castle in the hills

and my body is the hill that i build on and my soul is the hill that i die on

[castletownsys]

obligatory intro post

collective name Lee, 24, dissociative system. sort of in a weird transitionary period right now, but for the most part you'll mainly see:

🌑 Mys, she/they, digicatdeergirlthing

💫 Y, he/him, Schrödinger's ghost

📋 S, he/him, asshole flightless bird

this is our main, it does not have a theme. it's just sort of a collaborative scrapbook with journal entries, aesthetic photography, social commentary, things that make us laugh, etc. anything that doesn't quite fit on a sideblog. emoji tags by themselves are for reblogs relevant to specific alters; emojis followed by ".txt" are our own posts made by those alters

anti-harassment, no discourse please. just be aware that our daily lived experience is heavily centered around trauma processing & we reserve the right to block for any reason. okay

we typically interact with mutuals' posts when we see them but may forget some notifications.

list of our sideblogs (all low activity right now) :

@scapeghost 💫 ; ghost trick source musing, tech aesthetic, existentialism, etc.

@purplecrayons 🌸💿 ; soft agere

@bloodredjustice ❤️💛🌟🌑📋 💫 ; undertale / deltarune source musing

still most active on discord. mutuals can ask for our user if you want. we use pluralkit in servers.

[memewhore]

[bananahomo]

I reblogged this last month, tagged it, and said “might as well see if it works.” I used this video as a reference to find all the forms that i needed (which is A LOT, especially if you’re a dependent) and sent them through the mail, not really allowing myself to hope.

dude.

$2,714 of medical debt from my top surgery - gone. im shaking this was such a weight on me for 2 years and it fucking worked. what the fuck.

[minakittengaming]

This is huge. Sharing for my US friendos.

[zillyblog]

Hospitals like to hide these policies under a lot of successive links in obscure places, so if you don't see anything right away, keep looking! Get friends to help! Make it a scavenger hunt. A game where you're assassins sent to slit capitalism's throat

[bab3tt3-at3-oatm3al]

Opal kittens!!:3

no credit needed

x

[2colde]

i love leaning into a bad feeling #mytwistingknife

[rosieandthemoon]

Rene Lalique

[balaclava-trismegistus]

if i dont respond to a message from you i can basically guarantee its not because i dislike you. im just getting attacked by imps and shit all the time genuinely.

[animentality]

[achievement-hunter]

[textandimageenjoyer]

[swissarmymanbf]

good music should beat the shit out of you

[bgm05]

It must be defeated immediately

[minxitsy]

[opdrie]

[fairycosmos]

I Saw The Tv Dim. Due To Regional Electrical Issues. And Self Repression

[mandi-bul]

[making-you-in-spore]

i made oomf from spore [2008] in spore [2008]

[swoony-spoonie]

When the brain fog kicks in..

[lastoneout]

was half convinced this was on purpose

[lyrasyst]

hey, small psa:

fictives are just people. you wouldn't walk up to a person you saw on the news once while they're having dinner and say "holy shit guys it's Jimothy Cumwomble, great job on stopping that armed robbery, sorry your brother died in the process". that would be completely socially unacceptable - you'd be butting in on their life, overstepping not just their boundaries but basic social decency, and bringing up potentially traumatic life events. it's rude, infantilizing, and potentially directly harmful. so why would you do the same to a fictive just because you know, or think you know, their source?

and that's not to say "never bring up a fictive's source to them", plenty of fictives enjoy talking about their sources! but there's a little thing called tact. you can ask whether they're okay with talking about it, or join in on a conversation where they already are, even just a "hey if you don't mind could we chat about your source" would go a long way. but suddenly changing the topic to their source not just without warning but by singling them out as "weird" or "interesting" and saying things about their source that would never be appropriate to say to a singlet about their past is not cool.

TLDR, a fictive existing in a public space is not an excuse to single them out, put a spotlight on them, and bring up potentially traumatic parts of their history just because you think their source is neat. have a little common sense about timing and approach, or just let them exist in peace.

[hannahlockillustration]

Which nettlecat are you?

[luna-azzurra]

What helped me write trauma better is remembering that the nervous system learns predictions. If danger used to come after quiet, calm can feel threatening. If kindness used to come with a price, kindness can feel suspicious. So healing is not just “they know they’re safe now.” Healing is the slow, annoying, deeply unfair process of teaching the body that the old prediction is not always the present truth.