Hey, I’m Jasper, but you can also call me J or Jas. My main blog is depressedcatboy
pronouns are he/him, trans (ftm), gay, canadian, not particularly interested in anything at the moment, but hopefully that changes. I wanna get into the summer hikaru died. I speak english and french (though my french is pretty rusty - I don’t speak it often)
I really like writing and I’m happy to take requests from you guys if you want, but there are some ground rules, not only for requests and asks, but for my blog in general :)
I want this to be a safe space for everybody, and if, by being here, you would ruin that, DO NOT INTERACT.
Fair warning that the characters I write for may well be slightly ooc.
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𝑰 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑾𝑹𝑰𝑻𝑬
male readers
ftm reader
gender neutral readers
male character
character x reader
fluff
angst
crack
headcannons
romantic
platonic
graphic violence (there will be a warning, so do read the warnings)
𝑰 𝑾𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑾𝑹𝑰𝑻𝑬
nsfw/smut
pedophelia/incest
female reader
weddings
specific details about appearance (ex: hair colour, eye colour, etc.)
pregnancy/pregnancy scares (including m!preg)
a/b/o
female character (romance, for platonic fics its fine)
character x character
character x oc (as requests)
oc x reader (as requests)
anything about real people, living or dead
If you would like me to write something that is not mentioned, or is on the 'Will Not Write' list, send me a message. I will write certain things as commissions, privately.
okay wait why is my writing actually kinda good. i feel like it should be embarrassing to read ur own writing but i really like it, some of my phrasing is really good and i think i do a really good job of reflecting my characters emotions in the narration
god i forgot how much effort i put into researching and writing for the ghost fic. i didnt give myself any notes so i have to do all this research for myself again and figure out where i was going with the story and god its a handful
god i forgot how much effort i put into researching and writing for the ghost fic. i didnt give myself any notes so i have to do all this research for myself again and figure out where i was going with the story and god its a handful
still depressed, but ive been rereading tokyo ghoul and i'm an absolute WHORE for kaneki and i NEED a fic so i'm using my god powers as an author and headcannonist to put this to words. of course i will finish the requests i have um that shouldnt be too long.
im so sorry about the uh, delay, uh ive been struggling with a lot of depression, but i'm gonna do my best to actually properly be back
update - im still alive!! yippee!! (?) i have a lot of schoolwork to catch up on for now so i cant tell you when ill start posting again but hopefully ill have some things ready for you all by the summer!!
yeah, i'm alright. been on hiatus because i've been having a lot of mental trouble and i've been in the psych ward. i'll probably start writing again soon in about a months time, but i'm really sorry for the long wait.
Alright, I've had a bit of a break, and I'm feeling much better. Will start writing again this weekend in order of priority, sequels, requests, and then my ideas.
Will try to have two fics out per week, still organizing the schedule.
I think I'm going to have a break for a while. We found out that my cat is dead. I'm not in the right headspace to be writing for you guys, and I don't want it to be bad or anything. Sorry about that.
I'm sorry if I'm not very active over the next little bit. My cat has gone missing, and it has made me feel like complete shit. I'm trying to get a therapist, but I haven't gotten there yet. I'll try to update you guys and stay relatively active, but I make no guarantees.
so uh- i wanted to ask if you could write for male reader x Jinwoo where the reader likes his shadows more than him (or anyone)
they are his children now.
Favoritism
Hi!! Ofc, that sounds so funny! I'm writing it as a pre-established relationship where reader n jinwoo are dating but jinwoo goes away so much that reader mostly hangs out with his shadows. hope you enjoy <3
𝑴𝑨𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑳𝑰𝑺𝑻
𝑭𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑶𝑴: Solo Leveling
𝑷𝑨𝑰𝑹𝑰𝑵𝑮: Sung Jinwoo x m!reader
𝑮𝑬𝑵𝑹𝑬 & 𝑾𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮𝑺: fluff, crack; male reader; disgustingly sweet, beru calls reader papa
𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑫𝑺: 1.8k
"Hey, Jinwoo, where's Beru?" You asked, brows furrowing. Usually, Beru would hang out with you, but now he was missing. The man across from you sighed, bringing his hand to his forehead.
