You give a nod, retracting back into yourself again. No one really liked crying in front of other people, but you hated it. You know it isn’t a big deal, that Dave of all people isn’t going to care. But you wipe at your face regardless and take a sharp inhale as if it would help you swallow it all down.
CG: YEAH. YEAH, OKAY. CG: YOU’RE RIGHT. SORRY CG: I JUST CG: IT NEVER CHANGES. CG: THIS PLACE ALWAYS FINDS A WAY TO SCREW EVERYONE OVER AND IT’S PROBABLY THE SAME WITH EVERY VERSION OF ME THAT’S EVER EXISTED. CG: I CAN’T DO ANYTHING. CG: I’M JUST THE GUY WHO WATCHES EVERYONE DIE.
You cover your mouth, stop yourself before it starts again. You’re not making him watch you cry twice. You’re not. CG: I’VE BEEN HERE FOR *WEEKS* AND I STILL HAVEN’T TALKED TO TEREZI OR SOLLUX IN PERSON. I HOPE THEY’RE DOING OKAY BUT FUCK IF I HAVE THE GUTS TO FIND OUT! CG: IT’S LIKE THE METEOR ALL OVER AGAIN CG: EVERYONE IS EVERYWHERE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT’S GOING ON UNTIL IT’S TOO LATE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. CG: AND I GUESS LIKE EVERY VERSION OF YOU CG: FOR SOME REASON YOU’RE STILL GOING TO STICK AROUND. CG: BUT INSTEAD OF ME BEING SOMETHING THAT TAKES YOUR MIND OFF OF THIS GODFORSAKEN PLACE I’M JUST CG: I DON’T KNOW CG: I’M CG: FUCK.
TG: something that takes my mind off this place? TG: dude that was never your official job title what the fuck TG: youre still thinkin in terms of what you can do for people or how fuckin useful you are and its fucked up ok it just is so fucked up and hard on you TG: youre not a tool thats meant to make me feel good about stuff youre my fucking friend and i want you to be happy too
TG: this isnt even stressful for me idek TG: youre still you and youre here and thats really fuckin great as far as im concerned TG: so dont sweat it ok thats so far from something you need to be worried about as far as im concerned
You sit on your hands and watch him try to get himself together; your gut churns with a weird, sickening blend of guilt and angst and oh, hell, this is all so fucking weak you can’t stand it. It’s not even that big a deal. You weren’t together very long. Even if you had been, it’s not like Karkat hates you. He’s still here. He still wants to see you and talk to you and help you, for fuck’s sake. The least you can do is hear him out.
TG: dude its ok i promise you dont have to think of yourself as something that makes me feel bad TG: its just not true TG: are you listening to me TG: its not true TG: so dont worry about it ok?
















