Profundity
When I was young, I was taught that I should only cry when I am bleeding. As I got older, I was taught not to cry unless I could not do anything about my problems. The past year has been a rough yet wonderful learning experience. Life has its lows and highs. I don’t cry easily as I view it as a sign of weakness, though I will cry when sympathizing characters in movies. Serious tear jerker yet a wonderful film is I am Sam. Definitely recommend it. For the very first time, I cried the most I have in my entire life and then one day, I decided to shut it off. I could not let my feelings run the show nor negatively affect those around me. I’d much rather spread joy and be contagiously happy because there is Someone who always reminds me of what true joy is. Happiness is conditional but joy lasts despite the problems. A friend told me the importance of crying, she pointed out that it is not a sign of weakness. John 11:35 - the shortest verse in the bible “Jesus wept.” Two words yet it had the most amazing impact on me. Jesus cried not because He could do nothing, but rather He spent time to mourn. By locking up and shoving my feelings into a corner, it was equivalent to smacking on a band-aid only to realize weeks down the road, it is growing infected. I am still struggling what it means to give it up to God. I have been spiritually shaken but it’s good. I needed the wake up call. I have been blessed beyond measure and I smile back fondly in what I have gained and learned. Thank you to all who have checked up on me and kept me thinking in the right direction. True friends are hard to find. May I be able to continue to heal and be a blessing to others in return. To God be the glory.


















