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depressed chaotic gay man | 21 | he/they

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WHY IS TUMBLR TRYING TO EXPOSE OUR COMMENTS NOW WHAT

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happy pride month !! may the gay gods gift me a boyfriend so i won’t yearn all summer long 🙏

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my algorithm on everything is so gay that when i see anything with a straight couple front and center i actually get jumpscared

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finished the semester and i still have so much shit to do 🫩 need someone to take control of my life and make all the decisions for me please and thank you 🙏

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just saw connor storrie in ‘for all mankind’ and even though i knew he was going to be there i still gasped and blushed like a whore

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last night i had the realization that i’ve been in a depressive episode (the reason i’ve been feeling off but truly didn’t know why) and then i cried my eyes out for like two hours until i fell asleep and then today i finally locked in for the first time on hw i’ve been trying to get myself to do for like months

truly greatest underdog story of all time

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guys am i funny :(

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GET TO KNOW THE AUTHOR !

rules: if tagged, copy the questions into a new post and let us know your answers!

thank you to the lovely gorgeous @aures-nook (i did it this time :P !!)

When did you start writing?

i’m too lazy to check the receipts but i joined tumblr in 2018 and i think posted my first fic in 2020 (?) :D

What fic do you wish could get a little more love?

i don’t think i write enough to be picky about the interaction on my fics 😭 but i do wish this got slightly more attention (ima read that dennis fic though TRUST)

First Famous or Fictional Crush?

my first fictional crush i remember was ginny weasley dog 😭😭 it’s literally how i realized i was bisexual i was down bad for that girl bruh rip

How open are you to people IRL about writing fics

i gave my ex best friend my tumblr when we were close and she was on here liking every fic i wrote lmao but now i’m too anxious to tell anyone anything besides float the idea of me having wrote fanfic at some point

What is a mundane fact about you?

i’m a math major </3 and i just started a pitt blog !! but only those who truly want it are getting that @ dog

i have no one to tag without causing a panic attack 😔 but if you’re interested please feel free to do it and tag me :)

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my sister and her partner got tomodachi life which has turned into them trying to make characters and my sister begging me to help with the designs bc she knows my autistic ass will perfect the shit out of it

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thinking about shane constantly being labeled as “too much” growing up. too much routine. too much different. too much high maintenance. and constantly being forced to make himself smaller and hide who he is

thinking about ilya constantly being told “more” growing up. more money. more effort. more dedication. just constantly convinced he’s not doing enough and having to sacrifice and give more of himself than he had

thinking about them finding each other and never requiring any more or less of each other. they are allowed to be wholly themselves without any pressure or expectations and loving each other for the exact amount they are

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heated rivalry is prompting me to get back into hockey and it’s genuinely an illness

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Guys wait. The cottage was their first summer together, which means it was the first time Ilya got to see Shane’s freckles go dark with the high UV. Like freckles get so much more predominant in the summer and very light ones you wouldn’t usually see. And like yes Ilya sees Shane after summer but lots of them will have already started to fade by then. But this summer together, like 5 days into being at the cottage Shane gets in the shower with him after they’d been in the lake a while and he’s like woah. And pinning Shane to the tile to inspect alllll these new little lovely little freckles that he’s never ever seen before. Shane has a triangle of freckles now near the corner of his left eye, above his cheek bone and a faint freckle on the very tip of his nose and then oh GOD there are so many layers of dusted freckles Ilya feels a little dizzy. His lovely freckles so bright, shining even more now under the heat of summer and it’s so amazing to see his sweethearts face so familiar, so much a part of his last ten years that he knows pretty well, to see it in a whole new way. Ilya is like looovesick over it. He makes Shane rest his head on his shoulder while he read his chapters that night so Ilya can keep getting familiar with this new take on his loves face. All this extra marks, he had no idea were born every summer, so fleeting they’d be gone again by the first games of the season

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i’m actually crashing out i’m so bad at pretending i don’t care oml

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i had a dream i wanted to make out with my ex best friend

not a dream that i did, no no, that i wanted to

not a single person matches my level of yearning

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watched the bear: gary and i can’t help but feel it emphasized how badly richie was affected by michael’s death

like obviously it was already known but to see an episode solely depicting their relationship i can’t help but notice how much of richie’s life revolved around mikey

watched a video where they talked about how much energy and effort richie had to put in to drag mikey out of his spirals and headspace and how much of a toll on richie constantly having to balance out his pessimism

but i also think that it’s part of what gave richie purpose. we see in the show that he struggles with finding his purpose both after the suicide and his divorce. i think specifically richie finds so much joy in bringing joy to others and for the longest time he channeled that into mikey. he found purpose keeping mikey afloat but it was obviously always gonna be a losing battle. after his death, richie had a hard time finding different avenues to funnel his energy and resulted in him getting in the way of carmy’s vision for the restaurant and it wasn’t until he was shown a path that allowed him to bring joy to people in an efficient and beneficial way without hurting himself in the process

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canvas (the platform that my school, along with most schools in california and beyond, use for hw and class and such) got hacked and held for ransom last thursday into the weekend and one my professors gave us all A’s on the assignments for the last two weeks of class only for canvas to come back online an hour after he sent that email