metamorphosis

Every thing that you love, you will eventually lose, but in the end, love will return in a different form. ❁ Kafka & the Doll: The Pervasiveness of Loss, May Benatar

[chloeedearest]

There's this wave of sadness that rushes to cover me. Some days it comes in a dark form like a shadow trying to grasp me.

If I have the energy, I distract myself by reading a book. But then the wave comes back slipping through the crooks.

On most days I know how to escape. Sometimes though, it gets difficult to get out

The wave and the dark form may come at the same time. and when they come, it gets heavy and scary.

But even if it's difficult I still try to hold my breath.

Some days I get saved by another human being. and I am grateful for that.

On other days, it's me who rescues myself.

I'm glad I didn't drown.

[fairydrowning]

"I feel very small. I don't understand. I have so much courage, fire, energy, for many things, yet I get so hurt, so wounded by small things."

-Anais Nin, "Nearer the Moon"

[chloeedearest]

Silent nights 

and turned off lights 

Thoughts will start to haunt us. 

Things no matter how deep we hid within ourselves, 

Will always try to resurface. 

Pain and fears will whisper 

Doubts and worries will even linger. 

Weariness may make you cry 

And all you can do is sigh.

Nights like this may seem endless 

And may make you feel restless. 

But with hope, you can continue 

don't be afraid to start anew 

Just believe, you can achieve 

There is comfort within yourself

c. 2019

[lispectorisms-deactivated202301]

I was having an awful morning but then I read this Polly excerpt I saved and felt a lot better, remembered my priorities: to work on and treasure the things that won't "dry up and blow away"!!!

[5tn]

[peachee-babee]

[neonkontra]

[chloeedearest]

thank you dear, for being the one that I need, & for being there in both good times and the bad. especially the bad times. I cannot imagine a life without you in it. I cannot imagine how I’d be able to survive and live a life without your presence. at times I am afraid when I think of all the hardships I need to face, and all the struggles I need to endure, but your presence made me stronger each day. and that even though I have a lot to think of, I get to sleep well at night because of you. you are a blessing and I thank God for you every day.

[32trbl]

[chloeedearest]

Sure you love that person, but make sure you are loving them the way they want to be loved. Oftentimes being loved in ways you don't need feels like not being loved at all.

Shakira Sison

[yidan]

[pochacco]

[wordsnquotes]

I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2am, I am gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis. I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don’t belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn’t happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don’t see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.

Anna Peters

[wordsnquotes]

Real love is always chaotic. You lose control; you lose perspective. You lose the ability to protect yourself. The greater the love, the greater the chaos. It’s a given and that’s the secret.

Jonathan Carroll, White Apples

[sleepingpigeon]

no one wants to hear it but love is earned after the initial infatuation. commitment is something u both mutually agree to and then from there it’s work. it’s not work like it’s a chore it’s jus work like it takes effort. to get good at these things takes practice. it takes practice to learn to communicate better and it takes practice to learn to love each other in the ways u need to be loved.

[notyourpepperoni]

[naihve]