Beating BPD

*Triggers everywhere* Sadly, I don't have time to respond to most messages. If you are in crisis, please call 1 [phone]. <3

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I said to the sun, 'Tell me about the big bang.' The sun said, 'it hurts to become.'

Andrea Gibson

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How many bad OKC opening messages are you allowed to send before you're forced to die alone?

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My COO thought I was Fluttershy but I was like "Nah. I'm Rainbow Dash. I'm really gay and Rainbow Dash is like one big rainbow."

Someone please stop me from ever speaking again.

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Fresh.

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People are always like, "you'll regret not spending time with [insert old relative's name here] once they're gone. Literally no. Fuck that. I called my 83-year-old grandmother the other day and she defended reconnecting with the cousins (her other grandchildren) who abused my sisters and me by telling me that they "aren't very bright" and that she needs car rides from them. That was after she insisted that my childhood was perfect and that she was basically a martyr. I'm sorry, but I can't love this person or most of my other extended "family." I tried.

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Do you want the honest truth about looking and feeling so different in the workplace? Yes, it is difficult to have multiple marginalized identities AND also dress differently/have visible tattoos. There will always be people who will hate me before they get to know me. There will always be whispers. There will always be stares. But you know what? Being open about who I am has literally saved my life, again and again. I have seen too much and have fought too hard to let ignorance and fear stop me from being a full, participating person in this society. I am aware that I was also born into groups with privilege, and I will continue to use those privileges to fight for others. My mission is to help in some small way to tear down this broken system and create a better world - for you, for me, for all of us.

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I am awkward and I have no filter and I don't know why women speak to me but here we are

I sent that to someone on OKC. I'm officially the actual worst at this.

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Me, explaining why I don't connect with people

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If someone is screaming at you to "show respect," there is a 95.6% chance that person is an abuser.

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I'm not a crazy flake, I just play one in real life.

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For someone who claims to be able to handle conflict, I sure am great at avoiding it.

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I’m the kind of person who either leaves too soon or painfully drags out a shitshow of a failing relationship.

Love me.

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What I Wish I Could Say On LinkedIn

Hi there! Hello. My name is D and I was raised in a conservative Christian household in the suburbs of Brooklyn. Naturally, I’m now a tattoo-covered lesbian with an affinity for bright hair who reads too many comics. I do a lot of volunteer work, but not for Jesus, and I also take kickboxing classes. Clearly gay.

I didn’t have many friends in high school, which is how my ongoing obsession with writing and social media began. I launched my career with a GeoCities website dedicated entirely to Sailor Moon, which my librarian asked me to shut down because many bad people use the Internet. I wisely heeded her advice and years later, I’m publishing highly personal stories under my own name because what else can you do with a journalism degree?

“You’re online from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to bed,” my exasperated sister once told me, a habit that bosses now love me for. I’m that jerk you can’t share viral baby goat videos with because I saw them a year ago, before they went viral.

As an introvert who has once suggested that all staff meetings be held via gchat, I have found my calling in communications (seriously). I can write! I can be on social media! I can pretend to be human in important meetings!

All joking aside, I believe in being passionate about what you do and having fun while doing it. I believe in treating people like people, and in making workplaces as diverse, accessible, and inclusive as possible. I believe in fairness, and in leaving the world a bit better than when you entered it.

A coworker once told me, “people like you because you’re real.” Another coworker once called me weird and handed me a Rice Krispies treat. I think I’m winning at this career game.

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Becky: The clueless friend

Jane: The responsible friend

Issa: The funny friend

Me: The friend who disappears for a year and returns with a shaved head, 14 tattoos, 11 cats, and random facts about space or something.

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Me: I can't do the thing. I really can't do the thing. Omg. Can't. Do. It.

Someone else: Yeah, you can't do the thing.

Me: Oh yeah?! Just watch me, asshole. *Does the thing*