how Obi-Wan and Maul are really two self-reflecting destinies that mirror each other in the most opposite but also eerily similar ways.
They meet each other in their Padawan and apprentice days: both young, powerful, and full of so much potential. Both are shaped by masters who define the paths they will take. Maul kills Qui-Gon. Obi-Wan loses his master, but gains the future he never expected: becoming a master himself.
And Maul loses everything.
He falls into a rage, into hatred, because in his mind Obi-Wan is the person who ripped his destiny away from him. But the tragedy is that Obi-Wan was never the one who truly took anything from him. It was Sidious. Sidious took Maul’s childhood, his identity, his ability to choose, and the future he could have had.
But Maul has nowhere else to place that grief.
During the Clone Wars, when Maul seeks Kenobi out again, I think his hatred is rooted in something much deeper than revenge. He believes Obi-Wan has everything he was denied. A home. A family. People who would mourn him. A place in the galaxy. A purpose beyond being a weapon.
And deep down, all Maul ever wanted was to be wanted.
He sees Obi-Wan as the embodiment of everything he lost.
So, he takes Satine’s life because he wants Obi-Wan to understand him. He wants him to feel that same unbearable loneliness and pain.
By the end of the Clone Wars, everything Obi-Wan built his life around is destroyed. Satine is gone. Anakin is gone. The Jedi Order is gone. The entire future he believed in collapses, and once again, it is because of Sidious. The same person who stole Maul’s destiny destroys Obi-Wan’s too.
And then, years later, when they meet again in Rebels, they are no longer the same people they were before.
Maul spent decades chasing Obi-Wan because he thought killing him would finally give him peace. And Obi-Wan, after everything, still looks at Maul with compassion. Because maybe, in the end, Obi-Wan was the one person who understood him.
Not because they were the same. But because they were both survivors of the same tragedy. Both victims of Sidious and his grand plans.
But the difference is that Obi-Wan is still standing. Not because he lost less. Not because he suffered less. But because he refused to let his pain become the only thing left of him. Maul let his grief consume him. He turned his suffering into hatred, into revenge, into a need to destroy the person he thought represented everything he had lost. It is not until he is on his deathbed that he realizes all of this.
Spot on OP!!! Maul and Obi-Wan are mirrors to each other; both suffered so much, had their worlds irreparably changed during their prime padawan days, and witnessed Sidious’ rise to power.
But where Obi-Wan was able to let go and find a new purpose, Maul lost himself to his hatred, anger, and grief. His mind was too entrenched in his suffering to see past it and he never found a fulfilling purpose.
I think the saddest thing about Maul is that he is so deep inside the abuse and trauma that Sidious has given him that he has no possible other path for him. He is always doomed to be alone, but what’s beautiful is that he doesn’t die alone, but dies in Kenobi’s arms with Kenobi grieving for him. Even if only for a moment, I think it’s a beautiful full circle end to Maul’s story, which is why I’m not upset at all that he dies like that in rebels. Kenobi gives him what he wanted all along, to be seen, and they share a last moment as two grief burdened victims 💔
That moment is my favorite part in all of Star Wars. Narrative and thematically, it is incredible, but it goes even deeper than that. Maul hurt him so much yet Obi-Wan still showed him incredible mercy. And Maul for one moment finds some semblance of peace. It’s so good 😭
It’s the fact that Maul even says that Luke will avenge THEM. It’s no longer about the revenge towards Kenobi. He died on his side. He died a believer.
Obi wan knew where he came from. I think at the same time obi wan would be merciless to other villains, like savage. I think him holding maul gently and reassuring him was after years of soul searching after he failed anakin. He mended an old wound.
Lowkey, I think Obi-Wan was always more compassionate toward Sith apprentices than a lot of other Jedi. Even with Ventress, there are moments where he treats her with a level of understanding and humanity that goes beyond simply seeing her as an enemy. He recognizes that people like Ventress and Maul didn't exactly choose the paths they were put on.
