caeluzspaceluz

(He/it/any neopronouns) Just another teen surviving life and being zerself on tumblr I just post whatever!

[caelusspacelus]

INTRODUCTION!!!!!!!!

Gonna put a cut here… cuz I found out for some users all the like blinkies/stamps/etc. cover the entire screen as they scroll… so warning that could happen to you!!

Organization tags legend: here

My Artfight: here

My Smilk ask blog: @smilkgpt

All blinkies, dividers, etc., are NOT mine! Most are from gifcity, but any that are not will be credited at the end

Most people know me as Caelus, but I also wanna start using Aiko and Vivi!

My pronouns are he/it + ANY (yes any. go wild. please.) neopronouns :D

I am a Wind Archer Cookie, Jimmy (CHARACTER NOT CONTENT CREATOR), Etho (CHARACTER NOT CONTENT CREATOR), Kagamine Len, and Shadow Milk Cookie fictionkin

Because of this, I also yumeship with Fire Spirit Cookie, Tango (CHARACTER NOT CONTENT CREATOR), Bdubs (CHARACTER NOT CONTENT CREATOR), Kaito(? Not sure yet), and Pure Vanilla Cookie (Specifically Truthless Recluse) >_<

I also yumeship with Luka (GOD DAMNIT WHY ARE SO MANY OF THESE CHARACTERS SIMILAR COLORS) from ALNST but that’s not caused by me being a fictionkin lol

DOUBLES CAN INTERACT!

And I’M SHARING! So idm if ppl who yumeship with the same characters as me interact :D

...I also in general wanna meet fellow fictionkins/yumeshippers...

Fandoms I'm in:

Cookie Run Kingdom (If that wasn't already clear lol)

MCYT (Hermitcraft, Life Series, Vampires, Empires. That kinda circle :3) (Favorite ytber is TangoTek btw !!!) (No this is not because I kin Jimmy… at least I don’t think? Anygays, I’ve loved his content before I knew I was a fictionkin lol)

Regretevator (The only roblox fandom im still in 😭 rip my forsaken obsession, you'll be missed a lil bit)

Lord of the Flies (PLEASSEEEE I NEED FRIENDS IN THE LOTF FANDOM AAAAAAAA)

Itsfunneh/Krew (Childhood ytber that i still watch :D)

KATSEYE (Iconic by mistake is so iconic... heh, get it?..)

Minor blinkie is from CyberDaydream on DeviantArt!

Paraboy blinkie is from DestinysGrace on DeviantArt!

Pansexual blinkie is from babykttn on DeviantArt!

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SORRY I HAVENT POSTED ANYTHING ALL DAY... I HUNG OUT W/ MY FRIEND AT HIS HOUSE AND FORGOT TO TELL YALL...

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lowkey might tell my GC I’m a fictionkin (of wind archer and shadow milk specifically) thru my status because sending an actual message abt it is scary…

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OK I DID IT… DHEAUIDBIQUSBDIQUEBFUIWEBF

NOW WE JUST GOTTA WAIT CUZ ONLY LIKE 1-2 OF THEM ARE SEMI ONLINE RN SO…

GAHHH IM SCARED

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lowkey might tell my GC I’m a fictionkin (of wind archer and shadow milk specifically) thru my status because sending an actual message abt it is scary…

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GAAHHHHHHHH I WANT TO CHANGE MY DISCORD PROFILE (it’s always been a thing with me to always have my profile as a specific character) TO ONE OF MY OTHER KINS (My discord profile is already Len)

BUT I CANT

WANNA KNOW WHY?

IN MY MAIN GC 1 ONE OF MY FRIENDS IS VERY ATTACHED TO WIND ARCHER (calls him her child) AND ANOTHER ONE IS VERY ATTACHED TO SHADOW MILK (sends smilk gifs, has said if we matched crk character he wants to be smilk, has made their profile smilk before) AND IM NOT OUT TO MY GC AS A FICTIONKIN EVEN

THEN I HAVE A FRIEND OUTSIDE THE GC WHO KINS JIMMY (Has voids profile as Jimmy as well sooo) AND I HAVENT TOLD VOID I KIN JIMMY (He’s never said if void doesn’t want doubles interacting… but void has also never said he’s fine with doubles interacting and it doesn’t say anywhere on voids profile… but also void kins Jimmy from DDVAU specifically… and I only kin Jimmy from Life Series and maybeee Empires? Soooo…)

AND THEN THAT SAME FRIEND INVITED ME TO A SERVER WITH VOIDS FRIENDS AND ONE OF THOSE FRIENDS IS AN ETHO FICTIONKIN (it might actually be that friend- I can’t actually tell bcuz the person uses tupperbox so I can’t actually see if it’s the same person)

GAHHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭

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JUST FOUND OUT DOC FOUGHT A GROUP OF DUTCH GUYS AT A DISNEYLAND BAR BECAUSE THEY WERE CALLING THE BARTENDER THE N SLUR AND ALSO CALLED BDUBS THE F SLUR

(here’s the clip of Doc talking abt it)

THIS IS ANOTHER REASON WHY I LOVE THE HERMITS <33333

THIS IS ALSO HOW HE RESPONDED TO A HATEFUL COMMENT

🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

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When I’m trying to find fellow MCYT kins but most of them (especially when it comes to canon calls) ARE DAMN BODILY ADULTS 😭😭😭😭

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Sbihubwihubehuibahuibuihebuihbs

Had an Etho kinshift last night while reading fanfic… and came across a fic with bigender Etho

Guess who just found out it’s bigender during an Etho kinshift

MEEEEEEEEE!

