Today is officially day 82 (actual day 88) of chastity. I have done longer chastity sentences before, but this seems different. I have started to journal some to reflect and this is what I wrote today.
"I have become a desperate shell of myself. Gone is my signature cockiness. My submissiveness is no longer something that I can take on and off like a coat. It has started to show itself in all aspects of my life. I listen better, I have more patience, I am more productive at work and in my graduate classes. I have stopped thinking about sex all the time. It is almost like I have cured an addiction."
I didn't intend to make this confession, but it just flowed out. I had no idea that I had realized this about myself and tucked it away in my mind. The realization has hit me like a ton of bricks, but I am not upset about anything.