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i need to let everything ouy so when i get home imma write dow all my trauma, i cany keep it in any longer its ugh

where r the ladies when j need them

#havsnt felt thsm jn a long time #hellllloooooooo #im having a mental break dkwnnnnnnnn #coms out come ouy whrrevr y r!!!!!!!#UGH

I swore to mysef like 3 yrs ago id never do an ana diet again but here i am 3 years later planning for one

#oof #i got fat #i will only do the diet to kickstart weightloss then ill stop #i just needa lose a few lbs first #bc im so ugh #i wont be weighing myswf or anything tho #imma be doing it all based on how i look #bc if i weigh mysef i will relapse and i do not wanna relapse i just wanna lose sum pounds is all

Ive gained a lot of weight nd everyone is telling me to loose weight byt they dont understans how much i CANT do that lol i needa go to therapy and get a professional diet person to help me bc i literally do not trust myself to lose weight in a healthy matter and i wish people would stop commenting on my softness i know im soft and squishy shut up

I think a lot of my gender and sexuality is 100% linked to sexual trauma. Because a big reason why i hate bwing seen as a women is bc of how sexualized girls are. I want to look as androgynous as possible so i wont get sexualized. I dont want to be seen as a girl and being seen as a girl hurts my heart. Idk if thats valid, if i never went through traum id most likley be a cis girl. Im not tho. Im not a girl.

Apparently bed wetting or wettig urself is a big sign of csa nd i did that until i was like 12 LOL

#how did my parents not know #how did the doctor not kno #i went to the foctors a lot during that time bc my parents were concerned #how did no one know

Im afraid 2 start therapy

#i mean i still dntknow if i will #still getting evaluated #however if i do get therapy #im terrified #i dont want my parents part of this..#but i cant drive #or pay for it myself so /:#im also scared they will hust refuse #i mean ik technically i can do it myself #but like i said #i cant drive or pay for it myself #especially bc like in 2 or 3 months i will nolonger have a job #so ill have no money #hhhhh #im stressed

cowboyopossum

Person: so i was reading about this conspiracy theory-

My Friends: no don't she'll hear y-

Me, running through a crowd, pushing people out of my way as I scream: THE MANDELA EFFECT IS REAL AND I HAVE PROOF, JUST LOOK

AT THIS FLIP CHA-

Hm..........

#the weather is changing #i want to relapse into everuthing #self harm #eating disorder #everything #this weather triggers me so much #i have like #backwards seasional depression

thebeastswrite-deactivated20180

Someone: Lol i wonder what the FBI agent in my computer thinks of me?

Me: Oh! It’s a joke because of our government, hah, I get it.

My Mental Illness: But what if they are watching?

Me: Oh shit-

tailbunker

Ppd is a constant alternation between wildass stupid conspiracy theories about your day to day and “jesus Christ do you really believe that cringy embarrassing shit god”

Today at work i went to the bathroom nd hot my head on the stall over nd over nd ive had a head ache ever since.

#i felt like i was losing my mond #mind #reality #i felt so fake #it helped

Im gonna start crying why do i feel so scared please i want to feel free pls get them iff me i hate the goernment i hate it

I feel bugs all over me i want them OFF get them OFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yo so basically? Im pretty sure the government is stalking me nd controlling me. This whole time, for years, i knew mu thoughtscouldbt be my own? Like, i just knew it nd now it all adds up. Its bc the darn governments buggedme. Gotta luv biotechnology! Ugh. Ami supposed to know this? I wonder if fheyre mad

csa-survivor-confessions

mature. the word that makes it all come back. your excuse for what you did. a simple word we use to describe many, many things. it has been tainted and reeks of your disgustingness.

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csa-survivor-confessions

Sometimes, I just want to be used. By anyone. I want to be hurt. And I know I shouldn't think like this, but I feel like I deserve it. Like I was born for this.

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