Do It For Ker

Kerry Eurodyne fanfic and game mod project Kerry ♥ Vincent

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Unasked Questions About Loops/KRME

Please read! Will be updated as needed.

Q. What is this? A. Somewhere for me to share my process, feelings, and various crimes against literature and the Cyberpunk 2077 fandom.

Q. Who are you? A. An underemployed, emotionally damaged, perimenopausal lesbian (she/they). You can call me Indigo. Or Indi. Or "annoying".

Q. Why tho? A. The only frequently asked question in this post. It's me, I'm asking. Real answer: It's cheaper than therapy.

Q. What projects are you working on? A. Two main projects currently, the primary one is "Loops" [synopsis], a speculative fanfic for Cyberpunk 2077's Kerry Eurodyne and Vincent, based on what might happen following the end of the game. (WARNING: LOOPS IS A TRAGEDY! IF YOU WANT FLUFFY KERRY FIC, THIS IS NOT THE FIC FOR YOU! THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME!) Second project is a romance narrative game mod (Kerry Romance Messages Extended) which (if I ever find someone to do the coding) will add a series of text messages to the game for your very own Masc V/Kerry romance arc.

I will also be posting things here that don't fit into either the mod or the main story, because there's nowhere else to put them. All projects are works in progress as of May 2026. Updates will come as available. I also hope to indulge in some Panam/Fem V gubbins, because she was my first love in game, and I may have some unresolved feelings about that.

Q. Is your work based on the original Mike Pondsmith books, or the 2077 story as told by CD Projekt Red? A. Mostly 2077, some light lore lifted from the TTRPG, and a lot of headcanon.

Q. Is this NSFW? A. Oh absolutely. Not gratuitous, but definitely spicy. Night City is dark and full of boners (and spoilers).

Q. Why does Kerry text like a drunk millennial? A. Canonically, Kerry Eurodyne was born in 1988, he is literally a drunk millennial.

Q. What's with the post titles? A. They're songs, like the mission names in game. Some relevant to the content, some not. Mostly just having fun. I do not endorse or condone the existence of Coldplay.

Q. Are you... OK? A. I regularly make myself cry writing soppy text messages between fictional video game characters, what do you think?

[the-corpo-brat]

"Boys, please, don't fight over me" 😉

- Johnny, probably, while Kerry and V are already banging without him.

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🌈Celebrating Pride Month with some of my unhinged gay headcanons for Kerry

Says he's vers, but is actually a power bottom with a thing for service tops.

Hates threesomes because he wants to be center of attention.

Gives expert level head because getting his chrome voicebox got rid of his gag reflex.

Gets a back, sack & crack wax every week without fail.

Claims to hate c20th musicals, but knows all the words to Meet Me in St Louis because you've heard him sing it in the shower.

Secretly glad Johnny wasn't into dudes because he didn't want that kind of competition when it came to divvying up the Samurai groupies.

Wears a thong because he thinks his ass looks flat in boxers.

Loves drag, wishes he'd been brave enough to try it before he was famous, thinks the media would call him a joke if he did it now.

Thinks gym bro gays are posers, does not see the irony of a billionaire rockerboy saying this.

Hates being called "Daddy" but loves being referred to as a "silver fox."

Got mistaken for a soft butch drag king at a gay bar once and never went back.

Wishes he was more of a Springsteen than a Jagger.

Thinks rigid gender roles are a corpo psyop.

Doesn't believe in twink death.

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I Don't Wanna Fight (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 5)

Kerry: hey you

Vincent: Hey

K: you still mad?

V: Not really, just sad

K: yeah K: me too K: can we squash it? K: I fuckin miss you

V: I miss you too Ker, but I don't know. How many times are we gonna do this?

K: dunno K: how long you got?

V: Not funny.

