she/her/hers twenty-fun 🥂🎀🧁 always has her nose stuck in a book or in fanfics on her phone. got a soft heart for some complex characters with daddy issues
i like to type in lowercase letters because it is pleasing to my eyes. i like pink, um, a lot. i love musicals. i think that cookie dough ice cream is the best. my comfort characters tend to be people with daddy issues, and who need to be hugged. i defend my favorite characters more than i would for myself. i am the biggest shirley temple fan, with maraschino cherries, a fanatic. and i’m a taylor swift enthusiast. my current hyper fixation is currently pjo (again- this is a reoccuring era for me) -
(also, that any type of discrimination is unwanted on this page. if you are mean, i don’t like you.)
one of my fav things in this universe is the way i get a hyperfixation and i decide, i must make several playlists about it. music is the way through people’s souls, i swear.
i say i’m the biggest new moon girl because i’m such a jacob girl, but eclipse always leaves me yearning for jacob black too so honestly i think i’m just the biggest enthusiast for jacob black on a screen.
it’s been years and i’m still pissed over the line of steve’s that’s been glazed over and over again.
i love steve’s dream of having kids so much (get rid of the with nancy bit bc that’s so stupid and that’s what i consider canon) that man’s an only child whose parents didn’t give him the kind of love or attention he’s craved and so of course he gives that to the kids tenfold and wants kids so that he could give them his undivided attention and unconditional love, support and affection.
however, it’s a miscalculation on someone’s part in the writing team because canonically steve doesn’t care about six kids- he cares for dustin, lucas, max, mike, el, erica, and will. that makes seven in total. both erica sinclair and will byers are apart of the equation. i will not take either erasure, because steve has multiple scenes with erica and deeply cares for will whether or not they’ve shared enough screen time together, that man felt for will so much that he was crying for will in s5. not to mention that he has more scenes with erica sinclair than most of the kids, safe for dustin. but it’s seven not six kids. it’s been pissing me off since s4 urghh.
been only a month since stranger things’ finale was released- resurgence of steve harrington and future fics has never been more needed to fill that very void, thank goodness for ao3 + tumblr.
maddie saying “thanks for everything you said earlier and today, all that you guys are doing. it’s easy to forget people are there for you when you get stuck all the time.”
and xavier’s immediate response of “always. i owe it to you.” and then the instant reassurance, saying “i’m here if you need anything and that “i’m a call away.” ?? and her ask of staying at his place because she was uncomfortable in her own home, but she’s comfortable going to his house?? i love my fav exes to friends who understand each other more than people think.
like this??? this is the guy the fandom hated and stated was this awful character?? the one constantly making amends and who literally is willing to lay his life on the line for his ex, and her friends?? well now, two of his exes but you get the point. who he strictly just platonically cares for??? anyway- as i said, i reserve my right in gatekeeping him because i liked him since the first season i watched school spirits for the very first time, my intuition has never failed me.
has an editor edited steve harrington to the king has lost his crown by abba yet??
it is so seasons 1-2 coded, it’s been in my personal steve playlist for years,,, i’m just asking…. for a friend, yeah- definitely for a friend and no other ulterior motives…
so i am very much, deeply, avidly a steve harrington girl who loves her man down, but more so- i am nancy wheeler’s biggest defender.
in this fandom it feels very black and white, you’re either a stancy shipper or you’re a steve and or nancy glazer who blames the opposing character for their breakup- and that sickens me. the mischaracterization of both steve and nancy and the pointing the finger at either of them is so wrong to me.
both steve and nancy- had their faults in the relationship- it’s why it fell apart, also because they aren’t compatible as a ship. there, i’m not sorry. i say this as someone who loves both of them so much, you can not like them together if you truly understand both of them as the characters they are at their core. they want different things, and always had.
however, the erasure of both characters development starting while they’re in the relationship breaks me. steve didn’t start progressing after their breakup, neither did nancy.
