so when all my friends forget my name,

no, I won't come back and be the same.

[carnage-cathedral]

carnage.

he / they / it + masc / neu terms collectively.

vent / personal blog.

adult. hc-DID sys. mentally unwell.

cw for discussion of ramcoa + adjacent topics.

endos dni. extremely taken.

about.

donate here to help our cat get vet treatment.

sideblogs we interact from:

@dsmvotion (host's sideblog. sometimes more active than main)

@mindbranded

@innerward

@chokehound

@handsoffthefuckinshield

@martyrdoll

@carnage-cubs

@carnage-hoard

@sproingusblogging

wing header is our art, please do not steal or reupload

[rn-deliabusby]

flickr

[egophage]

I reached a point with my notes where simply writing "guh" did not capture the feeling well enough so I drew him right in there

[europeansculpture]

Artemisia Viscoli (1937 - 2022) - Forma spaziale

[torksmith]

[lightheartedsuggestion]

Stop convincing yourself you’re wasting your life away. The time you’ve spent resting and healing was and is necessary. You’re not a waste of a person if you find yourself struggling right now. Healing, recovering, sitting with your pain is foundational. It’s not a waste. You are still whole.

[carnage-cathedral]

??????????what??????????

[r04ches]

[carnage-cathedral]

okay I need to shower and I need to go out for food of some kind because we have uhhhhhh nothing

[carnage-cathedral]

we definitely are aroace but we just never felt like we were allowed to uhhh think about it ever? or label ourselves in a way that "excludes people" (which is how it was put to us when we were younger. that labels like that exclude people and deprive the world of something. which is fucked. also that we did try labeling ourselves as ace of some kind a long time ago and as a result we were assaulted to prove that we weren't ace which doesn't make sense but the logic of rapists is often pretty iffy so. anyway) but it's really cool now to discover this and accept it alongside our partner who also has realized he's aroace and now we're both just chilling because it changes literally nothing about our relationship dynamic except for now we both feel like we understand ourselves better. so yeah :]

[braaainwaaash]

[husband]

[krafterwrites]

I've been crying laughing from this for the last 5 minutes

[modmad]

[caspercryptid]

The really unfortunate thing about mental health progress is that sometimes you realize you've made it in the form of "wow, I haven't felt this bad in a fucking while"

[caspercryptid]

On the one hand it's a bit of a pick me up in a dark place to know that this will pass because it has passed before on the other hand sometimes it isn't entirely a pleasant thought to go "wow, I used to feel like this all the time. That was pretty fucking bad. It's pretty bad right now too also."

[caspercryptid]

Someday your current baseline will be the sort of thing you consider A Really Bad Day. It does get better.

[meitene]

[leovincible]

Just a little closer…

[leovincible]

Scrounging from the ground. Buried metals from past wars and blood. The dead lands are coming back.