K: ah fuck I didn't mean it like that K: terminal foot in mouth disease K: AAHH FUCK i did it again

V: You're on fire today, choom -.-

K: for shits sake just come over K: you know we're better when we don't talk

V: No, we're better when YOU don't talk :P

K: hah I knew it K: made you smile didn't i? K: come over, don't make me beg K: i'll make you dinner

V: Why, you trying to kill me even faster?

K: alright smartass K: I'll buy you dinner

V: I can buy my own dinner

K: I'll buy you a car?

V: I've klepped more preem rides this week than you'll ever own, my guy

K: really gonna milk this ain't ya

V: Goddamn right I am

K: alright how's this K: I will buy you dinner K: (whatever u want and i'll order in so we can chill) K: I will not get shitfaced

V: Bare minimum so far, babe

K: I will make coffee in the morning before you delta K: I will put my coffee cup in the dishwasher K: I will put your coffee cup in the dshwasher K: I will let u have control of the remote

V: Getting warmer...

K: I will not bitch about how cold ur feet are K: I will give back the green hoodie

V: Keep it, you look cute in it :)

K: I will not make any jokes abt dying (on purpose) K: I will not start any gonk ass fights K: I will shut the fuck up if you tell me to

V: Oof, that's a good one

K: AND

V: And?

K: you can be the little spoon

V: Holy shit :D V: Pulling out the big guns, huh?

K: i'm not fucking around this time K: so K: we good?

V: Alright. You got me.

K: yeah?

V: Yeah :) V: Just give me some time to wrap up this gig, and I'm all yours x

K: nova! K: how long?

V: Kerry?

K: mm?

V: Shut the fuck up

K: :*

[Context: FAQ]

[genocidalfetus]

Kerry's expression before he stops himself from admitting that he was about to take himself out when V and Johnny broke into his house.

And there are literal people out there who hate this character...

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(Don't You)

I'm doing this stupid thing where I get all excited about a future chapter and start writing it in my head, but delay putting it down on paper so it has plenty of time to percolate, all the while with a sense of impending terror, as I hope beyond all hope that I don't just fucking forget any of it before it's time to write it down.

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Stuck In The Middle (With You) (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 4)

Kerry: vinceeeeeeeeeent

Vincent: Uh-oh. Either I'm in trouble or you want something V: Only reasons you ever full name me :P

K: ur always trouble :p K: but no K: wanna ask you something

V: Fire away!

K: right K: so K: nah nevermind it's stupid

V: Babe?

K: nah i'm being a gonk K: forget I said anything

V: That's not gonna happen V: Is it bad?

K: no K: stop askin

V: Is it embarrassing?

K: no K: a bit K: not really

V: Is it sexy?

K: no K: kinda K: STOP IT

V: Do I have to come over there and fuck it out of you?

K: YES YOU DO K: COME OVER HERE AND FUCK IT OUT OF ME RIGHT NOW K: damn that was way too easy

V: OK but I'm held up in Dogtown for a couple hours, so spill now or I'm just gonna assume you got your dick stuck in the vacuum again

K: WTFFFFFFF K: HE FUCKING TOLD YOU??! K: IT WAS ONE FUCKIN TIME K: HE WASNT EVEN THERE

V: Jesus Christ Kerry, it's true?? V: You just cost me 500 eddies!

K: FUCK OFFFFFFF

V: OK, if I go deaf, you can blame the high-pitched cackle echoing round my skull right now

K: I HATE YOU BOTH

V: Did you at least buy it dinner first? :D

K: IM GONNA RIP THAT ASSHOLE OUT OF UR HEAD WITH MY BARE HANDS I SWEAR TO FUCK

V: He says "make sure he washes those hands first" V: I have literally never seen Johnny this happy V: Like a kid on Christmas morning V: He's doing a little dance V: Ker? V: Babe?

K: STOP TALKING K: WHY ARE U LIKE THIS

V: Hey, I thought you liked my honesty? :P

K: I HAVE LIMITS

V: No you don't ;)

K: ENOUGH K: you are not allowed to talk to me for the rest of the day

V: Aww, really? I can't come over tonight then?

