lmaos in omen the sagebean peacekeeper
in all honesty though my take on omen in the au, before i post anything is him trying to learn to be himself again.
it's a little different from how i'll portray KAY/O in this au. KAY/O is learning what it means to be human, not necessarily how to find himself.
omen is, by all definitions, a blank slate upon waking up in this au. he knows how to be human he knows how to act human, his skills and everything, muscle memory. the reason he fixates so much on finding his past is because he sees all the agents around him who are so assured in their identities, or at least know what direction they are going. he doesn't have that. all he got was killer and attempted murderer, which at first he thinks is a good thing, but the more time he spends with the protocol, the less he thinks about basing his identity on just killing.
i mean, good on riot for making him softer but can we have like reasons why the scary shadow assassin got domesticated like a cat.
anyways, omen wakes up. he doesn't know anything about himself or what he was doing. all he knows that there was pain, and then something pulled him back from the void, a helping hand.
and the more he learns about his old self while spending time with the Protocol, the more he's like, 'my old self is not right'. essentially, he grows up with the Protocol, with iso revealing more things to him about his old self.
omen basically has to decide: does he want to go back to that life, to being a killer like that, ruthless and not asking questions with the threat of being disposed or does he want to stay here with people who saved him despite what he has done?
he is a killer, both sides ask that of him. but which one is better? one unfeeling, guiltless, relentless monster... or a soldier allowed to have friends, to have fun, to be... something else other than a soldier? to love, even? because love was addicting, water to a man in a desert, and once he has a taste of it, he wonders if he ever felt it before, and how strong or horrible of a man he must have been to turn it down if he did.
eventually sabine does ask him if he wants to know his name, years later.
he says no. he says he likes who he is now. he's not his past anymore. he's omen. even then, he'll forever feel bad for attempting to kill sabine. because this woman, in the end, had ultimately given lingying the chance to bring him back. and despite everything, even him knowing all of this, his past, sabine keeping everything from him, she still considers him an old friend, still keeps him around, even if it's under the bullshit reasoning of 'keeping him close to anticipate betrayal'.
he likes that he's a killer, yet the protocol taught him how to be gentle. he likes that he can hurt and help all at the same time. he likes that he's a monster and he's a man all at once. there is a balance he walks, a thin needle he threads. he sees both at once and yet not.
and he sees now that this balance must be used to protect the people who have given him a second chance. so he will. he owes them that, at the very least.
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