it was actually during their relationship that both of them grew into the later versions of themselves, in little fragments and slivers- it’s also what creates the cracks in their tension and breakthrough of not being compatible with one another. their breakup expanded both of them to be their best which could’ve lead to being hesitant friends who know one another more deeply than they did when they were together (duffers taking away any aspect of platonic! stancy really puts a damper on the potential that both of them could’ve really had) ( i loved season 4 so much, but the revamping of feelings being tossed around and then steve flat out saying it had me smacking my hand over my head- because no, he didn’t have feelings for her anymore up until his admittance and also, he’d never try to get between her and jonathan even if he didn’t.) ( season 4 would be higher on my list- had not the stancy of it all ruined my overall feelings on season 4 bc urghhh )
people often tend to forget that steve after getting rightfully pummeled to the ground by jonathan after steve made fun of jonathan, talked crap about will and joyce, was initially trying to make it right by going to the byers’ house to formally own up and apologize to jonathan. he had no motivation from nancy to do that, and he wasn’t doing it for her- he truly felt bad and on his own terms was trying to make it up for the sake of making amends on his wrongs. he had no clue about nancy’s whereabouts and the only reason he went back to getting mad at jonathan was over his concern about nancy’s injuries because he thought, that jonathan might’ve hurt her. he’s genuinely concerned for both jonathan and nancy after finding out about the demogorgon, opting to go right back into the byers’ home instead of going back to his car and getting out of dodge. he saves both jonathan and nancy from the demogorgon in s1. not to mention once he realizes he’s moved in with the wrong crowd, scenes before that he’s eliminating both tommy and carol out of his life, calling them both out and leaving them and their toxicity that had a hold on him, behind him. he also is the one to pay for and get the new camera for jonathan during christmas, it’s nancy who gives it to him.
nancy, my girl, they just don’t know you- this fandom needs a reminder of who my my fav girl is, i’m happy to give it. nancy’s not some popular girl that fell for an outcast and that’s why “she changed for the better” i hate that take so much, urgh. there is literal evidence of her once being “nerdy”, the party talks about how she used to run and dress up for d and d campaigns with the boys when they were both younger. the kids, wrongly, think she’s chanced since “that douchebag steve harrington”, when probably? she was growing into her own person and wanted to do things on her own, steve might’ve been a part of that- she’s a young teenager, steve might’ve been her first relationship, it helps to explain why she wasn’t sure if they were dating, and why she was so nervous over going over to his house for that “party” and why she wanted her best friend to come to that gathering. she cared about barb’s uncomfortableness, but she- also was uncomfortable about that party. she chooses and loves her friends, not once caring over any kind of popularity, barb and her are always close to one another, she never ditched her friends, until the one time she did and lived to regret it for the rest of her life. she calls tommy h and carol and the thought of hanging out with them “gross”. the mischaracterization of her as a “mean girl” PROVEN FALSE. she might’ve been a moody teen, unreasonably dismissive with dustin’s pizza slice offering, but don’t let one scene define her as a whole. my girl stuck by barb, put her foot down when it mattered (i.e. any time she narrows her head at tommy and carol and their stupid antics, adamant on only studying, taking the flash cards away from steve in the hallway, fighting for barb all throughout the seasons). she also refused to talk bad about jonathan, even when the rest of that group of steve’s friends were, choosing to go over to jonathan to talk about will and the missing posters, not even glancing back at steve or barb, she’s always held her ground and steve didn’t diminish that, ever. that’s not why their relationship failed-.
not to mention, they were both trying to be supportive of the other even when inside, they already knew they were sinking, both breaking on the inside. steve tried his best to be supportive of nancy with the dinners at barb’s parents, was trying to help her her mind off barb at tina’s halloween, and nancy was trying to help him through his senior year and his conflictions and insecurities, all while handling the situation at hand of knowing of what happened to barb, and will and both were scared at their wits end, steve wanting to try to go back to the “old normal” while nancy wanted to change the narrative and wanting to make the people responsible for the demogorgon getting barb in the upside down, pay- and that’s the actual, literal reason for their breakup. not one of them taking something seriously and the other not, not because steve was “ignoring the problem”, not because nancy was “blaming steve getting over barb because she felt guilty and projecting”. they broke up and stayed broken up because they had different ways of coping what they were involved in and that proved how wrong they always were going to be together, they didn’t want to face the music until there was no other way of going back. it’s certainly not because they didn’t love one another, but they both had an ideal of the other and weren’t in love with the others’ real or raw self. which is the perfect opening for my exes to friends agenda but none of us got that and thus, closure over the unreasonableness over the messy storyline for steve and nancy in seasons 4 and 5.
pjo season 2 finale thoughts,, i’m distraught (spoiler warning for finale + future plot lines in seasons 3-5 bc i read the books and love speculating + also for being slightly insane over my fav camp traitor (but i’m a self aware luke! girl—)
the absolute chaos a hermes kid brings to the table is wild. chris, you’re so lucky i just happen to have an affinity for misguided cabin 11 people, or else!!
the spy thing being brought at full atttention by luke slyly mentioning he knew that tyson was a poseidon child while on the princess andromeda, then chris blabbing and his cover story to then the actual reveal was astonishing, bravo pjo writing team- that was so well done. i was itching for chris scenes this entire season not expecting it to be revealed this quickly.