But I also think different versions of Obi-Wan would see them differently. Clone Wars Obi-Wan still largely views the conflict through the lens of Jedi vs. Sith, even if he has moments of empathy. He understands there are shades of grey, but he still believes the Sith are the enemy that need to be stopped.
Ben Kenobi, though, is an entirely different person. By that point he's lived through the fall of the Jedi, the rise of the Empire, and the loss of Anakin. He's spent years reflecting on where everything went wrong. I think that's why his final interaction with Maul feels so different. He no longer sees a Sith Lord standing in front of him: he sees another man who was taken as a child, used by a master, consumed by a cause, and ultimately left with nothing. I think clone wars Obi wan would have cut him down with less compassion. But Ben Kenobi is a different man.
Ooohhh, would you be willing to do the angst alphabet with Maul?
your wish is thine command
A- Anger (Are they easy to anger? How do they handle it?)
maul is obviously quick to anger, but in his shadow lord era it seems to me like. its this simmering rage that only boils over when he's in distress or in a fight
a prime example is his interactions with rook. when she walks in on icarus working on his leg, maul is obviously irritated like: "YES ROOK- what is it?" like he goes out of his way to calm his tone
or when she's talking about the mandos discontent with credits, and maul says "this is-(sighs) a momentary obstacle" he definitely didn't have that level of restraint during the clone wars
he exercises a lot of restraint. so if he's ever angry at you, or you're in the vicinity, i think he'd remove himself unless he's very upset about something.
but i dont think that'd last very long. maul doesnt let anything or anyone go lmao. he'd be extremely dramatic the first couple of days, but he cant stay away from you.
B- Bad Habits (What bad habits do they have? Do they try to get rid of them?)
does not communicate. he can't say "im worried about you" or "im sorry" he apologizes with action, you have to spend a lot of time translating his behavior, which can be emotionally exhausting. and it can trigger fights if you read him wrong.
can be very hot and cold in the relationship. cant pull himself away from you because he wants that connection, then that desire scares him and he goes cold.
doesnt understand what boundaries are. maul was never allowed to say no, and his comfort never mattered. so he doesnt understand that he can just say he doesnt want to do something, or doesnt want a certain subject to be brought up. so violation of boundaries you dont know about and he doesnt understand he's allowed to have, can trigger fights.
he doesnt understand your boundaries either. and he's not doing it maliciously. if you tell him you need space, he interprets it as "i am being shunned from my own room."
now this is something i think he'd overcome relatively quickly if you explain it to him. at least, respecting your boundaries. it takes him a long time to learn how to verbalize his own, otherwise, he gets really defensive.
C- Cheater (Would they cheat on their partner? What would make them cheat?)
oh god no, he'd never do such a thing.
D- Death (How do they handle that topic? What are their opinions on death? Do they believe in an afterlife?)
death is like an old friend, so he'd pretty numb to it honestly. i also think maul is....passively suicidal.
like when he yelled at ahsoka "let me go. let me die" during the siege of mandalore
or when he says "likewise" when crow tells him "the emperor wants you dead." now granted, that statement is up to interpretation, but still.
for the afterlife, i think the sith lore is they don't become one with the force, their spirits will just attach themselves to a place or object? but that doesnt happen to everyone. so maul probably thinks similarly. if his spirit isnt attached to a place or thing, then he's just dead.
E- Embarrassment (What embarrasses them and how do they handle it?)
vulnerability. expressing want for anything that isnt revenge or power.
like he cant just ask for a kiss, that's embarrassing. he cant ask for a hug or to be held because he never received it
his reaction to embarrassment is defensiveness and anger
but i think he slowly becomes more comfortable with vulnerability and wants the more you express those things.
F- Fake (Are they faking something? Are they a good liar?)
he's a liar, a scammer. he loves robbery and fraud
G- Guilty (Is there something they feel guilty about? How do they handle that feeling?)
i dont think he feels guilt, honestly, or rather, he doesnt allow himself to feel guilt. he reroutes it through anger to place blame on whoever wronged him.
for example, rook is dead. rook wouldnt be dead if vader wasnt there. vader wouldnt be there if sidious hadn't betrayed him.
