Day by Day..

Life with Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder

[charlotteliz13]

[charlotteliz13]

Is there away to end things on amicable terms?

[charlotteliz13]

Lifeless

It's like the life was taken from me I'm unable to breathe and have a heaviness in my chest. I ask how am I still alive? My heart is slowly beating my body is weak. Maybe I need to go back to the hospital? How can I do this? There is so much I have to do that going back would only burden those around me. That's the one thing I hate is being a burden. Why should I keep going all I'm doing draining the life out of those close to me. They all say they love me, but how can they love me?

[charlotteliz13]

Hello

Finally heard the song and I cried because I miss him. I'm sorry for breaking your heart.

[charlotteliz13]

FP

Glad I'm done with my fp, damn after 5 years I'm exhausted. Though I secretly miss him... wish he would tell me he loved me... oh wait he already did... yet I don't believe him.. does he believe me when I say I love you??? Is his "Have an amazing day " texts daily a way to lure me back in??? Why do I still respond so quickly??? Should I respond ??? Does it make me seem desperate when I respond??? Yet he responds to me quickly sometimes.... Am I being benched??? What does this all really mean??? Ugh I hate myself for being so stupid!!

[mentalillnessmouse]

[biisousss]

[charlotteliz13]

Yo Soy la Doña sin Dueño (Letra) 2016 Tema de la Doña

Edición: Gustavo Colocho https://www.instagram.com/gustavo_colocho/ Letra del tema principal de La Doña interprete Araceli Arámbula

[charlotteliz13]

No more hiding

Used to hide my face in fear of someone finding me, but now I have nothing to hide. I can now show my face because everyone knows the truth,

[charlotteliz13]

Demi Lovato - Stone Cold (Official Video)

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[charlotteliz13]

It is not easy to be back on medication… I’ve come to realize that it is what I need.Just because I am back it does not mean that I will go back.

[charlotteliz13]

Guess I couldn’t stay on meds back then which is why I went back. My dark past came back into my new life.

[charlotteliz13]

It’s been so long... How things have changed in a way I never expected.

[charlotteliz13]

I'm just frustrated with my own body which is fighting me. No matter how hard I try to keep going it finds a way to stop me. Why does my body have to attack me?

[charlotteliz13]

For some reason I thought that there was hope for me to say what I feel. What I realize is that this will not happen. Well at least not today..... as what I feel today is seen as wanting to have a pity party. Maybe it is? I really don't know..... in my mind it is far beyond one. The way I see it is that I am seeking someone to let in. For once I would like to know that someone knows what I feel. Then again this might be too much to ask...... how can I expect someone to listen about how I feel? I shouldn't.... to date I have been able to do this on my own without anyone. Why should I expect anything different now? I know that it isn't easy to love me and that in no way I could be understood.

[charlotteliz13]

I had to get away before I broke down

[iwillbeatbpd]

Before we go any further, I need you to understand something. I am not a person.

I am a mirror.

Soon, I’ll adopt your speech patterns. Your style of clothing. Even a few of your interests.

At first, you might not notice. After a while, you’ll begin to find my behaviors rather odd.

You’ll try desperately to draw out “the real me.”

But no one lies dormant behind these layers of glass.

I am rage. I am fear. I am jealousy. I am pain.

And I’ll only disappoint you.

[charlotteliz13]

The heart i once let come to life is slowly dying again