Hi, I'm Gerry! (yes, like the TMA character) ☆ space nerd ☆ Earth lover ☆ only hopepunk mindset on this account ☆ story blog: https://www.tumblr.com/gerrytheflyinghare?source=share
okay, i really need to rant about Gerry Keay Delano to SOMEBODY, but since none of my friends listened to tma (or they are only in process) i'll just do it here, idc + there will be the headcanons i have about him so bear with me
spoilers to all of tma, so be careful
OKAY, SO, i love Gerry so much, it's actually insane, and i have so many thoughts that it's honestly hard to decide where to start, so let's start with his (poorly dyed) hair
i was thinking why he started dying his hair in the first place, maybe it was because he got his natural hair colour from his mother, but then i recalled the episode with teen Gerry and there he already had his black hair, so it's probably just the goth™ thing
another question is why he's growing his hair out, and a few artworks with Eric Delano got me thinking that maybe it's because Gerry's father also had long hair? he could see in the photos, for example, though i'm not sure if the bitch Mary Keay was graceful enough to save any photos of her husband
another thing that i noticed: Gerry said that he always wanted his friends to call him, well, Gerry (i was genuinely bawling my eyes out by the end of MAG 111), and then later, when talking to Gertrude, Eric also calls Gerry by this form of his name. when eric died, Gerry was about two years old, maybe he somehow has some vague memory of his father calling him that, and that's why he wanted his friends to call him by this form of his name, opposed to how his mother called him
when and how did he start smoking? was it during his time with Mary, or when he was already with Gertrude? i don't remember any mention of Mary Keay smoking, but we know for sure that Gertrude did, so maybe the all-seeing grandma served as a bad influence?
it's been said before but he is genuinely so kind and SO strong, and i mean morally, like? it was so easy for him to turn into a monster. yes, no matter what he would still most likely be going around and burning books out of pure hatred towards his mother and the laughed out of town cowboy, but he also decides to just help people? when met with horrors it's so easy to turn into "if i suffered why shouldn't everyone else suffer as well?" kind of person, but he didn't? instead, knowing how dangerous it is and how hard it is to deal with all that he interrupts the plans of the entities and saves the strangers he would never see anymore in his life. the man is so strong and kind and he actually cares, i'm going to cry¿¿¿?
kinda have a thought about how goth music resonated with his emotional state due to living in an actual nightmare, but the thought is very vague, so just take it as it is
he's a cat person, argue with the wall
i also headcanon him listening to Bring Me The Horizon and The Funeral Portrait (along with the widespread MCR headcanon) because they're associated with him a lot in my head
that's it for now, i'll be adding more but right now it's the middle of the night and my brain won't work, bye
out of the bad habits (that people often use to cope with reality) the only one mentioned regarding Gerry is smoking. nothing said about drinking or drugs, which lead me to thinking about another coping mechanism — daydreaming. as someone who often gets lost in my own thoughts for hours, i can only imagine how many times he probably found himself lost in imaginary scenarios. again the moment in MAG 111 when he told Jon that he always wanted his friends to call him Gerry tells us that he thought about it at least more than a few times. he never managed to make actual friends, he was fucking lonely, and while most of the time he could work on disrupting the horrors' (or his mother's) plans, everyone sometimes have these moments where we are left alone with our thoughts, and the truth is — people need other people, and i am on the verge of tears every time i think about how many times he thought about just living a normal life with his non-existent friends
anyways, thank you @almondfish3042 for inspiration, i am feeling sick
HIS HOBBIES. from what we know, Gerry is a really good artist, makes me wonder if he had a sketchbook that he maybe kept in his drawer or maybe carried with himself wherever he went. was he drawing the fears to take them out of his head or maybe just sketching the scenery? made music-inspired illustrations? maybe drew Leitner with a stick up his ass idk
was thinking maybe at some point he tried himself at music too but not sure about it
JUST REALIZED THAT SINCE HE'S AN ARTIST IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE THAT HE IMAGINES THE FEARS LIKE COLOURS AS HE SAID IN MAG 111 OH MY VAST THIS IS SO— *microwave sounds*
does he like spicy food or prefer sweets? i can't make up my mind about it
i like to think that he was liked by kids even though he himself tried to distance himself from any interaction with them as much as possible. kids can really feel good people and he is just so. good. i usually don't like labeling people as "good" or "bad" but here i just. Y'ALL AGREE WITH ME. besides, kids really like cool-looking people and he looks cool af
if you write something, you're a writer. if you make visual art, you're an artist. it really is that simple.
the online discourse about whether or not fanfic writers and fan artists are "real writers / real artists" is not only tiring but it also makes no sense. because by saying "fanfic writers aren't real writers, fan artists aren't real artists, because their art centers around pre-existing characters and because their art cannot legally be monetized" you're saying "art, to me, is not about art itself but about whether or not the thing I consume is about pre-existing characters", you're saying "art, to me, is not about art itself but about whether or not it is profitable" and that makes no sense.
art (creative writing included) doesn't care if the characters it portrays already exist in a piece of media, it doesn't care about profit or money. that's not what art is about. what art is about, is the artists'/writers' love and passion that they have for the worlds they create. and fanfic writers and fan artists create purely out of love and passion that they have for their stories and their comfort characters. that's the precise definition of being a writer/an artist.
It lets people access scientific articles for free. This is dangerous. It helps the free flow of knowledge and reduces the competitive edge of all the people who worked really hard to have been born into a wealth.
Like, it’s literally a website where you can type in the DOI of an article and read it, without ever having to pay the publisher who exploited the author.
So, again, do not, under any circumstance, use Sci-Hub. I mean, can you imagine a world where knowledge is free and easily accessible to everyone? Even, y'know, poor people?
Libgen also has many books online, including textbooks, searchable by name, author, and ISBN. Can you imagine textbook companies not getting their hard-earned income from poor college students? Here is the link just so you make sure that you never accidentally stumble across this horrible, unethical website.
Oh, and while we’re talking about books, if you’ve managed to stay clear from Libgen, definitely don’t go to zlibrary, where you can also find a lot of textbooks, but unfortunately they’re completely free.
Another inside tip from academia: Those papers in really expensive journals that are effectively inaccessible to anyone not in a university network? Depending on the discipline it’s very likely that same paper is on a “preprint” server somewhere, with no access restrictions.
Like if you want to read basically any physics, math, or CS paper, arXiv.org will have you covered, because everyone uploads their papers there before submitting to a journal (and generally updates it after peer review). I know all of my papers are on there. This is such common practice that journals have it baked into their licensing agreements that authors retain the right to upload their work to these places.
So the next time you get hit with that paywall, you may not even need sci-hub, just click the arxiv link on google scholar instead.
if for some reason none of this works, the old “send a email nicely asking for the paper to the author” is always a good trick. remember most scientists hate the commercialisation of scientific knowledge
Many authors of papers are on ResearchGate! You can ask for papers there, if they don’t just post a copy to download. If they’re associated with a college, you can usually find their email addresses in the department directory, also.
You're not really supposed to say it this way, because its considered crass, but here in the US children are culturally and legally considered essentially the property of their parents.
Note that its considered more crass to point this out than it is to treat children as property in the first place.
