Vagabonding

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In Balance

My current mission: being in balance.

I have many tools, but each one has to decide for oneself what works. In my case it is:

good sleep

healthy nutrition

weekly routine

sport

meditation

creativity

journal writing

sharing with friends

I even joined a group of “balanciers” and we talk about our psychological health every Wednesday, which enriches me with positivity, compassion, new impulses and food for thought.

I have been in balance for a long time now, waiting for the creeping feeling of depression to come back. Instead of waiting, I’m preparing myself to fight the next battle. Yes, it is also with the help of medication, but what is more important: my weekly routine and my friends, who are a great support concerning my mental health. !Thank you! dear friends and strangers for your smile, your listening skills, your empathy and helpful advice. I wouldn’t be standing at this point of my life without you. And I feel strong! And I know I cannot be in balance forever (life would be boring without the ups and downs, right?), but at least I can prevent steep downs and high ups by keeping my stability, like “normal” persons do.

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A Nights Wake

Again sleepless aka insomnia. Can’t sleep, can’t read, can’t fall into sleep. It’s fine actually. I have activities (mostly online except for eating a mango ;)

Finding words and let them flow until they reach your soul.

They dwell and stay, transform into feelings of happiness and contentment. Let it flow, let it flow and follow the stream, it leads you to Earth’s beads. Juicy and soft, a kiss alas, needs to be marked on their behalf.

A good night kiss maybe? We shall see how the night evolves and take our conclusions. Tomorrow sleepless power I will have. This means joking around, do multi-tasking and keeping a smile on my face. Let’s do it!

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He’s a good hegg

He’s a good hegg - meaning he is a good person and a great friend. It’s been like this, then it changed and then it changed again. Now everything is fine again. Do you know this person? This one person you have lots of fun and laughters together? This one person that knows you and there is telepathy, pancakes, joints, guitar music and loads of other good stuff! :)  Make sure you don’t lose that person and even if the relationship changes or goes through a rollercoaster: never give up! Don’t give up that person because one day you’re gonna regret it. Here’s to great friendship and good heggs. Raise your glasses and toast to this person! Hip hip Hurray!!! 

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Que sera sera...

Whatever will be will be. But is there the slightest possibility? Just the thought is already thought with awe and longing. Well, if the thought is possible why not the reality? Sometimes it’s a long way from one to the other, but in the end it’s mostly worth it, no? Be strong. Hold up. Practice patience. And live the moment.

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Hochgezogene Mundwinkel

Hochgezogene Mundwinkel resultieren aus dem Versuch, sein Gegenüber zu der Annahme zu verleiten, der Geist befinde sich in einem fröhlichen Zustand. Das Resultat: ein künstliches Lächeln.

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What a shame shame holds you back

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Lit one candle, or two, or three

“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle and the life of the candle will not be shortened.” -Unknown

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What is balance?

How to define balance in your life? What does work-and-life-balance really mean? It is an often used word in the business world and the media. Even though I know it from the corporate world, I think the quintessence is this: inner balance. Without inner balance no balance can be reached at all. Personally, I find balance very important in regard to happiness. I am often unhappy when I am stressed from work, facebook, WG-life or from my free-time (Freizeitstress) and after reflecting and searching for a solution I often come to the conclusion that it is my inner balance, that is tilted. This tilted balance naturally affects my professional and personal life. So, instead of complaining about too much stress, one should take into consideration that the problem could be one’s inner balance. If that is the case, we should stop complaining about things and search for the trigger, that resets the inner balance one is happy with. It is a hell of a task, but believe me: it is totally worth it! 

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The New Face of Freedom or Is “I like you” the new “I love you”?

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Top Ten Playgrounds in Berlin

Definition of Playgrounds = meeting point for mums & dads OR other adults who raise the child inside of them

1. Hüpfburgen

2. Gleisdreieck Park

3. Bolder halls are the new fitness clubs

4.WG Parties

5. Pot lucks

6. Voluntary Work

7. Co-Working Spaces

8. Tinder & Grinder

9. Swing dance bars (incl. the naked ones)

10. Kit Kat Club & Berghain

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Berlin, how about: just breathe.

Dear Berlin,

this is going to stay an unread letter, because I know that you don’t have eyes to read these words. Nevertheless, I would like to share something important with you. 

First things first. I have one question: Did you realize how important it is to breathe? I know this and realize faaaaaaar too less times, when I’m tense or stressed. My breath goes shallow and the moment I realize, I make an effort to take one looooooong and deep breath! It takes an effort to realize it, though. That is why, I wrote you a letter. Let’s say, as a friendly reminder. 