H- Heartbreak (Was their heart ever broken? Has it healed? How do the handle a heartbreak?)
all of us know the answer to this
I- Ignorant (What is something they won’t change their mind on?)
the sith ideology with anger. as much as he hates the sith, he literally was indoctrinated :/
J- Jealousy (Are they easily jealous? What makes them jealous? What will they do about it?)
i dont think he gets jealous of every other person that looks at you. if mauls with you, you have his trust 100%
what he does get jealous of is watching you at ease with other people. you dont have to walk on egg shells around maul, but hes also not the type of person you can have a drink with and laugh out loud without a care
its this hidden insecurity that he's hard to be around and you could do better.
K- Killing (Did they ever had to kill someone? How do they feel about killing someone?)
do i need to answer this? lmao
L- Lost (Did they ever lose someone/something important to them? How do they handle loss?)
we all know all the people mauls lost lmao
but again, that loss is rerouted into anger. he doesnt let himself mourn, he just uses the grief as fuel to keep going :/
M- Monster (Do they sometimes feel like a monster?)
yes, but i dont think he cares. maul knows hes terrifying. he remembers his madness on lotho minor
he'd only care if you thought he was a monster and it scared you away from him. but again, that fear would be rerouted into anger.
"you know what i am. you know what atrocities ive committed. do not act like you were blind to the monster you share a bed with."
N- Nightmares (Are they suffering from bad dreams? What do they do about it? What kind of bad dreams?)
im gonna draw on my own personal experiences here. ive had night terrors and nightmares since i was a child. like they were so severe i would be screaming and crying in my sleep and my dad couldnt wake me up.
and i still have these night terrors even tho i take a sedative to bypass the REM cycle. i toss and turn, mumble or yell in my sleep (and my gf still shares a bed with me bless her heart)
all that said, when you suffer from perpetual nightmares, you just kinda get used to it. now sometimes, they can be so severe and vivid that you wake up scared, but its kinda rare
so mauls nightmares are vivid, violent, and ugly. but he's used to it. its rare for him to be emotionally affected by a nightmare, but he does have them often. sometimes he remembers them, sometimes he doesnt.
O- Outcast (Do they feel alone? Were they ever abandoned? Did they ever abandon someone?)
abandonment issues that rival anakin skywalker.
he wouldnt abandon someone he loved unless they betrayed them. even then, you never truly get rid of them, because he'll "get his revenge"
P- Panic (Are they scared of something? How do they handle a panic attack?)
hes terrified of losing control and being powerless
the closest we see him struggling with a panic attack is in msl episode 8. he'd only freak out like that completely alone, and would still redirect it as anger. it's all he knows :(
Q- Quiet (Something they don’t talk about)
honestly? i dont think maul has issues with trauma dumping LMAO but i think the one thing he wont talk about is orsis. specifically, kilindi and daleen. i think killing them is something he truly regrets, because they were the first people that were ever kind to him :(
R- Regret (Is there something they regret? Why do they feel that way?)
his dedication to sidious. if he hadn't been so loyal, then he wouldn't have been bisected and his entire life wouldnt have been. That.
S- Soulmate (What would make them break up? How do they handle it?)
i dont think he believes in soulmates. he'd only break up if you betrayed him, and i think it would destroy him.
though depending on the era of his life, i kinda go back and fourth on how he'd react to that betrayal. i think rebels maul would...idk. like hold you hostage even if you betrayed him
T- Tears (What makes them cry? Are they okay with showing their tears?)
no. and he doesnt cry often, even if he does, its just like one or two tears
U- Unattractive (What do they hate about themselves? Do they have insecurities?)
he doesnt like anything about himself. he doesnt wallow, but he doesnt want to put any focus on his body either. hes just. like neutral? but he's uncomfortable if you tell him he's handsome or something like that, because he realizes he's percieved as something other than a terrifying weapon.
