The irony of this blog is so funny, because more often times then not I am the one who reads these types of blogs because I am the weary man in need of encouragement. And even funnier I am about to blog to pastors and here's the kicker... I don't really have any pastor friends and/or pastor followers... Seriously, like outside of the AMAZING staff at Metro South Church that I serve with, I don't really have any pastoral friends... But I guess that's what is funny about the internet world is that you can blog your heart out and you can think in your own mind it matters... lol... but in all seriousness... what I am about to talk about today I know the Holy Spirit will lead his weary servants that need His comfort to read this post, because today I honestly believe that what i am about to say has been spoken to me by God almighty... hence be being up at 4:48am (who else would be up this early!). But as this thought came to me I was in bed God just started speaking to me to get up and write this... And just so you know this barely ever happens... I'm not that crazy guy who thinks that God is always speaking and I have this profound word no one else has... But here's the deal when these moments do happen my heart and mind just leaps at the very fact that God is alive, real, and speaking... How AWESOME that is! And my prayer is that for the rest of my life I will always wake up at the sound of His voice because His words are sweet to my mouth, sweeter than honey (Ps. 119:103) and how they restore the soul (Ps. 23:3)! Now on to what I woke up to say...
One of the things that stays close to my heart is the very fact that I want to finish the race of ministry and finish well. I know that this sounds weird, especially if you know me, because I have only been doing full time vocational ministry for 3 years, but the one thing that caught me by surprise was how taxing ministry can be. And i don't care if you are a pastor or not, here's the one thing everyone needs to know... Ministry is war! Seriously... And the one thing that scares me more than ever is wearing out to the point of quitting. I never want to be the cliche story of a young guy who set out the conquer the world for Jesus, and then ended up getting burned out, quitting, taking a mediocre job just to get out of the very thing that used to make life worth living. And that's why I just want to point out a few obvious things to pastors out there. And my whole hope is that pastor... if you are reading this... these will be words that keep you in the game and these words will spur you on to greater things!
1. You didn't choose ministry!
Now this point I know seems to be a little bit bothersome to most people... and I get that. But let me explain, because this is one of the most comforting thoughts in the world to me. Because when you really think about it... Who really chooses to be a pastor? Like I know we aspire to pastor, I know we want to pastor... Like I get those things, but if you are reading this and you are a pastor then here is what I know... what you go through on a daily basis... call it what it is... It stinks! Seriously... Like it hurts being a pastor. It's hard being a pastor. It is the greatest weight that has ever been placed on your shoulders, because look hurt people hurt people. Sinning people sin. And guess who has to clean up the mess of hurting people? Guess who gets to hear and council people with sin? And guess who has to try to always be the light of Jesus to the darkness of this world? Guess who? You do! You have to hear about the hurt, you have to see the pain, you have to deal with more than you ever wanted to deal with and here's what's even crazier... and if you are anything like me you never even saw this coming... is that when your people hurt... You hurt for them! This is something that no one else in the world can understand unless you are in ministry... You hurt for your flock! You deal with real hurt and pain for your people. There are moments you can't sleep because you have names and faces racing through your mind. And then through all of that Sunday is coming (or whatever day you teach on) and no matter what you have had to deal with, no matter what you are feeling like emotionally, you have to take the stand, preach and teach the world of God with boldness, and do with with a smile on your face!
And here's the thought that comes to your mind... Who would ever choose this? And come on now... Don't be fake, be real... because I know you think this, because it has crossed my mind a thousands times... We think why did I ever choose to do this with my life? Right? Like who in the world would ever choose to do this?
And here's the best thing I can ever say to a pastor who is struggling and dealing with this... because here's the answer... NO ONE! Seriously... No one chooses to go into ministry... and I know we don't like to think this way. We like to think we had everything to do with every decision we have ever made... And please don't make this into a Calvanism thing... That will rob you of this very thought... because it's not about that, but what this is about is the very fact that God... think about this... God Almighty looked down from heaven and created you and chose you to do His good works so that what you do can bare GOOD fruit! Man think about that! God chose you, he has gifted you, and he has appointed you and placed you exactly where you are at for a reason. And look that thought is all throughout the Bible... Jer. 1:4-5, John 15:16, Rom. 13:1, 1 Cor. 12:28... and I could go on and on... But here's the deal... God chose you and here is the one thing we have to sink our teeth into... Because God chose you and God doesn't choose losers! Did you hear that pastor! God doesn't choose losers to lead His people! He chose you!
That's huge! Because this is what I know is that we forget that we have been called by God. We forget that we have been commissioned by God. We forget that we have been chosen by God himself and yeah you may feel exhausted, you may feel forgotten about, you may feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders, and you may even feel like quitting, but understand God chose you! He chose you! Stop and think about that! Because the God of the universe chose you!
