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I am so confused and frustrated.. my therapist is worried i’ve been misdiagnosed and was floating the idea of maybe a bipolar 2 diagnosis. to which i replied that i wasn’t sure, and thought maybe adhd is more appropriate. but now reading the dsm criteria for bipolar 2 i think i may fit that as well. either way i kind of feel like im trying to squeeze myself into a box to fit the diagnostic criteria. and i understand that these illnesses have to be clinically defined but also it’s really not that cut and dry when it all comes down to it. idk. i’m just confused and discouraged and fucking tired of it all. i’ve been trying to stay afloat for so long. things get “better” for a while and then always revert. i’m trying so hard. but it doesn’t ever stick

#mdd #bipolar 2 #adhd #mentally ill #p

might be stepping back up to IOP :/ feel like a huge failure

#this is just general IOP not ed specific #though ed symptoms have increased a bit it’s really the depression that’s killing me rn #tw ed #tw depression #recovery #p

ed-recovery-affirmations

Just a semi-regular reminder that you do not have to wait until it is "that bad" in order to start pursuing recovery. You don't have to let it get worse in order to count. If it's happening to you, it counts. You matter and you don't have to put yourself through more suffering and a longer, more arduous recovery process (and more lasting damage!) in order to prove that it was bad enough. If you want to get better now, you do not have to get anybody's permission to do it. Healing can start anytime, anywhere, and you do not have to endure any worse in order to deserve better.

#so true #i really wish i had gotten help sooner #ed recovery #healing

neptunes-cunt

i love you consistent meals i love you steady blood sugar i love you little snacks i love you non-diet foods i love you full-fat yogurt i love you sugary drinks i love you intuitive eating i love you full stomach i love you breaking free from diet culture i love you body that just wants to keep me alive

#🫶#ed recovery

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Another piece of diet culture to unlearn: that eating an "unhealthy" food negates the benefits of other nutritious things you've eaten. Put bacon and ranch on your salad? Congratulations, you still got a lot of fiber, that's great for your gut biome, and the veggies still contain nutrients. Finished up your dinner with a dessert? You still ate the dinner. You don't have to eat "pure" to take in nutrition from your meals.

#yes!!!#diet culture

really struggling with the weight gain lately. attempting to apply body neutrality but it’s a ton of constant mental effort to not fall into disordered thinking patterns. i know this is the work, but fuck i’m tired

#tw ed #tw weight #recovery #ed recovery #anorexia recovery

crazy that you have to eat to recover from an eating disorder

#:/#it’s so hard lmao #i feel like for so long i’ve invalidated my ex #ed***#to the point where now that i’m really trying to take steps towards recovery #i convinced myself this would be EASY????#and well. it’s not

ruined my entire day by binging and purging lol

#well it started off ruined bc i woke up a little hungover #because i had 2 glasses of wine on an empty stomach last night #and then i didn’t have coffee until noon #didn’t eat until 3 and by eat i mean: binge and purge #and then had to take a little #nap bc it drained me of all energy #and now it’s 4 hours later and i still feel physically ill #but i need to eat something so i can take my medication lol #anyway. this is what happens when you’re 28 and still have an ed #seriously a younger version of me used to bp like 6 times a day and still get shit done #idk #lol #tw ed #tw anorexia #personal #i’m supposed to be recovering but i’m getting worse

i have to log all my food & drink for my therapist and it is indeed The Worst

#and it’s def making things Worse …. 🧐#tw ed #personal

having a wild friday night!!! (filling out intake paperwork for eating disorder treatment)

#😕

i haven’t posted on here in like. 17 years but i have an intake appointment today for an eating disorder program and i’m shitting bricks

#sooo nervous and feeling unworthy of recovering etc etc etc #anorexia recovery #bulimia recovery #ed recovery #personal

beachytablecloth

summer is approaching you know what that means….

please don’t make comments about people’s scars. please don’t question why your friend is wearing long sleeves even when it’s super hot out. please don’t stare or make us feel any more uncomfortable than we already do. for anyone who’s struggled with self harm and has scars from it, the decision whether or not to wear clothing that reveals them is an incredibly stressful and personal one. so please don’t add any additional pressure to that.

and to anyone who does have self harm scars: i love you and you are allowed to wear whatever makes you most comfortable. you are wonderful ♥️

brookerecovers

sending some love to all my friends who are struggling/ in recovery. thanksgiving is always a tough day. love you all ♥️

#it’s that time of year again 🙃#recovery #ed recovery #thanksgiving #mental illness #anorexia #anorexia recovery

beachytablecloth

hello. as we go into the holiday season i just want to remind you:

- don’t comment on anyone’s weight

- don’t comment on what anyone is/ isn’t eating

- it’s okay if you’re eating more/ different kinds of food than you might normally

- be kind to yourself

<3

#<3

august is always such a hard month

#summer always fucks me up #not that any time of year doesn't fuck me up #but like each is its own brand #and we're going down the shore next week so #wooooof ed thoughts are loud #mental illness #mental health #anorexia #personal

I’ve been doing ..... better? with food.... like I’m eating a pretty good amount every day, I’d say. And I haven’t purged in a couple months!!! but the thoughts are still so loud and this time of year is obviously so triggering. but idk. in some ways I am doing okay rn

#tw anorexia #tw ed #recovery #anorexia #idk i’m doing fine but also not good if that makes sense hahaha #i think i’m learning to be a little kinder to myself #which is good #recovery update #personal

beachytablecloth

[Image ID: A picture of the sun setting over mountains. The words "signs of light" are in large text. Underneath them in smaller text is written "a zukka fic by beachytablecloth inc." End ID]

And now, out of breath from running, Sokka can feel the anxiety beginning to overwhelm him, stitching his sides and pounding in his ears.

“It’s Zuko,” he finally gets out, panting. “He’s missing.”

or,

Zuko gets kidnapped; Sokka falls apart.

signs of light by beachytablecloth, written for the atla 18+ big bang! beta-ed by corey and grace. art by beck and podfic by viviana coming soon!

rating: M (mostly for language)

pairing: sokka/zuko

wc: 24k

updates weekly on mondays!

beachytablecloth

chapter two!!!

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