I know you’ve got your hands full (well, if you were a person) So much is going on in Berlin, right? At least that’s what I heard and read about you. The airport is still not finished, the elections are around the corner and some refugees/newcomers/***/Berliners still stand in the corner of our society, so to speak, at the corner of your eyes (if they would exist). Some poor devils don’t even stand at the corner of your eyes, but are hidden and invisible behind a big wave of other big problems. How many wave breakers do you still need to build, Berlin? You’re such a busy bee, right? So let me give you one single advice: how about...j u s t . . . b r e a t h e!

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Ask the Right Questions

For a happy life, it’s helpful to ask the right questions, because it’s a way of reinforcing, starting or rebuild a relationship with another person. How to know what the right question is? Good question! Well, the first step is, not about knowing how to choose the right words, but more about feeling empathy for the other person. The second step is, to understand the other person and being able to articulate your empathy in the right way. Communication is a complex concept and the message can get lost on its long journey from a lip to two ears. Of course, communication is only half the rent. Relationship-building is also about the flow between two or more people. Sometimes it just ain’t a match ;)

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High Cliff

Your hearts:              Wide Open

Adrenaline or Fear?

A seducing Pool…

just one

air step

away

Your mind: Frozen like a Deer

Your hearts:              Wide Open

Maybe grab a handful of Love?

Your mind: Love can grow wings

                  Love can build a cage

                  Love can blow you into the wind

                  Love can hide you in the xing

Your hearts:              Wide Open

Trust the scalpel?

Or get some opium and

stay in the waiting place???

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Overcome Fear

You are tired. You are scared. And you are alone.

During these early morning hours there’s no one you can call. There is no place where you can go, because it’s dark outside and it makes you uncomfortable. You should at least leave your bed and look for some distraction. Find some happy thoughts on the internet, in a book or in music, if you want to. Don’t forget to breathe. Right now breathing is more important than thinking! Take it easy. Smile for at least 60 seconds and release helpful hormones. Dwell on great memories and remember the good feeling of warm sunshine outside and inside of you. You’re gonna be fine. You know it. You just have to believe it, too.

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Rope Skipping

Dear Day,

Thank you for your LIGHT

Thank you for STARTING

Thank you for fresh OPPORTUNITIES

Thank you for a new FUTURE

Dear World,

Thank you for TURNING AROUND

Thank you for CONTINUING

Thank you for your BEAUTY

Thank you for being my HOME

Dear You,

Thank You for READING this.

Thank You for THINKING about this.

Thank You for UNDERSTANDING.

Thank You for BEING YOU.

Dear Stranger,

Thank you for your SMILE on the street

Thank you for your SECRETS in your heart

Thank you for your TALENT deep down your soul

Thank you for inventing ROPE SKIPPING!!!

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Pinches and Cuts

It hurts again and again to read you. Even professional mails manage to reveal a personal tone between the lines and it screams into my face: I don't want you anymore! Let me go!

It's over. And while my soul is still in the process of decaying every fibre of you out of my system, my brain is already hoping for better times once the real cut has been made. Meanwhile, every message from you feels like a little pinch into my back up to a deep cut onto the flesh just above my heart. Even though I trust you not to go way down, until your blade touches the tissue that surrounds my heart for protection, a little voice inside of my head is whispering fearful words into my ear...

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The Loop

Loops can be everywhere: Looping Louie at parties, rollercoaster loops in Disneyland, short sections of sounds which are being repeated at Mauerpark, Fruit Loops in a kid’s bowl, color loops on a girl’s wrist...they can hit you anywhere in the world and at anytime of the day.

This section though is dedicated to a very special loop. Let’s call it THE loop. THE loop is mostly found in relationships: family, loved ones, friendships, workships (why is it work relationships instead of workships?), public relations etc... In comparison to loops, which can be anywhere in the world and at anytime of the day

THE loop is everywhere and it never sleeps!

Until today I always thought THE loop is a bad thing, but actually it helps us to learn from our mistakes and improve. In case we repeat the same mistake over and over again, it’s fine, wait for the next THE loop, it’s just around the corner and challenging you to change and break out of it. Question is: Do you want to break out? You know...you don’t really need to, if you don’t want to. THE loop is a very loyal and reliable friend and will always be there for you, whatever you say. If your answer is: Yes, I want to break out! (only valid with an exclamation mark of course!) then THE loop will still stay a very loyal and reliable friend to you, don’t you worry about that. The difference to the no-answer is just this: whatever you say is fine. BUT: whatever you do is a complete different story. Your actions have a lot of influence on THE loop. Do they stay within the walls of routine, pattern and anticipation, the break-out will be a sisyphean job. If you change not only your words, but also your actions, success will be guaranteed! Please note that time and patience are mandatory.

If you are going for the yes-answer: Good luck! Don’t give up! Reflect. Adjust. And try again...

If you are going for the no-answer: Don’t worry, you’re on the safe and comfortable side ;)