And look I am preaching to myself at this point too... Because there are days, weeks, even seasons of ministry that I want to quit! And look that's scary to say because I have only been doing this for 3 years. And it freaks me out that I have been all over the map with this in such a short amount of time... But the one thing that gives me comfort, the one thing that I love to think about, and the one thing that keeps pressing forward to the goal and to stay in the battle is the very fact that God chose me! It is the most unbelievable honor that you and I cannot miss! God chose you! Take heart with that, because God chose you and God wants you to finish the race...
And then the only way to do that... and I am convinced of this...
This lifts right from scripture... and let me just say this is the most important thing you could ever do for your people and yourself is fan the flame... Listen to these words Paul writes to Timothy... Look at this...
1 Timothy 1:3-6- I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my prayers. 4 Recalling your tears, I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy. 5 I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also. 6 For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God...
Now I want you to stop and re-read this... because you know all to well this passage of scripture, but re-read it, because Paul is writing to Timothy who was a young leader in the church. Paul knew Timothy would be carrying on the same burden he had and the same burden you have now... and what does Paul write to Timothy... he says Timothy I am convinced of your faith... right? He is like Timothy you have earned my trust, I have faith in you, and I have seen you in action. I have seen your heart, I know it is true, and I know you are the next one to lead this generation. And then Paul says something unbelievable in verse 6 where he says "and for this reason"... what's the reason? The reason is that he is filled with faith and about to step into leadership, he has been chosen by God to lead the church, and he says for this reason "fan into flame the gift of God..."
And just stop and think about what he is saying... Paul is saying first of all your faith, your place in ministry... it is a gift! And oh how sweet that gift is! But then Paul says fan that gift into flame meaning you have got to do something to keep the fire lit. Or in others words... Pastor there will be a day when your fire starts to dim. There will be a day when you feel tired. There will be a day when you wake up, you feel like you can't move on and the Holy Spirit leads you to this moment to read this post from a guy you don't even know so that you will understand the very fact that your flame will dim, and that it is imperative that you fan that flame! Meaning you have to do something to keep the fire lit! You have to fan into flame the gift of God! It is as if Paul is writing to Timothy understanding the struggles of ministry... It's as if he understands the struggles that will come his way... and Paul's advice is something we miss so often as we are so busy leading everyone else we forget to lead ourselves! And right here Paul is telling Timothy look you want to finish the race, you want to lead well, you want to do all God has planned for you to do? Then here's the deal... fan the flame! Fan the flame!
And that's huge! Because listen to me, the reason people are showing up to hear you preach and teach is because you have a flame in you! You have the Spirit of God in you! And people want to see the flame of God lit up in you so bright that you can lead them to Jesus! They want to see that what you have burning inside of you is real! It is genuine! And that even though all hell might be breaking loose in their lives, you are the fire burning so brightly that it leads them to Jesus! So that no matter how dark their world is they can look at you and see your faith in Jesus burning!
And here's the deal... for you to do that... you have got to fan the flame! You have got to! You have to figure out a way to stay lit! Because the moment that fire goes out... listen o me it is the beginning to the end... and here's the deal Paul knew that... And that's why right here Paul says to Timothy, Paul says to you, and Paul says to me... Fan the flame! Fan the flame! Fan the flame! Don't miss that... Fan the flame...
And here's what I think that means... In the most practical way I think I could ever put this... Ask yourself this question... what stirs my affecting for Jesus? What is the one thing that lights you up about Jesus? LIke what is that one thing that when it happens you feel closer to Jesus then ever before? What is it? What fans your flame?
And here's the best advice I could ever give someone... whatever that one thing is... here's the deal... DO THAT OFTEN! It is such a simple thing, but oh how we miss the simple things of life that keep us lit... More often then not we will spend all of our time prepping sermons or meeting with staff or doing the business of church that we forget to stop, understand we were chosen, and then fan into the flame the greatest gift in the world... the faith that leads us to Jesus! We have got to fan the flame! Because we are at war. We are battling. And we grow weary! We do... but that's what's so comforting about all of this... is that God chose you and the very best thing we could ever do for our people is to fan our own flame... because when we are bringing brightly, when our faith is shining, and Jesus is lifted up... what's the promise of John 12:32 that HE... Jesus will draw ALL men to himself... But Pastor you have to lead. You have to burn brightly. You have to show them Jesus... That's your call by God Almighty... He chose you to lead and we have got to... listen to me... we have got to fan the flame... For HE, meaning Jesus, is the hope of the world... and it is our job to lead people to Him! And here's the deal, how can we do that while weary? We won't... And here's the deal... for me... I want to finish the race strong... As a Christian, as a Husband, and as a Pastor... I want to finish the race strong... And for me the only way to do this is to come back to these 2 simple truths... God chose me and I have to fan the flame. And here's what I know... there will be ups and downs... probably this afternoon I will need to read this myself and remind myself of this... But this is what I know if I keep coming back to this... My flame burns brightly! And I praise God for that!
And can I just say, Pastor, I love you... I pray for the church daily... Greater things are yet to come in your life... You have been chosen, God doesn't choose junk, but it is your responsibility to fan the flame... Don't give up... Don't throw in the towel... Fan the flame...