she/her/hers twenty-fun đ„đđ§ always has her nose stuck in a book or in fanfics on her phone. got a soft heart for some complex characters with daddy issues
i like to type in lowercase letters because it is pleasing to my eyes. i like pink, um, a lot. i love musicals. i think that cookie dough ice cream is the best. my comfort characters tend to be people with daddy issues, and who need to be hugged. i defend my favorite characters more than i would for myself. i am the biggest shirley temple fan, with maraschino cherries, a fanatic. and iâm a taylor swift enthusiast. my current hyper fixation is currently pjo (again- this is a reoccuring era for me) -
(also, that any type of discrimination is unwanted on this page. if you are mean, i donât like you.)
i say iâm the biggest new moon girl because iâm such a jacob girl, but eclipse always leaves me yearning for jacob black too so honestly i think iâm just the biggest enthusiast for jacob black on a screen.
itâs been years and iâm still pissed over the line of steveâs thatâs been glazed over and over again.
i love steveâs dream of having kids so much (get rid of the with nancy bit bc thatâs so stupid and thatâs what i consider canon) that manâs an only child whose parents didnât give him the kind of love or attention heâs craved and so of course he gives that to the kids tenfold and wants kids so that he could give them his undivided attention and unconditional love, support and affection.
however, itâs a miscalculation on someoneâs part in the writing team because canonically steve doesnât care about six kids- he cares for dustin, lucas, max, mike, el, erica, and will. that makes seven in total. both erica sinclair and will byers are apart of the equation. i will not take either erasure, because steve has multiple scenes with erica and deeply cares for will whether or not theyâve shared enough screen time together, that man felt for will so much that he was crying for will in s5. not to mention that he has more scenes with erica sinclair than most of the kids, safe for dustin. but itâs seven not six kids. itâs been pissing me off since s4 urghh.
been only a month since stranger thingsâ finale was released- resurgence of steve harrington and future fics has never been more needed to fill that very void, thank goodness for ao3 + tumblr.
maddie saying âthanks for everything you said earlier and today, all that you guys are doing. itâs easy to forget people are there for you when you get stuck all the time.â
and xavierâs immediate response of âalways. i owe it to you.â and then the instant reassurance, saying âiâm here if you need anything and that âiâm a call away.â ?? and her ask of staying at his place because she was uncomfortable in her own home, but sheâs comfortable going to his house?? i love my fav exes to friends who understand each other more than people think.
like this??? this is the guy the fandom hated and stated was this awful character?? the one constantly making amends and who literally is willing to lay his life on the line for his ex, and her friends?? well now, two of his exes but you get the point. who he strictly just platonically cares for??? anyway- as i said, i reserve my right in gatekeeping him because i liked him since the first season i watched school spirits for the very first time, my intuition has never failed me.
has an editor edited steve harrington to the king has lost his crown by abba yet??
it is so seasons 1-2 coded, itâs been in my personal steve playlist for years,,, iâm just askingâŠ. for a friend, yeah- definitely for a friend and no other ulterior motivesâŠ
so i am very much, deeply, avidly a steve harrington girl who loves her man down, but more so- i am nancy wheelerâs biggest defender.
in this fandom it feels very black and white, youâre either a stancy shipper or youâre a steve and or nancy glazer who blames the opposing character for their breakup- and that sickens me. the mischaracterization of both steve and nancy and the pointing the finger at either of them is so wrong to me.
both steve and nancy- had their faults in the relationship- itâs why it fell apart, also because they arenât compatible as a ship. there, iâm not sorry. i say this as someone who loves both of them so much, you can not like them together if you truly understand both of them as the characters they are at their core. they want different things, and always had.
however, the erasure of both characters development starting while theyâre in the relationship breaks me. steve didnât start progressing after their breakup, neither did nancy.
it was actually during their relationship that both of them grew into the later versions of themselves, in little fragments and slivers- itâs also what creates the cracks in their tension and breakthrough of not being compatible with one another. their breakup expanded both of them to be their best which couldâve lead to being hesitant friends who know one another more deeply than they did when they were together (duffers taking away any aspect of platonic! stancy really puts a damper on the potential that both of them couldâve really had) ( i loved season 4 so much, but the revamping of feelings being tossed around and then steve flat out saying it had me smacking my hand over my head- because no, he didnât have feelings for her anymore up until his admittance and also, heâd never try to get between her and jonathan even if he didnât.) ( season 4 would be higher on my list- had not the stancy of it all ruined my overall feelings on season 4 bc urghhh )
people often tend to forget that steve after getting rightfully pummeled to the ground by jonathan after steve made fun of jonathan, talked crap about will and joyce, was initially trying to make it right by going to the byersâ house to formally own up and apologize to jonathan. he had no motivation from nancy to do that, and he wasnât doing it for her- he truly felt bad and on his own terms was trying to make it up for the sake of making amends on his wrongs. he had no clue about nancyâs whereabouts and the only reason he went back to getting mad at jonathan was over his concern about nancyâs injuries because he thought, that jonathan mightâve hurt her. heâs genuinely concerned for both jonathan and nancy after finding out about the demogorgon, opting to go right back into the byersâ home instead of going back to his car and getting out of dodge. he saves both jonathan and nancy from the demogorgon in s1. not to mention once he realizes heâs moved in with the wrong crowd, scenes before that heâs eliminating both tommy and carol out of his life, calling them both out and leaving them and their toxicity that had a hold on him, behind him. he also is the one to pay for and get the new camera for jonathan during christmas, itâs nancy who gives it to him.
