Rhymes of Darkness

I am a 22 year old male. I suffer from anxiety and depression. This Is mainly a dark poetry blog. If you enjoy dark poetry, or suffer from mental illness you won't feel so alone here. I hope you enjoy my writing!

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Perilous Procrastination

Why do I have a fascination with procrastination?

I have no explanation for this mind full of devastation.

trying to avoid hesitation, but run into much frustration

Positive change is slow, but necessary for me to grow.

I have more pain than I show, it isn’t easy to just let go.

One day I will glow, how long will it take? I don’t know. 

[prospects]

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Missing Myself

I hide deep inside the bulk of my pain, you wouldn't understand if I tried to explain.

Afraid of my thoughts being wrong, just like my actions. I stuff in my suffering by using distractions.

I Fear it all, even the air that I breathe. I'm living in the darkest reality one mind could conceive.

Why can't I escape and live in the land of my dreams? Evading my problems is impossible it seems.

I must break away, I want to be free. I have forgotten myself and what it's like to be me.

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Astonishing Acceptance

Do not self diminish or before you begin you will be finished.  

Embrace the dark and light, resistance causes an inner fight.

Accept the pain and fear, a calming breath will make it clear.

Your negative thoughts are not you, even if they stick like glue.

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Seeds of Happiness

I have but one confession, self judgements are my obsessions.

Lately I have began to question all of my negative suggestions.

Fear and darkness rule my mind, where is some happiness to find? 

Burdened by my excessive ego, seeds of happiness need to regrow.

Learning acceptance without perfection, that is my desired direction. 

Let love and freedom flourish in my brain, time to let go of my pain.

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Lady Liars

I gave you my trust, but now that has crumbled to dust.

It was more than lust, but now my heart is covered in rust.

Lady Liars unjust, into this horrid world I have been thrust.

Bury me in the crust, I don't want to live if truth isn't a must.

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Unfair Despair

I wallow in despair because nobody cares, nobody ever said that life was fair and nobody is there to hear my prayers. Life is becoming much too hard to bare.

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Tenacious Twilight

Veil between realms, torn and overwhelmed.

Far too many thoughts, are they real or not? 

Thoughts breed emotion, such a commotion.

Silent shadow serenade, sorrow perfectly portrayed.

Masterful massacred mind, Beauty and blood aligned.

Thoughtful Tenacious twilight, can darkness be delight?

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Private Hell

Fully faded sanity, what is a bigger joke than humanity?

Everyone, they always leave. Finding life hard to breathe.

Losing all my energy, mental illness a separate entity.

Fabled cure for my mind's intrusions, you can't fix my delusions.

Cast away, can't you tell? I'm all alone in my private hell.

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Prodding Pain

Searching for myself inside, feeling like I have already died.

Can't escape my persistent pain, never will be whole again.

Anger and agony pierce my skin, feeling so confused within.

I've fallen apart, there is no fix. Mind full of treacherous tricks.

Death seems to be the only way, nobody listens to what I say.

Feel so alone in my broken brain, all I ever feel is my prodding pain.

Wishing for someone to hold, my darkness is really getting old.

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Pointless Prayers

My effort has been wasted, bitter torment will be forever tasted.

My life is broken so I try to remake it, but I can no longer take it.

I try to change but don’t succeed, uncertain of the things I need.

Each breath a burden I try to forget, each action I always regret.

Save your pleads and prayers, your god is a lie or doesn’t care.

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Intrusions

On the precipice of destruction, no use for reconstruction, my brain defines malfunction.

I need a change this pain inside me, Currently it is too self defining, I need some self refining

I feel obliterated, I would be lying if I told you I could tolerate it. For so long I’ve masqueraded 

Now I am overwhelmed in exasperation, my mind is a disaster nation where you sign your damnation.

I am the confusion that I feel inside my intrusions, I’ve lost sight of what is reality and what are illusions.

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Restart

Do as you like in this life that we breathe, Don’t lose yourself or you will be sour and seethe.

Set free your burdens and you will evolve, Don’t let your dreams die and dissolve.

Shadows firm grasp upon the rend of my heart, why can’t I press reset? I need to restart.

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Delight is Right

work the machines of masochism in my head, it feels so good when you make me feel dead.

Dark and despair, you need to become the best of friends, accept yourself and the sorrow ends.

Exit the errors within, saying you are worthless is how the terrors begin and you will never win. 

free yourself from the internal fight, do whatever gives you delight, what feels good is right!

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Never Ending Night

Don't feel alive, just feel alone. Have a roof over my head but no place to call home.

Escape I Cannot, it's not in the plan. Don't treat me like my darkness, I am a man.

I Know you’re confused because I am too, I pray for a fix but there is nothing I can do.

Living in shadows, I wait for the end. Don't tell me to smile because I'll have to pretend.

The only way out is your guiding light, but no one dares tread in my never ending night.

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Over active and self destructive imagination, signed a contract with the devil for my own damnation,

My demons Eviscerate every corner of my soul, look inside my heart and you will see only a hole.

Their claws always force me underground, don’t look for me I am forever lost and I never will be found.