V- Venom (Were they ever betrayed? Did they ever betray someone?)
yes. yes. yes. and Yes.
W- Weak (What makes them feel weak?)
vulnerability. his cybernetics failing him
X- Xray (Are they mentally and physically healthy?)
no LMAO
from a realistic medical point of view, he'd have a lot of issues because of his cybernetics. skin abrasions/infections around the graft collar, chronic pain in his back from the lack of pelvic girdle, digestive issues, unstable blood pressure, edema. ugh
Y- Yearning (What do they miss? Is there something/someone they can’t have?)
i think he'd deluded himself into thinking he had a relationship with savage when he was a kid (like he was seeing what he wanted to see in the tunnel. he was taken by sidious when he was like 11-12 and not a baby)
he misses savage. he misses the childhood he thinks he had. he wants that connection/familial relationship.
and yes. he yearns for you. and i mean that man yearns.
Z- Zero (What would they do if they would lose everything?)
its happened over and over again, and maul gets up every time. he never, ever gives up. and thats one of my favorite things about his character
Hey thanks again for letting me get in this last request
I was wondering if you could write a wrecker X fem togruta Jedi knight the setting can be on Pabu or wherever else you might like to try I'm not too picky when it comes to that But I thought it would be nice if he took his partner out and during their date topic of the future comes up along with children that's kind of the base premise you can put a twist on it if you like I don't mind it being romantic passion nothing harmful please and thank you I just kind of need some romantic fluff with a cup of spice
Oh and one more thing
if you could have Wrecker have the intimacy insecurity you wrote about recently I'd really appreciate it🫣 please and thank you
Someday
Wrecker x fem!Jedi!Togruta!reader
Description: You and Wrecker discuss having children one day. Ends with smut
Warnings: NSFW 18+
The evening on Pabu was settling into a warm golden haze. You and Wrecker had been outside for a while, having taken advantage of the peaceful day to escape for a bit and share a picnic near the water. It had gone by quick, the two of you talking and laughing for longer than you'd meant to before finally realizing that the sun was starting to set.
Now, with everything packed away and the blanket folded, you walked beside him through Pabu. He'd insisted on carrying everything himself in one arm, his other hand holding yours as you walked.
"I could carry something," you were teasing, glancing at the blanket tucked under his arm and the basket in his hand. "I already know you're the strongest man on the island, you don't have to prove it at every opportunity."
Wrecker laughed, looking down at you with a grin. "Who says I'm proving anything? This is easy." He shrugged, squeezing your hand tighter. "Unless it actually is impressing you…"
You rolled your eyes fondly. "So you are showing off."
"Is it working?" Wrecker asked, his grin widening.
Before you could tease him again, the sound of laughter caught your attention. A few children ran past the two of you, laughing amongst themselves as they apparently headed to their own homes. You watched them disappear around the corner, your expression softening without realizing it.
Wrecker noticed, and tilted his head. "Hey, what's that look?"
You shook yourself from your thoughts, giving him a small smile as the two of you kept walking. "Just thinking."
"About what?"
You looked back toward where the children had disappeared. "Not sure," you admitted, your thumb brushing along his hand. "I guess just how nice it is here. Seeing things like that."
Wrecked glanced toward the empty street. "Kids running around causing trouble?" he asked lightly.
You laughed quietly. "Something like that. Just being happy. Growing up somewhere peaceful."
Wrecker hummed. "Yeah," he agreed, squeezing your hand again. "It is nice." He glanced down at you. "You think about that a lot?"
"More than I used to," you admitted. "Just, you know, being a Jedi, I guess I never really got to think about…domestic things. Like living somewhere like Pabu and, you know, having a…having a family."
Wrecker considered that for a second, his eyes going just a little wide. "You, uh. Would you…want that? Kids, I mean."
You looked up at him, a little surprised even though you'd been the one to bring it up. "I'm not sure," you said. "I've never really let myself think about it before."
Wrecker nodded, understanding. "Yeah," he said, slightly gruffly. "I get that. Didn't think I'd ever get a chance to…settle down, either. Wouldn't have thought I'd want to."
