so i just started 11th grade. for context, that just happens to be ur debut into making big decisions for urself, learning responsibility and choosing subjects that will pretty much decide how the rest of your life plays out (in India, at least)
and as excited as i was to finally take the reigns of my life in my hands just abouttt 2 months ago— things have went to shit so fast i genuinely wanna hurl.
personal matters being messed up asf aside, i rlly just wanna talk about the system for a moment— the education system, to be precise.
there is not a single soul in India that doesn't know or hasn't acknowledged just how messed up our education system is. genuinely, you would have to be living under a rock not to know atp. the NEET paper got leaked recently and three kids committed suicide— what action has been taken? absolutely none. isn't it so sickening that when I heard the news of the three kids having committed suicide because of a singular piece of paper, the first thing i felt was relief. relief so bloody intense because I was so sure the number would be much more. to put things into perspective— about 2.4 million kids give the NEET exam every year. and this single paper leak has dragged them all through the mud with no reassurances or solutions.
literally so many students that have taken the science stream and obtained good marks regret their decisions— not because they hate what they're learning or where their interests lie— but because the education system failed to provide the experience and hands on knowledge necessary to actually get a decent job. isnt it so hilarious how PCMB is a stream hated by students and teachers alike?— the very teachers that teach you the subjects?? anybody that has experienced this stream never suggests you take it because its such a brain fuck, you'd be in for it. and yet nothing has changed and it remains a plausible option with no proper amendments.
the education system also continues to fail in the arts department— but that's a separate rant entirely. like tell me why everybody i asked told me that getting a job in that area is nearly impossible because our system hasn't made a bridge between the studies and job opportunities?
also, am i wrong to think that students should be given mandated and official facilities to help with post-tenth grade decisions?? the sheer pressure that was lit pushed on everybody the moment board exams (which is another million pound pressure we have to deal with) were over is so surreal it felt like stepping into another, much more depressing and gloomy, universe— and the fact that we have no guidance for it sucks ass.
i would like to point out that i am like the most positive-optimistic person i know— ask lit anybody, i dont do sad, and if my reality happens to be sad then i dont do reality because i dont. do. sad. this has been my entire thing since i was like 7, and trust i had many opportunities to fail to live up to said sentiment. but i didnt. cuz thats not what i do. but i have been coming apart at the seams because of all this, for a lack of better words, absolute bullshit. like, just assume i do manage to make it through these next two years by throwing away everything else i have loved and cared for— what then?? i have no guarantee that i will get into the college i want to because apparently seats are only open to 99% or above scorers now (an actual up and rising problem btw) and what if the competitive exam i wanna give gets leaked again?? what then?? and what is the govt doing to help? nothing nothing and nothing.
honest to god, did u see the post our education minister made in english like a few days ago?? bro cant spell for the life of him and cant tell apart "meet" and "meat" but we are all damning our lives under his reign??
and don't even get me started on how society pressure plays into all this— thats where all the main issues fester anyway.
all in all, the system sucks— especially the education system, but also, the entire system. and we are all stuck to play slaves because we have no other choice.
moral of the story: kill me :) or run away with me idk