K: you can K: just no talking

V: Whatever will I do with my mouth all evening, I wonder...

K: tsk tsk K: ur still talking

V: Sorry Sir

K: gonna need that apology in person

V: But I can't say it out loud?

K: quite sure you'll think of something ;)

[Context: FAQ]

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The Lie Eternal

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Constant Craving (Loops excerpt, part 5)

[RECORDING RESUMED: 23h56m/04.02.2088]

"...Always knew me and Johnny would never be a thing. Knew right from the start. He was like... did y'ever go to church as a kid? I did, back in the old country. Somethin' about the way Catholics feel for Jesus, like he's a part of God, sure, but there's something that goes beyond reverence for the devout. It's a hunger, almost a desperation... a constant craving to be part of something you can't touch, can't even see. S'how I looked at Johnny for a long time. Knew he wasn't for me, not on my level, nor me on his. Had to put him on a pedestal, keep him out of reach, don't touch or you might break something. Trouble is, you spend that much of your time drunk or high as balls and the signals get screwy. You let the what ifs take hold in your brain. You forget the thing you put outta reach is outta reach for a fuckin' good reason."

[Context: FAQ]

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Loops - Synopsis

The official blurb for Loops (projected release date: September 2026).

Let me be extremely clear: this is my headcanon; there are many like it, but this one is mine. If you're not into it, I'm begging you please just read something else. Questions are fine, but I'm not interested in critique; either enjoy it or move along with your day.

Spoilers for Cyberpunk 2077 throughout, so please, if you don't want to ruin the story, go play the game first! This is your final warning!

[THEMES & CONTENT WARNINGS (in no particular order): sex, queerness, age gap relationship, nostalgia, lost love, religion, sexual assault, bereavement, grief, estrangement, divorce, pregnancy, infidelity, terminal illness, trauma, death, suicide, domestic abuse, violence, drugs, alcohol, criminal enterprise, terrorism, dystopian future, swearing, oh god so much swearing]

Loops is a speculative dark romance fan fiction set in the world of Cyberpunk 2077 following rockerboy Kerry Eurodyne and his lover Vincent (aka V) after the game ending. Set between 2088 and 2090, ten years after protagonist V has died from the damage wrecked on his brain by Johnny Silverhand's engram, the story tracks Kerry via a series of audio transcripts; a recorded love letter to V, reliving glory days, confronting demons, healing old wounds, and forging new pathways, evolving into a journal of Kerry's progress through his own twilight years as at the age of 100, he starts to realise that perhaps living forever isn't all it's cracked up to be. We join Kerry on the anniversary of V's passing as he begrudgingly takes the advice of a therapist, and begins to confront his feelings for his lost love. Kerry has spent the preceding decade doing everything in his power to avoid dealing with the emotional fallout from losing his best friend for the second time and his partner just a few months later, leaving him a lost, broken man. He's angered by circumstance, deeply ashamed by his treatment of V during their brief relationship, especially when it comes to their complex entanglement with Johnny, and is further haunted by the uncertainty surrounding their respective deaths and the many unanswered questions left in their wake. After a lifetime of running away from himself, the time has finally come for Kerry to air out the skeletons in his closet and learn to live with his past, though in time we come to discover that he was not the only one keeping secrets. It turns out, for better or for worse, that closure is a four letter word.

FAQ

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Different guys, same vibes. No, I will not be explaining myself.

[manicpunk98]

2077 Kerry being retconned from a clearly closeted gay celebrity who had to hide his sexuality and internalized the homophobia a machismo of the 2020s (yes, there was serious homophobia in that era of the cyberpunk universe, upwards of lgbt activists being assassinated in the lore. Read the Rockerboy source book.) Into a bi guy who only kinda likes V for Johnny and eventually has real feelings for him. It sucks.

