Carl Handy

A guy too in touch with his feelings.

[carlhandy]

Tuesday, 6′o clock

For the first time, in a long time, I feel alone. This shrewd, brittle, empty bottle feeling echoes loudly upon my spirit; Once lively, Now more barren that Africa's savannas in the dry season. This is my dry season, Caused by under watered relationships And cunning predators. Now I must walk barefoot on the hot plains of what remains of myself; alone. There is no comfort of a mother, No strength of a father to lift my chin, raise my shoulders and push me back into the race, And no love of a woman, it too has gone in this dry season. Alas! I have been defeated. My soul breaks And I am afraid; And I ache with much regret, Gazing at the calm skies praying that the rain might fall, Flood my wilderness, Make me whole again.

[carlhandy]

I collect memories as though they are pieces to a puzzle. I place them carefully on the board of my subconscious And I cling to them like an infant does his blanket. I day dream of days without suffering; days where I can see the sunlight flicker into darkness and not be afraid.

@carlhandy (via carlhandy)

[carlhandy]

You were miles away from loving me, yet I clung to you like waves in the sea and let you carry the debris that makes up my heart

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[savageleewriting]

Feel a Fluctuation

These dirty long faraway thoughts that still come crawling back into my ear like a little worm that wants to whisper something like “I’m still out there, come find me,” yeah come find you with a key to your apartment between my teeth and a razorblade under my tongue, are you still out there, am I still invited, or will I bump up against the barrier of your own indifference and be forced out to find other wells in which to plummet into like a diver who specializes into splash into darkness and down and beyond and maybe that’s where I’ll really find you, the real you, the you I knew that you showed to me in that time and space that more of an idea than any real tangible sort of location.

Deep breath

I’m just saying that sometimes I feel, not your eyes on me, but your thoughts, like they’re lingering over something I once implied or meant to hint at when I was making bold declarations of my own innate brilliance, so shiny and new was my every proclamation that I had to stop the whole city to have a celebration of my capabilities, and I knew you’d show up because you can’t really turn down free cake, but it was more than just sweets, it was the sweetest trap of all, and now you’re in it, my words mingling in your brain, getting my juices all looses where your wild thoughts originate. 

This is that time.

Right now.

[gracebriarwoodwrites]

I was a bonfire

Pretending to be

A marshmallow,

A storm acting

Like an umbrella.

- Grace Babcock © 2017

[carlhandy]

My problem is that I love the same way I drink. I'm an alcoholic, and that's never a good thing.

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[carlhandy]

I love my scars. They are reminders of the battles fought, won, and lost.

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[carlhandy]

I want to make you less lonely. Will you let me?

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[wnq-writers]

“ten pieces of advice to give yourself”

1. If you know someone is wrong don’t raise your voice, help them understand you, improve your argument.

2. Do something you love for a living. If you don’t love it, I hope you have the courage to change it. It’s never too late to be who you want to be.

3. Hold on to what you believe and your values, don’t let things get to your head.

4. Let yourself fall in love with people. With their honest moments, the breakdowns and the daydreams.

5. But also don’t let other people force you into a relationship. Relationships won’t always make you happy, they are magical and wonderful, but it’s also amazing to spend time with your friends or just reading a book by yourself.

6. It’s okay to feel lost. Living it’s hard, but we all feel it. Let yourself get lost, in books, music, art, in the small things in life

7. Make sure you have a safe place to go when you need to be alone and don’t feel bad for rejecting someone help, sometimes we just need some time alone.

8. Don’t feel anxious about small things, at the end of the day, they are just that, small and insignificant.

9. Don’t search for the perfect body, learn to love yourself. Each body distributes in its own way, you are special because you are unique.

10. Find someone you can share your dreams and hopes with, not someone you have to give up your dreams for them to accomplish theirs.

by fck-that-get-money-xx, writing prompt #62: list 10 pieces of advice you’d give yourself

(via wnq-writers)

[carlhandy]

What if everything under the sun is fake?

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[carlhandy]

Society expects men to be born with a hundred times the strength it took their moms to push them out, so before they even learn to walk they are taught push-ups because masculinity is more equivalent to muscles and not the testosterone flowing through their bodies.

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[shareaquote]

I think too much. I feel too much. I hold on to the things that destroy me, and I can’t move on.

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[carlhandy]

Dear future wife, or husband, who knows I might turn gay if I keep scaring away all the girls I love but I'm sorry I'm so broken.

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[carlhandy]

She was a flower in the desert storm.

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[carlhandy]

I looked up at the stars and realized there are things bigger than my problems.

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[carlhandy]

Insomnia said, look at me, hey, let's stay up all night we have deep psychological issues that we're talking about or something more fun, like when we were 16. My brains says don't listen him we have work in the morning, I know let's distract ourselves with work. I listened to my brain knowing insomnia would win.

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[carlhandy]

3:17am why won’t my brain shut up!

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