the instant blaming of katie was such an excellent choice. katie gardner mention, my girl!! ((give me my stoll twins next i beg)) (i’ve got the biggest soft spot for cabin 11 kids, it’s an actual problem- stealer of my heart though is still luke, a girl’s got a brand that she’s carried for 9 years)
also, also, also,,,
chris being so aggressive and mean to clarisse was a slap in the face- oh my word. i knew where it was going and i was still wincing my head off, ouch!!
the “luke always had my back” and the knowing of what’s bound to occur in hopefully season 4 is killing me slowly—
my luke and chris sibling heart, dude!! ugh 💔💔
(i want more of them next season, before pjo season 4 destroys me- it’ll make the knife go deeper into my soul but i need the sibling interactions)
the deep voiced “percy!! no fleece to heal you this time.” out of luke’s mouth to percy was so book! luke shaken and throttled from the sea of monsters book- it floored me and had me chastising myself for giggling and kicking my feet (( i fell for book! luke several times between books 1-5, i can not be stopped or helped)
the using percy as a literal punching bag to take out his anger on, from what happened with thalia, and probably his own anger with his crew, luke castellan that excessive wrath and rage will be the end of you (i say as if i haven’t already known of what happens with and to him) (kronos stay out of my man’s brain and body!!)
MR. D WITH THE DAM GUITAR AND BLATANTLY NOT CARING ABOUT TANTALUS HELP?!?! -
thalia grace, the demigod you are. you are so back and i’m so ready for season 3 just to see you. the hug with annabeth cured some sadness, not all but some. her asking where luke was- don’t bring it up around me, that hurt. i am the exact opposite of a thaluke shipper but that was plain hurtful, slap to my heart actually, poor girl has 0 clue and then won’t be able to fathom it. she’s about to see the worst of him next season; (excited to see her make him fall off a cliff though, he deserved that and more- and that’s coming from a really gigantic book! luke girl, ok?!?!??)
((i already miss luke, this is so bad- middle school me is wide awake, urghhh))
i like desperately need to know how luke just vanished (did he use backbiter? what about his crew, did they go back in their black vans?) and escaped and who’s left on his crew. or should i say,, krew? get it, bc kronos? i’ll stop now. (this is a coping mechanism- come back to me my sweet, beloved, golden boy of camp half blood) also the very fact that there’s more tension being built between luke as a leader vs. allison who was so ready to tear down thalia’s tree and (who we can assume??) was eagerly waiting her turn to attack annabeth with the bow and arrow?? yikes, luke get her!!
TYSON SAVING PERCY- THAT’S THE BEST BOY!! HIM THANKING POSEIDON- like dude you should be given the keys to elysium actually. THE THANKING POSEIDON FOR PERCY I CAN NOT- BIGGEST SWEETHEART IN THIS SERIES.
the. zeus. plotline. the “i don’t want to be your daughter, and i will never be your weapon.” YEAH GET HIM AGAIN, AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!
chiron just willy-nilly telling percy that like “lol, more to rest on your shoulders plus your impending anxiety about thinking you’re the demigod in the great prophecy and giving you all of that responsibility if it’s actually thalia haha- good luck” TWEAKING. if luke found out that truth then holy hades is that going to be the driving force of letting and leaning in to kronos’ evilness and the plans kronos has for him in the near future and his persuasion tactic while trying to get thalia to join him in titan’s curse.
12 year old me, you’re livid and estatic at your first book boyfriend rn-
🚨warning: future implications of spoilers for potentially s3-s5 while i speak on my fav idiot, ex- hermes’ camp half blood counselor 🚨
spoiler for season two, episode seven of pjo
luke’s little soft voice towards annabeth vs. the way he speaks to his crew is so special to me.
annabeth is his soft spot, that’s still his baby sister.
not to mention he’s still being merciful, he only hurt percy because he knew the fleece could heal him (stabbing him still gutted me though) he chose to yell at his crew when they wanted to attack percy, tyson and annabeth a few episodes ago.
kronos will punish him for that, he’s twisting what luke knows and using all his strengths against him and i knew that when first reading the series, but showing all that stress, turmoil and hesitance to truly trust kronos actually might kill me.
funny how when luke gets rightfully pissed and questions kronos (which like, babe- you should’ve known what you were dealing with when you took up on his offer and let him persuade you by the pure rage you felt) that’s when kronos literally attacks him and his mind, every nudge in the right direction, kronos is making sure it’s taken away from luke. that’s why kronos ordered the hit on annabeth through allison, why he started hurting luke’s head and mind when the pieces were connecting (finally) for luke.
he’s so tragic, so doomed, caught up in the right things for all the wrong reasons. we’re only on season 2,, it’s going to get more dark for him and i’m so not ready to see it being adapted— this is going to SHATTER MY DAM SOUL.
