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pastel soul, midnight mind 20

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Got really upset when I saw someone say my dream baby name is their dream baby name… then it kind of hit me that I might not even have kids anyway…

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If I had the ability to turn invisible all my problems would be solved

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One moment im sad the next im mad the next im crying the next i hate everyone

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My music taste isn’t huge, but these are the artists I mostly love.

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When I was attempting to hang myself, the only one by my side was my cat. She sat on the bed beside me, meowing. I don’t know if she understood what was happening, but that’s all I can think about whenever someone says they’re there for me

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When I was about eleven or twelve, I lived with my mom, two hours away from my grandma. My mom was always angry and unpredictable. One night, she came home late after a two-week work trip. She was furious because I hadn’t cleaned the house the way she wanted. She woke me up, started yelling that I was a mistake, that she hated me. Then she saw the soup she’d made before she left, still sitting in the fridge.

While I stood there half-asleep, washing dishes like she forced me to, she poured the pot of cold soup over my head and video-called my grandma to show her. My grandma didn’t stop her, she just acted confused while my mom kept yelling. I stood there covered in cold soup, washing the dishes because I didn’t have a choice. If I cried or said anything, she’d hurt me more. So I just stood there and took it.

That night was the first time I tried to take my life. I didn’t really understand what killing yourself meant, I just thought if I took enough pills, I’d die. So I took two bottles of aspirin, drank some of her wine, and went to bed.

I woke up in the middle of the night throwing up and hallucinating, convinced there were spiders crawling all over me. She didn’t take me to the hospital. She just handed me a bucket and locked herself in her room to play games on her phone while I was actively overdosing.

I don’t have any happy memories with my mom from my childhood. This is the core memory I have.

[fallenangelwitch]

Girlhood is being emotionally unstable

[hayy-jade]

Me on the bus every morning

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These brain dead degenerates need to leave me alone

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I once had a dream that I had a babygirl and I named her Nina

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Me everyday bro

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Lovely messages to my dear old mom yesterday

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Idk what I’m doing with my life, idk who I’ll be 5-10 years down the road…as long as it’s not my mother or worse..

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I hate my mother, I hate my mother, I hate my mother, I HATE MY MOTHER!!!!!!