hi this took forever i’m so sorry
you actually got out of work early for once, and planned to surprise your boyfriend with your arrival. when you walked through the door, immediately you noticed something was off. a smack came from your guys’ room, which caught your attention. so, of course, your curiously brought you to the door, a trail of clothing down the hallway. your breath hitched as you slowly opened the door, to see your boyfriend. with another guy. in your bed.
“am i not enough for you?” your loud and obviously restrained voice rang through the small room, making the brunette almost fall off of it. “baby! no! it’s- it’s not what it looks like.” he quickly tried to make up an excuse, but of course you were having absolutely none of his nonsense.
“bullshit!” you yelled, and the other man, a blonde guy with pretty green eyes that looked just so innocent and unknowing got off of the bed, grabbing his clothing and putting it on, giving brendon time to about three quarters of the way before he bolted out of the room and through the front door, the crisp noise of the wood filling the house as neither of you knew what to say or how to say it.
“y/n, pl-” brendon began, but you cut him off before he could get any farther than that.
“don’t say a fucking word.” you snarled, easily standing over him. “i can’t believe i trusted you! what a stupid decision that was. of course you’d do something like this. i guess all of those rumors were true.” of course you regretted that immediately.
brendon was rumored as the major player, the bed hopper in your area. you started off as a one night stand with him, then friends with benefits, and then you both realized your hearts wanted each other. brendon told you he'd leave everything behind, for you. you trusted him immediately, knowing he wouldn't.
and now, you walked out of the door, leaving the brunette behind. you wouldn't come back to that apartment, that made you cry whenever you so much as thought of the events that happened on that night. how brendon broke your heart, how he thought you were so ‘replaceable.’
pathetic, you were. to believe in him.
after that, you were purely shocked to see brendon on the cover of a magazine. it had been about three years, and there he was. his hair was different, but his eyes still held excitement and his smile still held love as he grinned on the cover of it.
the brunette had been in a band for a very long time now, even way before the two of you got together. he always told you he'd make it big.
though you hated him, you always believed in him. you always bought and listened to his music after that day, curious as to how he's grown and what he's done. his voice was as smooth as honey.
as you looked around your living room, you thought about everything you two had. all of the memories that you could never get back, no matter how hard you clutch onto them. it hurt. everything hurt. you felt numb, dead with emotion as tears streaked down your face. a sob wracked through your body as you typed in concerts in your area, then ‘panic! at the disco.’
‘death of a bachelor tour, madison square garden.’ it was a week from now, and there was barely any tickets left. the only ones were in the front row, as they were too expensive. not too expensive for you, though. you clicked the ‘buy’ button, and the order went through.
you had to see him again. no matter what. needed to see his face, just to know what you're missing.
you walked in the cold streets of new york city, trying not to get spoken to by anyone. people tried to hit on you, which you quickly declined. your feet went quicker as you heard screaming, but in a group. it was gleeful, and obviously by a girl.
brendon, rushing down the street, his head down, sunglasses on even though it was dark by now. you tried to yell out to him. he looked up quickly, taking a moment to recognize you, as your looks had changed as did his. your heart stopped, and so did you. you thought you'd be prepared, you thought you'd know what to do, but you stood there, staring like you didn't know what else to do, because you didn't know what else to do.
“y-y/n…” brendon muttered, taking his glasses off to reveal the brown eyes that made your heart go faster than it ever had been. “b-b-” you began, but the other was quickly taken away by management, yelling at him about how soon the show was starting.
your best friend, cole, had come with you, as you knew you couldn't do this alone. it scared you too much. of course, the little shit was walking at turtle speed, so he just arrived when brendon left, complaining about how it was cold and dark. he saw the look on your face, his eyebrows furrowing.
“y/n, are you alright?” he asked, concerned for you. “b- b- br-” you started.
“brother, briber, bring? speak to me, y/n!” he shook your shoulders. “brendon.” you mumbled, and his face dropped. “oh god, you saw him? like-- face to face?” he asked, and you nodded feverishly. “oh god…” you could tell cole didn't know quite what to say, seeing the way he looked down and shuffled his feet.
“yeah, i know. he was… everything i thought he'd be.” you mumbled, sniffling. you didn't like to cry, but stress always made you break down.
“it'll be okay. come on, the concert is starting soon.” cole grabbed your wrist, ensuring you wouldn't get lost. though you were taller than brendon, cole was much taller than you, along with most of the crowd. the two of you ventured into the entrance, having to fight your way but you two ended up making it in the end, and finding your seats. front row. the clear view of the stage excited but scared.
the concert started, everyone screaming as loud as they possibly could, and you stood there, in shock. even cole was cheering, jumping up and down excitedly, while you waited. a drumroll went, and then sharply ceased, before the one and only came out.
he threw his arms up in the air, and everyone cheered. he seemed so confident, like that was where he belonged. which is was.
you ended up getting into the concert after hearing his voice. it was smooth, just like you remembered it when he used to play with your hair and sing to you. then it happened.
he saw you, in the crowd, and stopped. stopped singing, stopped moving. the crowd didn't know whether to clap, cheer, be concerned? everyone stood there, in silence, along with you and brendon.
“alright alright alright. i want to invite someone up onto the stage, someone i haven't seen in a… a little while now for-- top secret reasons. their name is y/n.” he said, and you looked to cole in panic, you helped you up onto the stage, backing away.
you stood there, in complete shock, your brain not able to comprehend what the hell was going on. was this real life? you couldn't tell.
“i want to dedicate this song, to you.” brendon said, and the crowd absolutely screeched. you looked out to the audience, your eyes blinded by the lights. you looked to cole, who gave you a thumbs up.
he began to sing, that damn song. the song he'd sing to you to calm you down, the song he'd sing you when you both were exhausted. it was practically your lullaby.
tears brinked in your eyes as everything seemed to move in slow motion, your heart pounding as he continued to sing. after the song, he delivered a small speech, off of the top of his head.
“y/n is someone that deserves an apology from me, though it's a little late. i'm sorry, y/n. i'm happy you're here. it's good to see you agai--” brendon could barely finish his sentence before you tackled him in a hug.
and just like that, your life was aligned, as the person you'd longed for had changed everything about his life around and come back into it.