nancy, my girl, they just donât know you- this fandom needs a reminder of who my my fav girl is, iâm happy to give it. nancyâs not some popular girl that fell for an outcast and thatâs why âshe changed for the betterâ i hate that take so much, urgh. there is literal evidence of her once being ânerdyâ, the party talks about how she used to run and dress up for d and d campaigns with the boys when they were both younger. the kids, wrongly, think sheâs chanced since âthat douchebag steve harringtonâ, when probably? she was growing into her own person and wanted to do things on her own, steve mightâve been a part of that- sheâs a young teenager, steve mightâve been her first relationship, it helps to explain why she wasnât sure if they were dating, and why she was so nervous over going over to his house for that âpartyâ and why she wanted her best friend to come to that gathering. she cared about barbâs uncomfortableness, but she- also was uncomfortable about that party. she chooses and loves her friends, not once caring over any kind of popularity, barb and her are always close to one another, she never ditched her friends, until the one time she did and lived to regret it for the rest of her life. she calls tommy h and carol and the thought of hanging out with them âgrossâ. the mischaracterization of her as a âmean girlâ PROVEN FALSE. she mightâve been a moody teen, unreasonably dismissive with dustinâs pizza slice offering, but donât let one scene define her as a whole. my girl stuck by barb, put her foot down when it mattered (i.e. any time she narrows her head at tommy and carol and their stupid antics, adamant on only studying, taking the flash cards away from steve in the hallway, fighting for barb all throughout the seasons). she also refused to talk bad about jonathan, even when the rest of that group of steveâs friends were, choosing to go over to jonathan to talk about will and the missing posters, not even glancing back at steve or barb, sheâs always held her ground and steve didnât diminish that, ever. thatâs not why their relationship failed-.
not to mention, they were both trying to be supportive of the other even when inside, they already knew they were sinking, both breaking on the inside. steve tried his best to be supportive of nancy with the dinners at barbâs parents, was trying to help her her mind off barb at tinaâs halloween, and nancy was trying to help him through his senior year and his conflictions and insecurities, all while handling the situation at hand of knowing of what happened to barb, and will and both were scared at their wits end, steve wanting to try to go back to the âold normalâ while nancy wanted to change the narrative and wanting to make the people responsible for the demogorgon getting barb in the upside down, pay- and thatâs the actual, literal reason for their breakup. not one of them taking something seriously and the other not, not because steve was âignoring the problemâ, not because nancy was âblaming steve getting over barb because she felt guilty and projectingâ. they broke up and stayed broken up because they had different ways of coping what they were involved in and that proved how wrong they always were going to be together, they didnât want to face the music until there was no other way of going back. itâs certainly not because they didnât love one another, but they both had an ideal of the other and werenât in love with the othersâ real or raw self. which is the perfect opening for my exes to friends agenda but none of us got that and thus, closure over the unreasonableness over the messy storyline for steve and nancy in seasons 4 and 5.
pjo season 2 finale thoughts,, iâm distraught (spoiler warning for finale + future plot lines in seasons 3-5 bc i read the books and love speculating + also for being slightly insane over my fav camp traitor (but iâm a self aware luke! girlâ)
the absolute chaos a hermes kid brings to the table is wild. chris, youâre so lucky i just happen to have an affinity for misguided cabin 11 people, or else!!
the spy thing being brought at full atttention by luke slyly mentioning he knew that tyson was a poseidon child while on the princess andromeda, then chris blabbing and his cover story to then the actual reveal was astonishing, bravo pjo writing team- that was so well done. i was itching for chris scenes this entire season not expecting it to be revealed this quickly.
the instant blaming of katie was such an excellent choice. katie gardner mention, my girl!! ((give me my stoll twins next i beg)) (iâve got the biggest soft spot for cabin 11 kids, itâs an actual problem- stealer of my heart though is still luke, a girlâs got a brand that sheâs carried for 9 years)
also, also, also,,,
chris being so aggressive and mean to clarisse was a slap in the face- oh my word. i knew where it was going and i was still wincing my head off, ouch!!
the âluke always had my backâ and the knowing of whatâs bound to occur in hopefully season 4 is killing me slowlyâ
my luke and chris sibling heart, dude!! ugh đđ
(i want more of them next season, before pjo season 4 destroys me- itâll make the knife go deeper into my soul but i need the sibling interactions)
the deep voiced âpercy!! no fleece to heal you this time.â out of lukeâs mouth to percy was so book! luke shaken and throttled from the sea of monsters book- it floored me and had me chastising myself for giggling and kicking my feet (( i fell for book! luke several times between books 1-5, i can not be stopped or helped)
the using percy as a literal punching bag to take out his anger on, from what happened with thalia, and probably his own anger with his crew, luke castellan that excessive wrath and rage will be the end of you (i say as if i havenât already known of what happens with and to him) (kronos stay out of my manâs brain and body!!)
