so when all my friends forget my name,

no, I won't come back and be the same.

[carnage-cathedral]

carnage.

he / they / it + masc / neu terms collectively.

vent / personal blog.

adult. hc-DID sys. mentally unwell.

cw for discussion of ramcoa + adjacent topics.

endos dni. extremely taken.

about.

donate here to help our cat get vet treatment.

sideblogs we interact from:

@dsmvotion (host's sideblog. sometimes more active than main)

@mindbranded

@innerward

@chokehound

@handsoffthefuckinshield

@martyrdoll

@carnage-cubs

@carnage-hoard

@sproingusblogging

wing header is our art, please do not steal or reupload

[gay--dog]

was looking for something earlier and i didnt find it but i did find this thing so thats good

[joy-and-whimsy-official]

Joy and whimsy detected! This post is joyful and whimsical!

[i-drew-this-post]

I drew this joyful and whimsical thing

[carnage-cathedral]

fuck it. more sideblogs

[ilonano]

best thing in tbe world having people that like your ocs

[ilonano]

or alternatively people that say things like this about your ocs

[vacantgodling]

hello again, your resident poor rat on the internet.

after paying rent, part of my phone bill, and my car insurance, i only have $47 bucks to my name.

the government cut off our food benefits (calling them about that tomorrow 😔) and we don’t have money for food and upcoming bills, let alone rent for next month.

things are still in the shitter tbh. i don’t want to put how much we need on this post because i feel like begging the internet for thousands of dollars is absurd and just. sad. i guess. a rough estimate is like 2k give or take.

as per usual if you have anything to spare this pride to keep a black queer couple housed and safe it’d mean the world to us. i’m still working on commissions so if you’d like art of an oc or character you like i gotchu!

thanks again and as always sorry about this 🫩

- vacant (fish)

[vacantgodling]

update:

so they basically fucked up our food aid and they don't know if they'll get it reinstated. 2 work orders have been placed at this point and i'm just not really confident in anything atm. my partner and i have barely eaten in like 2 weeks so if nothing else, anything that can help with food costs would be appreciated.

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[vacantgodling]

even less $ now because i had to buy gas for my car so i can keep dashing. its an ouroboros cycle unfortunately. ended up not even being able to do that much today bc of a huge storm and after almost getting into accidents twice the last time its rained here that heavily i just went home so i don't take my chances. i really promise i'm trying my best. i just don't know what i can reasonably do atp.

[kosmogrl]

[lizardsister]

where would we be without them

[wizardarchetypes]

i think avoidance is such a little-recognized ocd compulsion. all the time i talk to people with ocd who are like "i was always having intrusive thoughts about using kitchen knives and harming myself or others but i'm okay now because i just stopped using knives ever 👍 so i'm good now"

and i'm like unfortunately i have bad news.

[carnage-cathedral]

can u guys stop calling your fandoms cults it's really fucking weird

[so-many-ocs]

no dude it's so cool how attached you are to that character who is singled out and ostracized due to the external monstrousness that clashes with their internal spark of humanity. and i love how drawn you are to themes of horror and love, nature versus nurture, otherness, isolation, and the abject. i bet you have normal feelings about your own personhood

[zombiewifee]

tiktok is actually cancer for the brain

[free-my-mindd]

[icaseybaybee]

[seaphine]

they injected me with mental illness when i was a baby because they didn't like that i radiated moonlight and had stars inside my eyes. they were jealous of me.

[natalieironside]

I don't wanna sound like mean or nuthin but a lot of y'all have been trapped in a vortex of suffering for so long that you've come to identify with the suffering as an aspect of your personality and ideology and thereby to covet suffering and to mistake debasement for enoblement and humiliation for virtue

[rn-deliabusby]

flickr

[egophage]

I reached a point with my notes where simply writing "guh" did not capture the feeling well enough so I drew him right in there