one main star of my show..
has always been the infamous, expectations.
since moving here, i think i had low expectations. i knew what to expect.
i expected very little and at the same time i really didn't know what to expect.
i think one thing i didn't expect was how isolating it is to be living here as a foreigner and as a convert. i never really expected that i wouldn't be able to meet practicing sisters who were like-minded and 'normal'. I haven't been able to find 'normal' people since i came here.
i didn't know a land such as here wouldn't be particularly accommodating to people like me.
we always expect a place to be a certain way because of how x,y,z has painted that picture for us.
well, let me paint a clear picture for you all.
i'm in a country where many think that it's some complete fairytale land. some of you think it's in the middle east, some of you think it's in the lands of the islands and humidity. some think it's east asia...well wherever you think i am, you are either correct or wrong. but i guess you'll never know because I don't think it matters. because we are talking about expectations right now.
i feel like i've taken 10 steps or more back in time. i didn't know that water could run out. i didn't know there would be so much racism and prejudice! i didn't know that it was so hard to find practicing people in a Muslim country. people aren't really friendly. things seem really backwards and i'm not used to the lack of diversity. the expats are also really weird, to me anyway. expats have a sense of entitlement, im not sure if it's because they are usually all white? well, everybody here has a sense of entitlement, how absurd, lol.
to be fair, i didn't expect much from muslim countries and its people bc at the end of the day, people are people and we are all human beings. nothing really surprises me anymore. anywhere you live there will always be strange cultural practices and culture shock. it's just weird, though, to see people who think backwards want to live like amerikenz and act like them...!
so funny. well, i think the moral of the story here is, don't go through life having these high expectations from people or places. they will always let you down because expectations are generally something that is not considered to be realistic. when we expect things, we put something in high regard or low regard that's why when the opposite happens we are shocked or surprised...it's best to remain neutral, though hard. i often have high expectations from people and think they will act or do certain things, and when they don't, i get disappointed. i've learned to just stop expecting things from people and places.
people disappoint, places disappoint. just gotta have all these expectations and enjoy what comes, the good and the bad. everything is a learning experience/process anyway...
anyway, i want a turtleneck. i need some hoodies.
it's so cold. i think i'll make some butternut squash soup.
i love cold weather and woolly socks.
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