Be Happy~

26 years old, and making life as good as it could possibly be. Life is too short to waste a single moment. Helping people is what I love, so if you need someone, I'll be here to lend an ear. http://heavenorhellrpg.tumblr.com/

[ayoson-blog]

Inbox me (1) thing you want to know about me.

[eclarkedaily]

[carefreeviolet]

What better is there to do at 2 am?

[christian-godfrey-deactivated20]

A favour I suppose… Or a Christmas card, whatever’s convenient.

If you’re set in your ways then by all means do it alone. But you know asking for help is not always a bad thing. 

[carefreeviolet]

Well if theres a choice in the matter, and I were to ask for help, I vote for Christmas Card...

Believe me, I am well aware as someone who helps whenever she can, but I am very sure that this is a situation best handled alone. Again, I do appreciate your sentiment. It does not go unnoticed. 

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

{Cooper shook his head} I was a terrible brother. I ran away to a war I had no business joining. I was a reckless idiot, and he still loved me. {Cooper looked down at the bar, wringing his fingers} And I miss him.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet sighed and put her hand on his back, rubbing softly] I know this sounds silly and cliche, but you really never know what you have until its gone. His love wasn't misplaced, and you were much younger at the time Coop... 

[Violet took another sip of her whiskey and then rested her head on his shoulder in a gesture of understanding and to comfort him] I know Coop... [She stayed there and rubbed his back, just trying to be supportive.]

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

{Cooper relaxed into her hug, wrapping his arms around her and holding on tightly} Well, it feels kinda stupid.

{He gave her a squeeze before pulling back, and ordering two glasses of whiskey} Not too strong, is it? {Cooper grinned, teasing her, before his smile slowly faded away} We were close, my brother and I. He looked up to me. Don’t know why. But he did.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet couldn't help but chuckle slightly at his comment] Well its not, love.

[As he pulled away she stayed facing him, letting him know that she was here for him and would listen to anything. When he teased her about the whiskey, she chuckled. The bartender placed the whiskeys down and she took a sip of it as she listened to him.] ..because you're a caring, loving, passionate, and incredibly smart person. I'm sure you were an amazing older brother.  

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

{Cooper laughed softly} Yeah, I knew it.

I know. It’s just… {Cooper sighed, and finished what was left of his drink} It’s my brother’s birthday today. Stupid, isn’t it? Centuries after his death, and I still can’t think about him without needing to drink.

[carefreeviolet]

[Without hesitation, Violet pulled him into a tight hug and rubbed his back softly] Its not stupid Coop. Its not stupid at all. [Violet held onto him tight and didn't let him go. Whenever she was hurting, all she needed was a hug, and she hoped that in some way this helped him.] 

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Yeah, yeah, you sound really sorry. {Cooper laughed softly, his rough exterior melting under Violet’s warm smile}

{Cooper shook his head, his smile fading} It’s nothing, really. Just… remembering. Nothing to worry about. {He put his hand on her thigh and rubbed it softly}

[carefreeviolet]

[The smile on her face grew as she heard his sweet laughter] Okay... maybe I'm not that sorry... 

[Violet couldn't help but sigh in relief as she felt his hand on her thigh] You know that you can talk to me about anything, love. [She smiled at him and put her hand ontop of his, lightly brushing his knuckles with the pads of her fingers. Her heart still pitter-pattered under his touch, not used to the close and comfortable contact with the guy she has been yearning for for so long.] 

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

{Cooper jumped when he felt a hand on his leg, not expecting the close contact. He looked up, ready to fight, but relaxed when he saw it was only Violet} Oh, it’s you. You scared the living shit out of me.

It’s, uh, good to see you. Again.

[carefreeviolet]

I'm sorry! [She chuckled and then kissed his cheek softly] 

[His greeting seemed unfamiliar, and she immediately withdrew her hand from his knee. Taking a deep breath, she looked over him and gave him a comforting smile] Whats wrong Coop? 

[carefreeviolet]

"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire... Jack frost nipping at your nose... Yule tide carols, being sung by a choir and folks dressed up like eskimos.. They know that Santa's on his way..." Her soft singing faded into a gentle hum as she walked through the the snow-sprinkled streets in the little town she called home. 

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

Honestly,

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

{Raphael shook his head} Don’t get me wrong, Violet, I’m not trying to shoot myself in the foot. But how exactly am I meant to prove the good I’m doing, until I’m done? I still need three….{He looked away from Violet, pausing for a moment before turning back to her} I’m trying to be honest with you, Violet. As open and as honest as I can be.

I know what I’m doing, Violet. Nothing good comes without sacrifice.

