will graham (fictive in a system)

he/it

[classtraitor]

My name is Will Graham, and I'm a fictive from Hannibal NBC. I'm a man in my early 40s, and I use he/him and it/its pronouns. I'm bisexual.

Our body is an adult. We are chronically ill, disabled, and mentally ill. We're a DID system, and you can loosely look at us as a soulbond system. Personally, I believe that I came from the multiverse.

I don't care if your system was formed out of trauma or not -- you're all welcome here.

The main fronter of my system and I have a fandom blog over at @killthethingyoulove.

No DNI. Doubles are welcome.

I'm looking for other fictives who are seen as "problematic." Other people who did things that are frowned upon in canon.

I guess that's all.

[classtraitor]

INDEFINITE HIATUS

[classtraitor]

My headmates have a lot of sideblogs. This, itself, is a sideblog.

I'm wondering if I should make a vent tumblr. I just lost the follower that I've had for the second longest amount of time. Probably because I need to vent all the time.

Should I make a vent tumblr?

Yes

No

Voting ended onNov 29, 2025

[this-is-saneism]

Saneism is going through the comments on a reddit post about someone venting about psychiatric abuse and the comments saying

"you aren't being specific enough about your abuse how do I know if you were actually abused or just one of *those* guys that pretends the psych system absued them because you want to stay a crazy person 🤨"

"Well some people do deserve those bad things OP you have to understand!"

"Well if you mean Personality Disorders those aren't even real disorders if you have one you are actually just a bad person and need to stop being bad"

"Well you cant trust schizos you know!"

Im tired chat.. so tired

This is saneism

[returnofthemousearmy-deactivate]

the funniest thing about the mature tag on Tumblr is that I'm so used to innocuous things being flagged that I'm sometimes genuinely surprised when I click and the content is actually pornography, and it feels ridiculous to be shocked by this! taken aback by the porn tag hiding porn! like you walked into a clearly labeled adult store and were scandalized by the expected sundry goods. but like. 90% of the time it's just knitting. it's been a dude's sewing project. look, the last two times I went in to the store marked xxx they were selling cross stitch kits, which was not what I expected the first time obviously but which did alter my expectations, and now the ladies from the church sewing group are just so, so mad at me.

[bluebell-bunny]

Built different (poorly)

[mend-the-past]

[waverfly]

it's okay to not have empathy. it's okay to not feel sympathy either or to be unable to feel other people's emotions, it's okay to do things not because they're morally good, but because you personally benefit from it in some way. your actions count, not your personal feelings or thoughts.

i often do good things because it'll make me look better and make any future issues easier to excuse myself from. this is because i am Mentally Ill. i still do good things despite how i think.

instead of forcing yourself to feel for other people, work with your lack of empathy. are you still doing a good thing even if your intentions aren't pure? that's okay. you're not a bad person. you do things because your constructed moral code says so? that's okay. you do things so you're not bothered later on? that's okay too!

your actions matter. not thoughts. be easy on yourself.

[1ime-st]

been seeing a loooot of really mean nasty comments about bpd recently and it fucking sucks. saying how we’re such awful, horrible partners and maybe some people are, maybe some people dont try to change. but i can guarantee you, the borderline is hurting worse knowing they hurt you and couldnt control it.

not all of us can and not all of us have the tools to control ourselves and our emotions, but we try. and to whoever is trying, to whoever is fighting every day to be the best version of themself, i see you. i see you, i hear you and you are so loved.

we are truly such kind individuals, we love so hard and pay so much attention to our partners and it sucks that that part of us gets overlooked because we split, or we get triggered and lose control. and by all means, leave your partner if that is ever too much for you, or it simply isn’t a healthy relationship, but do not fucking deem us all evil.

[boyhaunt]

a man in a terrible beige suit asks if you have trouble with taste, and you reply, bitter, that your thoughts are often not tasty enough. the first time you look at him is to talk of your distaste for eye contact and burst veins. he smiles. in three seasons he’ll try to saw open your head to eat your brain and you’ll call the blood on his face beautiful before pulling him off a cliff. this is a love story.

[snowchester-system]

why must source connection be seen as contradictory to being a real person? can't i be both myself, and be real? can't i have my relationships be real while also being who i am? must i become a different person to be treated with the complexity and respect that everyone else gets? can't i be both real and be medkit?

[whoopsie-collective]

Do you have a headspace

Yes

No

It's complicated/Secret 3rd thing (elaborate in the notes!)

Voting ended onNov 30, 2025

singlets don't touch, if you want to know results just ask

[unfamiliar-ghostly-system]

You are not ableist for how you experience plurality because your plurality is not a commentary on other plurals.

[classtraitor]

Someone reblogged a post onto our dash claiming that hourglass figures, as depicted in the media, do not exist. I'm offended on behalf of anyone who has an hourglass figure and who has to deal with people claiming they don't exist.

This was a positivity post about fat women who do not have hourglass figures. I wish some people's idea of positivity wasn't to tear others down.

I say all this as a fat person with a non-hourglass figure.

[f4dingf4st-deactivated20260210]

I hate that I care so much about you still after all the times you hurt me.

[fact-anonymous]

For this post: introject can mean factive, fictive, fucktive (faitive/fcktive) and anything else in that umbrella. "You" is "general you".

A lot of plurals are far too comfortable saying "we don't want an introject", "we're trying so hard not to get introjects", "ugh, splitting/forming introjects again", "man, we have too many (insert source here) introjects!"... and it gets even more intense when the sources are real people, villains or abusers, have doubles, divine/mythological figures, personifications (of songs, buildings, countries, institutions, mental illness, etc.), canon-divergent, special interest, or the sources are "problematic" in whatever way is trendy to bully plurals on the internet right now...

I think that's disrespectful at best. Imagine people keep saying, "oh I don't want to be like you" and "I don't want to have you as my roommate" not for your actions, but for your existence. To current/past and future introjects, they may hear, "damn, my headmates hate me and people like me so much."

And at worst, I feel like it may wire your brain to be more unwelcoming of introjects. If you keep walking the same path in the grass, it'll become un-grassed. Shame will more easily spring up at their formation, splitting, and/or walking in... And while feeling shame is valid and thought crimes aren't real, shame can often be a precursor to suppression and other forms of intrasystem mistreatment.

The thing is, introjects are also your headmates. They will join you in this life and body. They're not "invaders" or "last resorts" or "forming/splitting/walking in to embarrass you for having a crush/special interest/etc.". They're not tools who only exist to comfort you. They're not "making your system look bad". They're not a receptacle for your internalized shame.

They're members of your system. Whether they have a role/purpose or not, they'll most likely be with you for the rest of your life. So, please, try to at least respect them as a person and find a way to be okay with their existence. And after that? You can find that they're like everyone else. They can be kind, or cruel. They can be friends, partners, co-workers, family. They're not a bogeyman to be feared.

~Mod Reaper [Plain text: Mod Reaper]

[knittedmittensstuff-deactivated]

Thank god for gay men. Thank god for gay trans men. Thank god for trans men. Thank god for gay sex. Thank god for men who like other men