It be like that.
If you are an exmo, you should know better than anyone how it feels to be reborn. I have always been so captivated by a person who has changed so much for the better. Whether it's rehab, cutting off toxic people or leaving a cult. I never thought I would be one of those amazing people who are so different than who they used to be. I always thought that who I was was it. I couldn't possibly evolve into an entire different person in this lifetime.
BUT, then it hit me. Somewhere along the way I unlocked the secret code and started the path of learning about myself every single day. It's a bizarre process, because I finally admit to things that I like that I never thought I would. A big one for me is anime. My best friend who has helped me so much always includes me in on some rad ass anime geared tiktoks. I never thought that I would be into anything of Asian culture because I thought it was different growing up and my dad is a racist. OPE.
I find myself changing friends who said they respected me and my religion at the time. After my shelf cracking, they got me belligerent drunk to the point of pissing in my clothes closet. I thought we could finally bridge the gap of awkwardness, maybe pick out some clothes together that aren't determined by temple garments (a BIG step in a friendship for me is doing "girly" things together) and do normal people things like go for coffee or drinks. LIES. Once I was out and had a baby they just stopped. It really hurt because I actually came out as bisexual to them before I was out. I considered them close and had her and her husband over for dinner often. I don't invite people in my home or in my life a lot. I guess I'm just rambling at this point, but life is weird and so much fun at the same time.















