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“Does such a thing as 'the fatal flaw,' that showy dark crack running down the middle of a life, exist outside literature?
I used to think it didn't. Now I think it does.
And I think that mine is this: a morbid longing for the picturesque at all costs.”
— Donna Tartt, The Secret History
Virginia Woolf, A Writer’s Diary, August 1921
Virginia Woolf, A Writer’s Diary, August 1921
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“The war will end. The leaders will shake hands. The old woman will keep waiting for her martyred son. That girl will wait for her beloved husband. And those children will wait for their heroic father. I don’t know who sold our homeland. But I saw who paid the price.”
— Mahmoud Darwish; Palestinian poet.
august slipped away into a moment in time
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FIRST ARISTOTLE AND DANTE POSTER!!
10 Times Camilla and Henry Were Obviously a Couple Before (anyone knew) They Were a Couple
Page numbers are from the April 2004 Vintage Contemporaries paperback published in the U.S.
10. There was a brief silence after she had finished; rather to my surprise, Henry winked solemnly at her from across the table. (p. 38)
9. “Henry, I wish you’d put me down. I’m too heavy for you.” He smiled at her. There was a slight chip in one of his front teeth I’d never noticed before; it gave his smile a very engaging quality. “You’re light as a feather, he said.” (p. 98)
8. “What do you and Henry need a secret code for?” “It’s not a secret.” “Then why didn’t you tell me?” “Charles, don’t be such a baby.” (p. 248)
7. Henry took the box from her and struck one himself; it flared up high and strong and she leaned close to it, one hand cupped around the flame and the other resting upon his wrist. (p. 309) Note: This is such a favorite of mine because it seems like such a tiny thing, but there’s a section break right after this—so we’re meant to focus on Camilla’s hand resting on Henry’s wrist, and on the act of lighting someone’s cigarette for them: an action that’s totally casual and yet remarkably intimate.
6. Henry was distracted. The FBI had paid him another visit the night before—what they wanted he didn’t say—and he was talking on and on in a low voice about Schliemann’s Ilios… …She hadn’t been there when I brought Charles home, and she looked like she’d just got out of bed herself; tousle-haired, no lipstick, wearing a gray wool sweater that came down past her wrists. (p. 369) Note: We find out later from Charles that Henry was so distraught that morning because he was “almost sure he was going to be arrested.” Charles also says that Camilla had no idea that Henry (and Charles himself) were in so much trouble. I very much doubt that: It’s almost certain that Camilla was with Henry all night. Was this the first time they slept together? I don’t know, but just two pages later, we get this:
5. “Leave me alone,” he muttered, seizing Camilla by the wrist and trying to push through to the door. (p. 371) Note: There’s only one other time Henry has been physically protective of Camilla, and that was at the lake when she cut her foot—a scene that Tartt obviously considered important enough to spend nearly four pages on. But is Henry shielding Camilla here, or reaching out to her as a lifeline? Either way, it’s a visible continuation of whatever went on between the two of them the night before.
4. “…I’ve heard her talking on the phone.” “And saying what?” “Oh nothing, but like two or three in the morning, whispering, you’ve got to wonder.” (p. 399)
3. “Do you suppose Henry’s all right?” “Oh, he’s fine,” said Camilla, busy with knife and fork. “How do you know?” She paused, the fork in mid-air; her glance was like a light turned suddenly into my face. “Because I just saw him.” “Where?” “At his apartment. This morning.” (p. 425-426)
2. The twins weren’t like Henry; if they were home, they would generally answer the phone. But no one did answer, I dialed again and glanced at my watch. Eleven-twenty. I couldn’t think where Camilla would be that time of night. (p. 428)
1. …it wasn’t that though, but something else, indefinable, that somehow had changed since I had seen him last… Henry glanced up. “Salve, amice,” he said, and a subtle animation flickered in his rigid features, usually so locked up, and distant… “You look well,” I said to him, and he did. (p. 429)
“If anything, it was Camilla he [Henry] seemed fondest of, Camilla he bent over attentively when she spoke, Camilla who was most often the recipient of his infrequent smiles.” (Chapter 4, Kindle edition)
If the Secret History was set nowadays, Bunny would annoy everyone with his duolingo lessons, Henry would physically get sick at the mention of any e-reader, Camilla would be a Lana del rey girly, Richard would listen to "this is me trying" while having insomnia, Charles would be a filmbro and judge anyone who hasn't seen Interstellar and Francis would have a crush on hot priest from Fleabag
The fact that we will never know what they were actually like haunts me. Was Bunny really that bad? Or was it just an another lie made up by Richard just so that he could have an excuse for killing him? What was Camilla like? The real Camilla. She was obviously manipulative and messed up like them all, but we can't be sure. Sometimes I wonder what would the book be like in Charles' point of view? Probably absolutely terryfying. I mean Henry was so amazing and such a god-like man because Richard saw him that way, but what was he really like? Terryfying, I bet. How much of the story is actually real? I mean imagine if this was all made up in Richard's head and he never actually joined the class?
There's so many if's that it makes my head hurt. Then again it is called 'The Secret History' ;)
it’s almost 3 am. I am nothing but a bare soul.
I am physically exhausted but I cannot fall asleep. overwhelmed with sudden burst of introspective thoughts.
why is this my peak hour? gone when needed.
I will oversleep, once again. succumbed to my dreams, a better reality.
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You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place. Like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place because you'll never be this way ever again.
- Azar Nafisi // Reading Lolita in Tehran
aside from being a sentimental piece of shit who can’t put her life together i’m normal