Had a very compelling and personal story about being an elder gay celebrity who, after decades of fighting a lot of internal shadows was starting to accept himself for who he was. The parallels of accepting himself as a Filipino man, a musician independent of Johnny, and a gay man all melded into eachother in similar ways.

His story reminded me a lot of a lot of famous musicians like Elton John who even married and had kids in order to keep up appearances. This kind of thing still happens today, Caleb Shomo being an example.

But the complaints that largely came from women who were attracted to him, and the lack of care for the character as he was written for 2077 was shafted in favor of complainers.

Before the shoehorned that photo of Louise into the game years later (it was not there for a long time) and removing Johnny's comments about kerry liking going to gay bars to lend more credence to his interest in women I guess? It was very clear the story they were trying to tell for him.

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Obsession

First world problems, I know, but I honestly have no idea how to explain to my wife that the reason I forgot to put the bins out is because I was too busy making a snack for Kerry

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Kiss From A Rose (Loops excerpt, part 4)

[Context: FAQ]

[RECORDING RESUMED: 19h36m/03.04.2088]

"...'Member that night at Dark Matter, first time you kissed me? Can still see the whole night in my mind like it's a virtu... never been so elated and ashamed all at once. I asked if it was you or Johnny, an' you said "Does it matter?" Didn't give me time to think. Not sure I could've answered with all the time in the world, and I wanted you so bad, so I leaned in. But I shoulda been honest, with you, with Johnny... with myself. Didn't know if it mattered. Still don't. Does it matter now? Guess that's a whole different question. But that's why I needed to be alone. I wanted more, god I wanted more, but my head was a mess. Didn't even figure you were into me until that night. Kinda thought I was just makin' you into Johnny 2.0, another beautiful asshole to ruin my life over.

So I gotta know... how much of you was really you? I mean, was there ever a time when it was just you, no trace of Johnny? Even after the fusion or whatever the fuck happened with Alt... how much of you was really him? I guess what I mean is, if Johnny hadn't been in there, hadn't ever been in there, would you still've wanted me? Would I? I know we would never've met without him, but would we have felt what we... ah fuck. Shoulda answered that myself before askin' you, I guess. What a gonk. Why couldn't I just say this shit when it mattered? Spent my whole fuckin' life makin' eddies off words that make people feel something, but soon as I gotta say it straight, lay it all out, unaccompanied, unpolished, I... I can never just say the fuckin' words. Even if I could, no one left to say 'em to. No one that matters, anyway."

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New Sensation

Taking a little breather from writing, as it's time to make a new plaything for my favourite rockerboy and run the romance again. I am literally giddy playing dress up with him, wondering if Kerry would be into him 😍

Introducing Vivian Reinhart!

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Damn, quiet round here on the weekends, eh?

Anyway I spent the entire morning sobbing over the way Johnny talks about Kerry in the Temperance ending ok love you bai

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Sleep Still (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 3)

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Kerry: babe K: u up? K: baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabe

Vincent: Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

K: oh good ur not dead

V: Weird thing to say to someone with a ticking time bomb in their head but okay

K: come overrrrrrr K: i'm in the mood :*

V: Shocker :P V: Are you ever not in the mood? Caught you dry-humping my leg in your sleep the other night V: If you were a dog, we'd have to give you the snip for your own safety

K: blah blah blah K: cum over K: i'll do that thing you like

V: The thing in the bathtub, or the thing in the studio?

K: oh shit i forgot that one K: I meant the bathtub thing K: or fuck it K: both K: both is good

V: Now you're talking ;) V: And I'm not gonna find you passed out naked in the den with a copy of Ballsy again, like last time?

K: so bring coffee K: also lube K: also ice cream

V: Tell you what, you go make yourself a coffee, then text me back when you can see straight and I'll head over. Deal? V: Ker? V: Babe? V: Well that de-escalated quickly

K: I WAS MAKIN COFFEE

V: Good dog ;)

K: WOOF WOOF K: STOP TALKING K: CUM OVER