals is exciting. So just keep going.

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September 2018 -> September 2019