[carefreeviolet]

Violet looked down, unsure of how to respond. She crossed her arms and held on tight, trying to give herself some support. "I don't know Raph.... I really don't know what to think anymore.." As he mentioned needing 3, her heart sank deeper, and her stomach started churning. "It just doesn't feel right.... I have the worst feeling in my stomach." Violet looked down and then looked back up at him with pleading eyes. "Raphael, I've always trusted you, and your secrecy... your change in attitudes... Its just alarming.." She took a deep breath. "I do want to believe that what you're doing is good, but my instincts are telling me not to... I just don't know what to do Raphael. And its hard for me to believe that what you're doing could possibly be good..." Violet stood up and then looked at him. "I'm sorry Raphael.... I think I should go now.." 

[carefreeviolet]

What better is there to do at 2 am?

[christian-godfrey-deactivated20]

If you insist.

If you’re going to fight your own wars I’d advise that you at least try get some rest. This may be stretching our ‘relationship’ but if you’re really struggling, I can help you.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet couldn't help but chuckle] I know I'm naive, but I'm not stupid... I'm very curious what you would get out of it...

But really, I couldn't ask you to help. This is something I have to do on my own. 

[cooper-logan-deactivated2015100]

Bastards.

{Cooper glares at no one in particular, muttering under his breath} None of you know how fucking lucky you are. Just laughing and joking with no fucking idea how good you’ve got it.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet smiled as she saw her boyfriend at the bar. She walked up behind him, and then caught his comment, and was instantly deflated. Vi sat down next to him, and then put her hand on his leg, rubbing his knee softly] Whats wrong, love? 

[alice-mcniece-deactivated201506]

Hey, you didn’t have to do that, but thanks anyway. Even though, I don’t know why you did it.

No, not really, I moved here three years ago. You probably haven’t seen me around, because I’m not around a lot. Socialising with people or in general, not my thing. I’m Alice!

[carefreeviolet]

Its my pleasure. It was just a gesture to be nice. You were sitting alone and I'd figure I'd give you a drink and some company. [Violet smiled warmly at the girl]

Oh wow, I'm sorry I haven't met you sooner! Do you work in town? 

[carefreeviolet]

What better is there to do at 2 am?

[christian-godfrey-deactivated20]

I’m sorry to hear that. Can I ask who it is or would you rather not say?

You’re welcome. You should probably get some sleep, you sound exhausted.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet looked down and shook her head] I can't... It is a battle I need to fight on my own. And at this point, its not my place to tell anyone of the issue between the two of us. 

I am exhausted, but there is too much on my mind to sleep. 

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

Honestly,

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

{Raphael smiled softly, hoping that this meant that Violet was ready to come around to his way of thinking} Anything, Violet. Whatever you need me to do to prove this to you, and I’ll do it. I just need some time. That’s all I’m asking for. I just need more time.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet shrugged and looked back down. Her voice was soft and unsure at this point, feeling slightly guilty for giving him a chance] Just... show me something good that is happening from this Raphael. All I've seen and have to associate with what you're doing is murder and your short fuse... [Violet ran her hands through her hair and took a deep breath] I do not know how much time I can afford you Raphael. The longer you take to show me something good, the more time I have to second guess giving you this chance. 

I don't know if you remember... but you told me... when we first met "you should be a good person because you want to be, not because you have to be. Goodness, true goodness, comes from your own self." Right now, it seems like the concept of goodness is getting mixed with the idea of power, and I just feel like when the two are mixed, goodness always is sacrificed for the power. 

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

Honestly,

[raphael-thehealer-deactivated20]

How many times have I told you, Violet? If there was another way, another real, plausible way, I would be doing it. How can I be a leader, if there’s nothing left to lead. I need to unify, unite, make sure everyone is on the same side. If not, there will only be more violence and bloodshed. How many wars are being fought across the world right now, Violet? How many children are starving? I have a duty to help them, and if it means sacrificing a handful of people for the greater good, then, I’m sorry, but I am willing to do that.

I am no different from how I used to be. Ask my brothers; I always had a temper. You’ve always seen me how you want to see me. Sacrifices always have to be made, Violet. No good is completely without sacrifice. Once you see the difference this will make to everyone, I know you’ll come around.

[carefreeviolet]

[Violet looked down and ran her hands through her hair. She sighed, trying to piece it together in her head. Everything he said made sense, but there still was a terrible feeling in the pit of her stomach.] Raphael... [She shook her head slightly, trying to get rid of her current train of thought. Taking a deep breath, she finally looked up at him and looked him in the eye] Prove it.... prove to me that what you're doing is for the greater good. Prove to me that this wont become a dictatorship. Prove to me that this will turn out well. Show me something... Please Raphael, I want to believe you.

[carefreeviolet]

What better is there to do at 2 am?

[christian-godfrey-deactivated20]

You put yourself in a lot of danger just for what’s ‘right’. Either way, I respect your bravery. I didn’t think you’d be the one to get in trouble with an angel.

I suppose… so even Heaven doesn’t live up to people’s expectations that is a real shame. 

At least you don’t force your own beliefs on others. Little Violet’s grown up, I’m proud. 

[carefreeviolet]

I appreciate that... Thank you. [Violet sighed] Neither did I seeing as he used to be one of my best friends... [She looked down, the would still fresh] 

Thanks.. I guess?