Your fingers tightened around his. "And now?"
He smiled, glancing down at you again. "Now I think maybe it wouldn't be so bad."
You grinned up at him, warmth spreading through your chest. You were quiet for a moment as the two of you walked. "…You'd be a good dad, you know," you observed after a moment.
Wrecker blinked, caught off guard by the statement, but then he straightened a little like he was very proud of the compliment. "You think so?"
"I know so," you replied, smiling. "I've seen the way you are with everyone you care about, and you're good with kids. They'd be lucky to have you."
Wrecker huffed, somewhere between amused and proud and bashful. "A good dad," he repeated. "Huh. Didn't think anyone'd ever say that about me."
You squeezed his hand. "Well, I'm saying it."
The two of you got home then, pausing at the door. Wrecker looked down at you. "I'd like that, you know. Someday," he admitted. "As long as it's with you."
You melted a little at that, leaning in to peck his lips before tugging him inside, the door sliding shut behind you. Wrecker set the basket and blanket down, then turned back to you, his hands slipping to your hips. His mouth found yours again, soft at first, but quickly growing more heated.
"You-- mmm." He groaned against your mouth, slipping his hands to the backs of your thighs and then picking you up to improve the angle. "Hope you mean it," he mumbled between kisses. "Cause I mean it. If we're talking about the future…mmph…kids, a life here…I only want it if it's you, baby."
You wrapped your legs around his waist, a little breathless. "Of course I mean it," you whispered against his lips, your breath hitching his hands squeezed your thighs. "Wouldn't say it if I didn't."
Wrecker groaned lowly, carrying you the short distance to the bedroom and then lying you down carefully, following you onto the mattress, never breaking the kiss for long. His hands moved slowly, sliding under your clothes and skimming the curves of your waist and hips. When he finally pulled the fabric up and off, he paused to pull back and look at you, one big palm resting over your stomach.
"You really want kids someday, huh?" he asked once more, his voice quieter than you usually heard it, like he was still turning the idea over in his mind.
You nodded, reaching up to cup his scarred cheek. "I think so. With you."
He leaned into the touch, eyes soft but delighted, then kissed you again. Soon, the rest of your clothes and his were pulled off as well. By the time he settled between your thighs, both of you were breathing harder. He trailed hot, greedy kisses along your jaw as he pulled his cock free, letting the thick head drag through your folds with a groan.
"It's….hgnn…it's kinda doing something to me," he mumbled, tucking his face against your neck under one of your lekku and pressing a kiss there as he kept grinding his cock against your slick cunt. "Thinkin' about…giving you that."
You moaned, your hands coming up to grip his shoulders, your hips shifting restlessly beneath him. "Wrecker…please..."
He finally pushed into you with a low groan, trembling as he forced himself to ease himself in gently. One of his hands came down to grip your hip tightly as he bottomed out.
"Kriff…so tight," he groaned, starting to move in slow, heavy thrusts. "Wanna fill you up. Leave you dripping with me…" He lifted his head to look down at you, his expression tight as he clearly restrained himself from going harder. "Wanna put a baby in you. Bad."
You moaned again, clenching around him at the words. "I--ah--Wrecker, I want--"
You were cut off as Wrecker cursed at the tightness of you clenching, and finally let his pace turn rougher and more desperate. His hand went from your hip to your thigh, pulling your legs wider as his heavy hips pressed down against yours, driving his thick, leaking cock into you as deep as he could. He pulled back to glance down at where his cock was disappearing into your cunt, groaning at the sight.
"Kriff…kriff…not gonna last," he said, almost with a breathless laugh. His free hand came down to press against your lower stomach over where his cock was hitting you, his thumb finding your clit. "You close, baby?"
You nodded, gasping as he started to rub rough circles over your clit. You tilted your hips up to meet each of his thrusts, squeezing tight around the thick stretch of him.
"That's it-- cum for me," Wrecker growled, voice rough and strained. "Wanna feel you squeeze me while I breed this pretty cunt."
