Iām considering deleting tumblr. I wonāt delete my blog but I will likely delete the app.
Iām a believer that your relationship with Christ is personal. Some people can handle the ever changing, always a little negative spaces of the internet. I donāt know if I can. There are some very funny, cute, loving, wonderful spaces on the internet. But what Iāve found is that no matter how many filters I put on it there is always a lot of negative.
Not that negative is always bad, i donāt expect things to be rainbows and sunshine all the time. But scrolling through posts and randomly finding Antichristian media hurts. Scrolling through posts and randomly seeing people being killed hurts, seeing random antisemitism (on top of what Iām already seeing in my real actual life) hurts. Scrolling through posts and seeing political extremism that makes me worry about the state of my country, people, and faith is scary
Even going beyond the social negatives social media has been an idol for me in the past, and fully could become one again. I would rather ācut of the hand that sinsā than live with it ever present and hurting me and my faith. Furthermore the constant presence of po*n on the Internet is not good for me, especially considering my past trauma and vices.
I have had people call me ādramatic, brainwashedā and many other things in the past for making statements like this about social media. But truly if you donāt see how much of a rage bait hive mind the internet is I highly encourage you to pay attention
It eats up our time with God, our time with ourselves and (in my opinion) deeply affects peopleās ability to form their own independent opinions.
The hours we spend on our phones could be with:
Our familyās and pets (they frankly wonāt be here forever. Sorry if thatās dark but my childhood dogs getting old and if I could go back and spend every moment of my childhood I spent on my phone playing with her *when she could still play* I would. And if I could go back and spend all the time I was on my phone with my other lost family I would)
Dreams (putting effort to school, or researching something your interested in learning)
Bodyās (self care, exercise, cooking)
Im not saying the internet is some evil thing, there are good parts to it. But for me personally I think Iām choosing to unplug for a while. I want to get away from the constant rage bait and doomsday thinking and allow myself to breathe. I want to feel God in everything I do. I want to have those hours of my life back to grow and learn and enjoy life.
Anyway, sorry if that was a bit of a ramble. Much love and peace through ChristāØ
