This is Me!

[bubblebee103]

For 24 years I have been living with a demon inside my mind. It is something that a lot of people fail to understand. Mental Depressive Disorder is not a sickness that you can actually see, physically. Basically, I am struggling just to keep myself alive with a mind that literally gave up on my body. Currently, I am undergoing treatment for my melancholia, insomnia and mood swings. I am leaning to those who is willing to support me both mentally and physically. Trying hard to push away toxic and negative people away for my own recovery.

[bubblebee103]

I am a hopeless romantic! 😌

[bubblebee103]

Seeing Is Believing

By

Ann-Pierre Rique

It was a cold winter afternoon when she suddenly felt the warmth of her memories seeping in. What triggered it? Was it the warm coffee she made? Or the smell of the burning fire wood in her living room? Was it the falling snow outside her window? Well whatever it was she knew she was missing him. Missing his smell. His warm arm around her. His greenish blueish eyes gazing her. She knew she will never found anyone else quite like him. But boy did she thought wrong! She was not fully prepared for what she was about to encounter in her future life. She was not up to the game as she used to be. Will she make it through her new journey to find love and peace?

[bubblebee103]

As Cold As Fire

By

Ann-Pierre Rique

Her heart had been broken too many times. She became as cold as ice. Waiting to be melted by the right fire. She did not actually gave up. Never. She just lie there. Dormant. Waiting to erupt. There were few almost eruption encounters. But it all turn out to be easily flushed by her coldness. She thought to herself that one day, she might feel that fire again. But until then, she turns on her cold, ice shield to protect her heart from bleeding again. She might not recover from the cold. She does not care anymore. She wanted the warmth but she’s still scared of getting burnt if she flew too close to the sun.

[lifewithmentalwellness]

[bubblebee103]

You do

[bubblebee103]

See My Story

By

Ann-Pierre Rique

He was looking at the window. Watching the raindrops trickled down the glass. Almost shivering, he tried to keep himself warm with his jacket. Snuggling deep into the sofa. There it was, her scent! Lingering around him. Sweet, soft musky vanilla with a hint of rose. He realised that his jacket’s smells like her. He can almost see her, standing in front of him. If he just reaches out, he might just touches her shoulder. Her waist-long dark brown hair, almost black, dancing gently on her back, softly blown by the wind. Her sweet baby face, and her full beautiful lips. Her crooked smile is like the sun in the morning. Warm but so serene. Her slightly slanted eyes lights up every time those lips smiles. Every time she does that, his heart skipped a little bit faster. He can almost feel her soft skin caressing his arm. He remembered the first time he saw her was on her Instagram account. She has the most amazingly beautiful smile he has ever seen on a human being. Her smile was so sincere he was almost fooled by it. Which indeed, he did! He was fooled by her enchanting smile. Then, he remembered the first time he met her in person. There were a bunch of friends around them but he just couldn’t be bothered by the others. He was so focused on her that he could actually saw her cheeks reddened, blushed as she smiles and look away just to avoid his gazing eyes. Those dark brown eyes were full of mysteries. She’s gorgeous! Why is she still single? How come nobody claims her? Am I really that lucky to be with her? What did I do right to deserve her time? All those questions keeps running around his head. The first time he tasted her lusciously soft full lips. It was a short sweet kiss, parting goodbye with her on the second time they’ve met. It was in front of her house. He can feel the rushed of warm blood on his face as the Grab driver pulls away from her driveway. He was smittened by her soul. At that exact moment, he knew he was meant to see her on Instagram. He was supposed to look for her, in this lifetime. He is determined to get her. She belongs to him.

-Prologue-

[bubblebee103]

Distance and insecurity

I had an argument with my other half earlier this evening. I told him I suddenly felt like he’s been distant. He told me it’s my insecurity. And I actually believe him. The distance is really taking a toll on me. I really wished he’s here with me. I missed him so much. There are times I’m mad at him cos of his job but most of the time I hate myself for loving him too much. I am really holding myself back when I talked to him. Trying to hide the pain of being faraway from him. But he was so cool and firm, reassuring me that he love me too much and he don’t want to argue with me. Insecurity is my enemy at the moment. I kept telling myself not to think too much about it. I love him too much.

[bubblebee103]

Welcome home to my buddies, Michelle and Jeremy. They've been in Bahrain for the last 4 years. Missed her so much. I was kinda sad last night, cos I missed my boyfriend. I envy those who has the pleasure of having their love ones with them. I told them how lucky they are. I hope they'll never waste the time and moment they could spend together. I wished he was here. Even though he's not physically here with me, he's everywhere with me in my heart. I keep wondering how is it gonna be after all these while being apart. Am I gonna be able to naturally hug him or kiss him, like I used too before?! Is it gonna be awkward?! Goshhh.. I wished really hard that if only I could stop thinking too much and just enjoy the distance and chances to miss him. Let the love grew deeper and fonder. I miss my soldier boy!

[teenagecrush]

[amortizing]

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”

— Bob Marley (via amortizing)

[milsolifeblog]

[bubblebee103]

Amen

[i-am-a-marine-wife]

I don’t love the uniform. I love him. The uniform is a bonus.

[i-am-a-marine-wife]

I met a military guy on ok cupid and hes so sweet. Weve been messaging for over a month everyday and had two 2 hour long skype calls. I havent had a relationship in 6 years so i dont know how to broach the subject with him of dating exclusively and im terrified id hear the answer “well im talking to a couple other girls so no” even though im 99% sure that wouldnt even be his answer. Trying to remind myself hes working and 14 hour difference is stressful and i was hoping for some tips 💚

First of all, that’s awesome that you’ve found a sweet guy! Especially after a six-year hiatus.

In my experience, if you want to talk to someone about something and you’re supposed to, the opportunity will present itself. He may drop hints, he may talk to you first about it. It all depends on the situation.

The fourteen hour difference is HUGE! Be patient, he’s going through a lot being in the military. Things happen during his work day that you may never find out about. If he seems a bit more clingy or tired, that’s a good indication that he didn’t have the best day. Just be willing to change some things depending on the day (you were planning on a “date night” but he was tired so you don’t, or you want to approach a serious subject but he’s in a hyperactive mood). Just know that he has to do the same, though if he’s as sweet as you say he is, then that won’t be a single worry!

My best advice? Be patient and learn to trust. Trust that when/if you do go steady, that he won’t cheat. Trust that he’s doing well if he wasn’t able to send a message.Trust that he’s okay and still alive. Being with a military person is stressful for both parties, but with hard work and willingness to change and put up with some stupid nonsense, you’ll make it through.

[bubblebee103]

I feel you girl..

[i-am-a-marine-wife]

The MILSO community helps people in relationships. When I was away from my husband I needed that. Now I’m out here with him, and I’m seeing so many things that I was not prepared for. Befriending other service members. Getting along with his SOs so well he stays at our house and I cook for him. Gaining a new best friend.

Nor was I prepared for them to leave. Three have already parted ways due to orders or getting out. Two more will be getting out in a few months, and my best friend will be leaving soon for deployment.

Here I sit, listening to my husband nap with our cat as I mentally prepare myself to not be able to see or hug or torment my best friend for months at a time.

Ladies, there’s a whole different world in the military. Good, and bad. But mostly good. I hope you’ll be more prepared than I was.

[ldrdiariess-blog]

“Distance means you end up missing someone before they have even left”

— Follow @ldrdiariess for more LDR quotes & advice from LDR bloggers. (via ldrdiariess)

[teenagecrush]

[rbecje]

Nothing can separate us.