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Been in a Jimmy (MCYT) kin shift for some time now… ask me anything!!!

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Ok so before I started watching Etho… I would think about him from his interactions with Joel (Even tho I literally watch Grian and EGG exists)

And I feel like not many people talk abt this

But (at least in Hermitcraft, it’s been too long since I watched double life so idk) Joel and Etho’s interactions have always felt kinda awkward for me…

And honestly before I started seeing clips of Etho shenanigans I didn’t think he was such a silly guy LOL

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I POST 2 VENTS AND SUDDENLY MY TUMBLR FEED IS JUST FILLED WITH VENT POSTS- HELLO????

SEEING VENT POSTS AINT GOOD FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH TAKE ME AWAY 😭😭😭 BRING ME BACK TO MY NORMAL TUMBLR FEED

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Do I creep you out?

(Basically just a huge vent post. It get heavy.)

Do I creep you out

except I convinced myself I had OCD and also convinced myself I was plural just to try and understand what the fuck is wrong with my brain

do I creep you out

except I convinced myself I was hypersexual and still can’t tell if I do or don’t because sometimes I’ll think of something I don’t want to uncontrollably and sometimes I’ll be repulsed by the thought of it

do I creep you out

except I’m fucking crazily in love with my friend when I can never have him and I’m fine to spend my whole life yearning for someone I can’t have and if he was gone I probably would be too or I would become depressed and I know that’s an unhealthy way to think about someone but I don’t know how to fix it

do I creep you out

except I bottle up all my feelings and never fucking tell anyone like a dumbass because I don’t want people to worry about me like I worry and don’t know how to reply when people vent to me and then just post them on the internet thinking “maybe, just maybe someone, anyone, will see this and say anything to me” but then it never happens

do I creep you out

except I think I have autism but I can’t tell if I’m just convincing myself like I’ve done before and i’ve only had like 1-3 meltdown-like things happen so obviously I’m just faking it or smt

do I creep you out

except I get joy from seeing a character I kin break down another character but I hate it at the same time and i just generally enjoy insane/fucked up characters

do I creep you out

except the only thing keeping me tied to this god forsaken earth is the fear of death and what actually comes after. And him.

do I creep you out

except I struggle with basic hygiene. I’ll leave a bunch of food wrappers in my room and bed. I’ll not shower until I get too sick of my hair or I’m made to. I haven’t brushed my teeth in months, maybe over a year, until recently and that’s only because I’m made to. I won’t wear my contacts for weeks even tho if I don’t I can’t read text unless it’s a couple feet in front of me. I wouldn’t change clothing if people wouldn’t notice.

do I creep you out

except I’m practically afraid of negative emotions and freak out when someone vents to me even tho I tell them they can

do I creep you out

except I get worried over the smallest things like just blowing my nose nearby anyone or asking for help from someone

do I creep you out

except I can’t fucking explain why I am the way I am because I’m not diagnosed with anything and it pisses me off so bad

do I creep you out

except I’ll be clean for some time and then one small thing will end up with my ankles fucked up again

do I creep you out

except no one knows 100% of me

do I creep you out

except I’m me.

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Feeling better now <3

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Do I creep you out?

(Basically just a huge vent post. It get heavy.)

Do I creep you out

except I convinced myself I had OCD and also convinced myself I was plural just to try and understand what the fuck is wrong with my brain

do I creep you out

except I convinced myself I was hypersexual and still can’t tell if I do or don’t because sometimes I’ll think of something I don’t want to uncontrollably and sometimes I’ll be repulsed by the thought of it

do I creep you out

except I’m fucking crazily in love with my friend when I can never have him and I’m fine to spend my whole life yearning for someone I can’t have and if he was gone I probably would be too or I would become depressed and I know that’s an unhealthy way to think about someone but I don’t know how to fix it

do I creep you out

except I bottle up all my feelings and never fucking tell anyone like a dumbass because I don’t want people to worry about me like I worry and don’t know how to reply when people vent to me and then just post them on the internet thinking “maybe, just maybe someone, anyone, will see this and say anything to me” but then it never happens

do I creep you out

except I think I have autism but I can’t tell if I’m just convincing myself like I’ve done before and i’ve only had like 1-3 meltdown-like things happen so obviously I’m just faking it or smt

do I creep you out

except I get joy from seeing a character I kin break down another character but I hate it at the same time and i just generally enjoy insane/fucked up characters

do I creep you out

except the only thing keeping me tied to this god forsaken earth is the fear of death and what actually comes after. And him.