MR. D WITH THE DAM GUITAR AND BLATANTLY NOT CARING ABOUT TANTALUS HELP?!?! -
thalia grace, the demigod you are. you are so back and iâm so ready for season 3 just to see you. the hug with annabeth cured some sadness, not all but some. her asking where luke was- donât bring it up around me, that hurt. i am the exact opposite of a thaluke shipper but that was plain hurtful, slap to my heart actually, poor girl has 0 clue and then wonât be able to fathom it. sheâs about to see the worst of him next season; (excited to see her make him fall off a cliff though, he deserved that and more- and thatâs coming from a really gigantic book! luke girl, ok?!?!??)
((i already miss luke, this is so bad- middle school me is wide awake, urghhh))
i like desperately need to know how luke just vanished (did he use backbiter? what about his crew, did they go back in their black vans?) and escaped and whoâs left on his crew. or should i say,, krew? get it, bc kronos? iâll stop now. (this is a coping mechanism- come back to me my sweet, beloved, golden boy of camp half blood) also the very fact that thereâs more tension being built between luke as a leader vs. allison who was so ready to tear down thaliaâs tree and (who we can assume??) was eagerly waiting her turn to attack annabeth with the bow and arrow?? yikes, luke get her!!
TYSON SAVING PERCY- THATâS THE BEST BOY!! HIM THANKING POSEIDON- like dude you should be given the keys to elysium actually. THE THANKING POSEIDON FOR PERCY I CAN NOT- BIGGEST SWEETHEART IN THIS SERIES.
the. zeus. plotline. the âi donât want to be your daughter, and i will never be your weapon.â YEAH GET HIM AGAIN, AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!
chiron just willy-nilly telling percy that like âlol, more to rest on your shoulders plus your impending anxiety about thinking youâre the demigod in the great prophecy and giving you all of that responsibility if itâs actually thalia haha- good luckâ TWEAKING. if luke found out that truth then holy hades is that going to be the driving force of letting and leaning in to kronosâ evilness and the plans kronos has for him in the near future and his persuasion tactic while trying to get thalia to join him in titanâs curse.
12 year old me, youâre livid and estatic at your first book boyfriend rn-
đšwarning: future implications of spoilers for potentially s3-s5 while i speak on my fav idiot, ex- hermesâ camp half blood counselor đš
spoiler for season two, episode seven of pjo
lukeâs little soft voice towards annabeth vs. the way he speaks to his crew is so special to me.
annabeth is his soft spot, thatâs still his baby sister.
not to mention heâs still being merciful, he only hurt percy because he knew the fleece could heal him (stabbing him still gutted me though) he chose to yell at his crew when they wanted to attack percy, tyson and annabeth a few episodes ago.
kronos will punish him for that, heâs twisting what luke knows and using all his strengths against him and i knew that when first reading the series, but showing all that stress, turmoil and hesitance to truly trust kronos actually might kill me.
funny how when luke gets rightfully pissed and questions kronos (which like, babe- you shouldâve known what you were dealing with when you took up on his offer and let him persuade you by the pure rage you felt) thatâs when kronos literally attacks him and his mind, every nudge in the right direction, kronos is making sure itâs taken away from luke. thatâs why kronos ordered the hit on annabeth through allison, why he started hurting lukeâs head and mind when the pieces were connecting (finally) for luke.
heâs so tragic, so doomed, caught up in the right things for all the wrong reasons. weâre only on season 2,, itâs going to get more dark for him and iâm so not ready to see it being adaptedâ this is going to SHATTER MY DAM SOUL.
something so special in stranger things is that through every single resurgence of each new season we got, each new era, people once again go back to the characters they were attached to since the first season. and there is something so soft and serendipitous about getting to relive some parts of you from ten years ago and finding common ground between you then to yourself now.
first and foremost i am a tyson apologist safe for that he doesnât even need to be sorry for anything ANYTHING. this is what happens when youâre the best hero, sweetest guy, and a full hearted cutie!!! bc first of all thatâs the best boy in pjo. i donât care.
like yes, iâm so down bad for luke castellan and there is no other character i will fold for like i do for him (iâm so in love with luke- itâs such a problem. like i know whatâll happen bc i was a book reader before any adaptation but i canât help it.) but tyson? tysonâs my actual number 1 because he can do no wrong, ever, in any lifetime. that guy is just that guy. tyson is so brother to me and iâm an only child.
