why am i so retarded when it comes to boys. i have all these ideas about what i want in someone. then i pick someone who doesn't exemplify these ideas. fall for them, realize its not going to work, and sit the the gut and heart wrenching feelings until someone else comes along and inconveniently captures my heart. i need to get over him. then i need to not see anyone. but i have no idea if i can even do that. i just know i need to. and i need to rid myself of bad feelings, because every time i see something he posts my heart and stomach fall to the floor..