"I sent him out on some errands, nothing important." He said, shaking his head slowly. "How come you always notice when they're here or not?"
You didn't exactly know. You could, in a way, feel their presence. You could feel their eyes watching you, and you just knew when they were around. It wasn't exactly their power, or their otherworldly traits. It was more like that feeling of missing a close friend.
You just shrugged, not bothered enough to think of a proper answer to Jinwoo's question. He only sighed, shaking his head from side to side at your dismissiveness. You loved him, you found him funny. He was your boyfriend, after all. But he was away so much that you ended up closer to his shadows than to him himself.
"It feels like you send all your shadows out whenever we're together." You complain, laying back on the couch and slinging your legs over the arm rest. "I know we're dating, but we could at least watch k-dramas with Beru."
He sighed again (it felt like all he was doing was sighing), looking at you with some are-you-serious look. You chuckled. You did enjoy spending time with your boyfriend, but his shadows were great fun.
"I'm just joking, darling." You say reassuringly, receiving a tired smile from Jinwoo. "It's just that you're always away, and I get worried about you. I need a distraction."
The man across from you stood up, getting up from his comfortable spot in the armchair, and made his way to you. Seeing his movements, you sat up, sitting right on the edge of the couch and leaning against the arm rest. He sat down and you shuffled over to him leaning into his side.
"I'm sorry." He said quietly, left arm wrapping around your shoulders as your fingers intertwined. You nodded quietly into his shoulder. It was true. You did worry. You worried a lot about him. He was singlehandedly carrying the world on his shoulders.
"We should go on a date sometime." You say, trying to restore the playful mood from earlier. He nodded enthusiastically, looking at you expectantly as he remained silent. After waiting for a while without you saying anything, he asked the question that had been lingering in his mind.
"Where do you wanna go?" You weren't completely sure, but you had the free time to go wherever you wanted whenever. On the other hand, he was the one who was always busy.
"You should choose. You rarely have free time, so let me treat you for once." You said kindly, smiling up at him as you leaned on his shoulder. You liked this. You liked this a lot.
Jinwoo didn't seem to have an answer immediately, so you took advantage of that. "Oh, we should have a movie night at some point with your shadows. It's like we're a big family!" You said with a big grin. Jinwoo wasn't particularly fond of the idea, and you could tell by the slight grimace on his face, but he would do it for you.
He nodded, sighing as he looked down at his lap, then at you fondly. You felt warmth blossom in your chest as you smiled back at him, squeezing his hand as a little message, chuckling when he squeezed back. He was, really, a very beautiful man. You almost felt out of breath just looking at him. You felt so special to be able to hold him in your arms.
"Well, lets have that movie night tonight and we can go on our date tomorrow. I can put my duties as a hunter on hold for a little bit." He said eventually, letting his head fall into his hand in defeat. You grinned wide, thanking him profusely as you pressed a kiss to his cheek.
He turned to you quickly, eyes wide before grinning himself. From your peripheral, you could see his hands crawling towards your waist and you looked down. Unfortunately, you weren't fast enough, and his tickle attack had begun. You threw yourself back on the couch, somewhere between laughing and crying as his fingers ghosted evilly over your waist, making your abs clench desperately.
You struggled to get words out from between your helpless spurts of laughter, begging him to stop and jokingly pushing him away. When he finally relented, giving you space to breath, your face was flushed red and you were smiling so wide it hurt.
He laughed to himself before coughing into his fist, summoning his shadows back. You could see his eyes glow purple for a second before you heard a cry from behind the sofa.
"Papa!" The ant shadow cried, and your face flushed red as you realized Jinwoo didn't know about your new nickname. He looked at you like you were an alien, and you sputtered into a closed fist, trying desperately to form words. It took a second to compose yourself, but you eventually spoke.
"Uhm, Beru started calling me papa since he saw a little boy calling his dad papa..." You trailed off, looking desperately at Beru for help. He was of no help, evidently, and you sighed to yourself before continuing. "He decided that I took care of him like the dad took care of the little boy, and that he should call me papa from now on."
