[circuitdoll]

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i had an identity crisis once, wondering in my thought loops if i was a true or false dandelion

my mind felt black

in the end, i decided to lean towards the sun regardless

[circuitdoll]

there is a stratification to me, layered marks like tree circles that trace to different forms of traumatic exposures. it compounds on and on... three years ago, i haven't felt like myself in three years so far since i lived through one of the most psychically traumatizing experience(s) and then the consequent fallout. i wasn't prepared for another fracture of my self. fragile and barely assembled. being hit again when so vulnerable, it's recovering but not with the same pieces i was before.

[crystalmegaplex]

[circuitdoll]

it gives me difficult feelings that i'm unable to have a future in mind with someone in a relationship. it's scary. the wires in my mind were developed in and distorted by a grooming dynamic. i let that happen to myself because i wanted a relationship so badly. why does the hardship of trudging towards independence feel like a dissolution of a relationship? these thoughts harm me and my prospective future deeply

[huariqueje]

Night Visions  -  Jeanine Brito , 2022

Canadian, b. 1993 -

Acrylic on canvas, 35 x 50 cm.

[psikonauti]

[dogpuppy]

[uglyfruit]

Ribbons from 19th century France

[nemfrog]

Fig. 160. “The appearance of blood vessels in the ears of a white rabbit.” Experimental pharmacology. 1917. 

[realhumanbaby]

[thingsfromthedirt]

[jasminei]

[sofierceoh]

Diamond Kokoshnik by Cartier. It was commissioned by Grand Duchess Vladimir for the marriage of her only daughter, Elena, to Prince Nicholas of Greece. (x).

[coquette-club]

[circuitdoll]

how it feels to have this exact clinical prescription except one 2mg tablet twice a day (i'm not joking) but in america it's called extended release instead /)..(\

[north2007]

my grandmas flowers are even lovelier than before

[circuitdoll]

how it feels to be me