That tipped you over. You came hard, moaning his name as your walls fluttered and pulsed around his cock. Wrecker gasped at the feeling, his hips slamming into yours until he finally let out a guttural moan, burying himself to the hilt and grinding deep as he came in hot, heavy pulses that kept flooding you until it leaked out of you around his cock. He stayed buried deep through the aftershocks, still grinding like he could push it even further inside, one hand still splayed over your lower belly.
Breathing hard, he finally leaned down to kiss you, breathless and messy but affectionate. "…Someday," he mumbled tiredly. "You and me. Little ones running around Pabu. Gonna take such good care of all of you."
You smiled, full and warm, and pulled him in for another slow kiss.
the clones make me insane. people who are told they're machines built for war, born without rights to live without individuality to die without distinction, who still prove their humanity/personhood at every chance they get? im an intellectual and emotional puddle on the floor about them
So I’ve been having the most shitty shitty shitty time lately do u think u could gather up some character to beat the shit out of my enemies for me by chance? (Preferably including the zabarak bros)
thanks for opening requests up and continuing to feed us with ur masterpieces!
headcanons: nightbrothers fighting your enemies
w/c: 0338
a/n: thank you for your request and i'm sorry for taking so long :(( i hope you like it!
maul:
• he's too protective for his own good. can never stand when people pick fights with you. he takes it very personally.
• takes his time on getting his revenge for you. he's the type to enjoy making them feel threatened, like they are being watched, followed and in danger for as long as he wants to before finally acting physically.
• his sense of ownership grows stronger when he fights for you, a mean of letting everyone know that if they get in your way, they will deal with him.
• maul is, somehow, classy. unfair, but clean. he doesn't like when they bleed too much, often granting them a fast lesson, or, if needed, death.
scorn:
• unlike his brothers, he is much more impatient. gets angry easily and takes it out quickly. more messy, too. and he likes it this way.
• doesn't need you to say anything twice. you let him know who is on your tail, he will find them, and have fun with it.
• not a talker, his fists speak for him. depending on how serious things get, he doesn't mind getting a little hurt if it means he gets to really fight them.
• always very proud of his work, bragging about it to you and his brothers. you can't help but find it weirdly endearing that this is his way of showing how much he cares about you.
icarus:
• similarly to maul, he takes his time to plan his actions. he would actually take advice from when it comes to acting on his own.
• he is quite observant, always paying attention to your interactions so he knows who you're dealing with. he likes that you keep him updated.
• quiet, stealthy threats. a knife to their throat so they know they're done for, but not so fast so they can piece together his reasons.
• has you watch. has you lead. "what to do with them?" he would ask, and he would follow your orders. unless you prefer not to be present, then his mercy, that is already little, won't show.
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we are not born to die!! what are you talking about!! do you think a book begins just to finish? do you think a song opens with a beautiful chord just for it to end? you don’t read the book to finish it, you read the book to eat up the excitement and the emotions it evokes!! to learn and to digest and to fall in love and be heartbroken!! you listen to the song to dance and dance and sing your throat raw!!! to cry and smile and swell with the harmonies!! yes, we are born with the inevitable fate of death, we are mortal after all, but that is merely the finale of the play!! the final act, the closing of the curtains - we are not born to take a bow and exit stage left!! we are born to love and be joyous and yell and move and learn and cry and feelfeelfeel!!! we are not born to die, silly, we’re born to live!!!
“I have been raised without luxury. Bare walls, bare floors, a sleep-mat. A bowl to eat from. I have believed fine things make one soft. All my joy comes in battle, all my pleasure comes in preparing for it.
“But I could be wrong about this. I could rule from a palace like this one day. It would not be so terrible a fate.”
-Maul, on the palace in Theed on Naboo (from the SW: Episode 1 Darth Maul Journal)
I’m going to throw up. I need so badly for Maul to be allowed happiness, just ONCE. Sidious, when I get my grubby hands on you, YOU’RE DONE.
