(Part 1/3) This one is a woozie guys… it's super long and personal sooooo— sorry in advanced. • I've been doing a lot of #selfreflecting over the past few months and the amount of #growth I've experienced thus far has been life changing. I’m so #grateful for everyone that has been supportive of me and my journey. Especially for @joshshadid @ericspivak and @drkousouli . Surrounding myself with #inspiring people has made me put action before fear. I haven't felt such an overwhelming wave of #creativity since I was a teenager. I've been tolerating and holding on to so much pain — emotional, mental, and physical — and finally freeing myself of these burdens has been a catalyst for #change — and while reaching this point has been a feat in itself, this is only the beginning. • As a child I suffered from #depression. I have vivid memories staying up all night crying at five years old— watching the sunrise with tears streaming down my face wondering what the point of being alive was if no one loved me or wanted me. I believed I wouldn't live to see young adulthood, or if I did I would take matters into my own hands to fulfill this destiny. • My parents left me when I was 3 to be raised by my grandmother, the most amazing woman in the world. However, being acutely aware of this #abandonment left long-standing effects on my emotional well-being / growth. I’ve pushed away many friends, family members, and past lovers from the fear of being vulnerable. I didn't want to rely on anyone for support. Through #selfsabotage I ended up hurting myself and those around me. I know now that accepting #love and help is not a sign of weakness. • I have tested the #patience of many, and I'm so lucky that they put up with my BS because honestly I was a fucking tornado of a mess of a girl. • I am so #blessed. I am surrounded by so much love. Every new encounter is filled with the intent of making each person feel better than they did the moment before. The time I have on this earth is so precious and I've been squandering it. I'm so excited to share with you everything I've been working on. I have always avoided sharing my #aspirations because I was afraid (cont. in comments)⤵️ (at Tulum, Quintana Roo)