You could see Jinwoo's shoulders trembling as he tried to hold in a laugh, clapping a hand over his mouth as tears gathered in his eyes. He was like that for a bit, making you pout, but eventually you gave into the laughter yourself. You had no idea how long you were laughing together, but by the end of it your abs hurt like never before.
"No wonder you called it a family movie night." Your boyfriend laughed evilly, cheeks inflated like balloons. Your face felt hot, but you weren't ashamed of it. You did cross your arms, though, looking sternly at the hunter sitting next to you.
Suddenly, there was a weight on the sofa next to you, and you looked over to see Beru had sat down with you. You didn't quite understand why he had weight in the first place, but it wasn't your place to question it.
You turned to him, asking what he wanted to watch but knowing the answer already. You weren't at all surprised when he said "Historical K-drama." You sighed, shaking your head before coming up with an idea.
"We should watch a horror movie!" You exclaimed, looking excitedly at Jinwoo. He wasn't a huge fan of horror movies, but he couldn't say no to your enthusiasm and nodded slowly. He grabbed the TV controller from the end table on his side of the couch and clicked the power button. You watched the TV light up, seeing him click on Prime video and snatching the controller enthusiastically from his hands.
You typed in the letters, "c-o-r-a-l-i", until the movie you were looking for popped up. You grinned evilly at Jinwoo, looking over to Beru and seeing tears gathering in his eyes. He was a crybaby, but you loved him like a son, and you felt pity swirl in your chest. You just wrapped an arm around his shoulder and clicked on the movie.
You loved this movie, but you had to admit, it was pretty scary. Jinwoo was rarely fazed by scary stuff, what he saw as a hunter was much worse, but you were expecting Beru to start sobbing into your shoulder. You smiled as the movie played out and Beru started to relax, not finding the beginning scary.
That was the trick of Coraline, though. Everything seemed perfect, until it wasn't. You had to admit that you struggled a bit the first time you saw the movie. It was... disturbing. But it was also what got you into horror movies, so it held a special place in your heart.
The movie progressed, and you and Jinwoo were completely fine. You could already see Beru's shoulders trembling, though, and you struggled to hold in your laugh when he looked at you with teary eyes. It was around the middle of the movie when the floodgates opened, and Beru started sobbing uncontrollably into your shirt. You didn't fail to notice the glances he was sneaking at the TV, though.
You got through Coraline with surprisingly little trouble, but Beru wasn't happy by the end of it. He was whining like a toddler, and it really made him look like a kid. It blew your mind that he was Jinwoo's most formidable shadow soldier.
"Papa, why did you make me watch that?" He asked, comical tears welling in his eyes as he looked down at you. It felt strange to have him crying at you, despite having to look down. You just smirked evilly as you spoke.
"Character development. You may be physically strong, but you need to be mentally strong!" You explained, though it was more of an excuse to try to get the shadow to try something new.
Beru mumbled something, but you couldn't quite hear it so you ignored it, getting up from the couch as you turned the TV off. You looked down to Jinwoo, sleep in your eyes as you held your hand out to him.
"Hey, I'm tired and it's getting pretty late. Lets go to bed." You declared, smiling as he grabbed your hand and pushed of the sofa, walking with you to your shared bedroom. A few months ago, he had moved out of his Mom's apartment and bought one with you. It was one of the best choices of your life.
You slipped your clothes off, slipping on a loose t-shirt and wearing nothing but your boxers on your legs before walking to the bathroom to brush your teeth. With clean teeth and an empty bladder, you returned to the bedroom and slipped into bed, covering yourself with the duvet. The weight felt comfortable, but there was still something missing. Jinwoo.
Before long, he joined you under the blanket, and you reached out to rest your hand on his cheek. You couldn't help it. He was so beautiful, and god, you loved him so much. He smiled at you. He seemed calm, at peace. You felt very peaceful yourself.
"Jinwoo," you whispered, looking him in the eyes before planting a kiss on his lips. "I love you."
And with that, you let yourself drift off into the sweetest slumber.
I know it's not exactly what you asked for, but i'm really happy with how it turned out! i love writing angst, but something tooth rotting fluff is the key to my heart. Also, I'm sorry it's not as long as some of my other fics :( i really hope you enjoyed reading it as much as i enjoyed writing it!