do I creep you out

except I struggle with basic hygiene. I’ll leave a bunch of food wrappers in my room and bed. I’ll not shower until I get too sick of my hair or I’m made to. I haven’t brushed my teeth in months, maybe over a year, until recently and that’s only because I’m made to. I won’t wear my contacts for weeks even tho if I don’t I can’t read text unless it’s a couple feet in front of me. I wouldn’t change clothing if people wouldn’t notice.

do I creep you out

except I’m practically afraid of negative emotions and freak out when someone vents to me even tho I tell them they can

do I creep you out

except I get worried over the smallest things like just blowing my nose nearby anyone or asking for help from someone

do I creep you out

except I can’t fucking explain why I am the way I am because I’m not diagnosed with anything and it pisses me off so bad

do I creep you out

except I’ll be clean for some time and then one small thing will end up with my ankles fucked up again

do I creep you out

except no one knows 100% of me

do I creep you out

except I’m me.

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fictionkin vent cuz idk

(Very heavy vent + swearing. You have been warned)

I fucking hate being a fictionkin, specifically of shadow milk

I hate how I feel about PVC

I fucking hate him so much I hate him I hate him

but when it’s Truthless Recluse… I get so fucking obsessed

I feel genuine happiness whenever I see stuff abt PVC being corrupted, like him breaking down because of it

and I fucking hate it so much

I hate that I feel this way

I can’t fucking control it tho

why am I swearing so much???

I don’t like this

why am I like this

I hate that man so fucking much

I want to see him crumble

SEE

FUCKING SEE

I WAS LEGIT JUST WRITING WHAT THE FUCK WAS GOING ON IN MY MIND

AND MY MIND CONTINUED ON I JUST DIDN’T WRITE IT

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME

I HATE THIS

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Hey so how in the world do I respond to someone venting in a lighthearted way

My friend (same friend i’ve talked about b4) just messaged me venting but in separate messages that are formatted like “hey twin _____ 🥹”

AND GENUINELY I NEED HELP HOW DO I RESPOND TO THIS????

I assume I still need to respond more seriously but bcuz of the multiple (and mind you very short) vents this makes it so much harder

and then 2 of them were saying he’s relating to a specific character more and more… 1 of them I know but the other I don’t even know the name of nor what he’s from…

like genuinely how do I go abt this it’s making me very anxious

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NOOOOOOOOO my mom just told me we're gonna go eat out tonight

which normally wouldn't be an issue

BUT SHE SAID THAT SOME PPL FROM HER VOLLEYBALL GROUP ARE GONNA BE THERE

GAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND it's a ramen place

Which are always iffy for me...

I like ramen don't get me wrong... but i like cup ramen... not restaurant ramen 😭 I'll still eat it tho...

[2dadsfromaz]

Dictionary of Tango-isms

[x] with extra [x]

An intensifier. Usually styled as “flee with extra flee” but can be utilized with any word.

-ificator

Suffix indicating “machine that does [x]”. A “bonemeal-ificator”, for instance, is a machine that makes bonemeal.

niner

Used in place of any large number (“ten million bazillion niner stacks of wool”) or to punctuate the end of a statement in an affirmative way, similar to the phrase “ten-four”.

I’m not a builder/redstoner/gamer

A blatant and heinous lie.

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skadoodle - verb

An action word roughly synonymous with “move” and/or “operate” (as in “we’re just gonna skadoodle that over here”).

skadoodler - noun

The noun form of “skadoodle”, meaning “that which skadoodles”. Can occasionally be shorted to “skadoodle” which may cause some confusion with the verb form.

dunga dunga dunga

An onomatopoeia depicting movement, usually the footsteps of a large and heavy creature.

happy fun sauce - noun

Lava.

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Important additions courtesy of @justanotherwanderingone!

[x] harder

An imperative phrase. Normally [x] is a noun (which is not grammatically correct in English but is in Tango-isms). Similar use case to “lock in”, with [x] being used as a placeholder for the task that needs to be completed (eg. “wheat harder”).

[x] of eternal joy and happiness

A literal saw trap. Will probably be said with sadistic glee and whimsy. Exact wording may vary.

pancakes

45% chance this is a filler word

45% chance it’s another murder monster machine scheme

8% chance it’s literally just pancakes

2% chance he’s actually talking about waffles

[dbseamz]

Bits

Noun. Either one’s body or one’s personal belongings, sometimes both

Noodles

A complex redstone circuit, particularly one big enough to become a flight hazard.

Skippy

A derogatory nickname usually applied to mobs. See also “Cletus” in the Skizz-ism dictionary.