Do It For Ker

Kerry Eurodyne x V fanfic/mod project Strictly 18+ Secondary blog, likes/follows from @djchromatoze

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Unasked Questions About Loops/KRME

Please read! Will be updated as needed.

Update: 7/9/26 - I finally debranded my main, so I can like shit! Likes and follows will now come from @djchromatoze <3

Q. What is this? A. Somewhere for me to share my process, feelings, and various crimes against literature and the Cyberpunk 2077 fandom.

Q. Who are you? A. An underemployed, emotionally damaged, perimenopausal lesbian (she/they). You can call me Indigo. Or Indi. Or "annoying".

Q. Why tho? A. The only frequently asked question in this post. It's me, I'm asking. Real answer: It's cheaper than therapy.

Q. What projects are you working on? A. Two main projects currently, the primary one is "Loops" [synopsis], a speculative fanfic for Cyberpunk 2077's Kerry Eurodyne and Vincent, based on what might happen following the DFTR ending. (WARNING: LOOPS IS A TRAGEDY! IF YOU WANT FLUFFY KERRY FIC, THIS IS NOT THE FIC FOR YOU! THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME!) Second project is a romance narrative game mod (Kerry Romance Messages Extended) which (if I ever find someone to do the coding) will add a series of text messages to the game for your very own Masc V/Kerry romance arc.

I will also be posting a lot of things here that don't fit into either the mod or the main story, mostly text message threads, and photomode nonsense because there's nowhere else to put them. All projects are works in progress as of May 2026. Updates will come as available. I also hope to indulge in some Panam/Fem V gubbins, because she was my first love in game, and I may have some unresolved feelings about that.

Q. Is your work based on the original Mike Pondsmith books, or the 2077 story as told by CD Projekt Red? A. Mostly 2077, some light lore lifted from the TTRPG, and a lot of headcanon.

Q. Is this NSFW? A. Oh absolutely. Not gratuitous, but definitely spicy. Night City is dark and full of boners (and spoilers).

Q. Why does Kerry text like a drunk millennial? A. Canonically, Kerry Eurodyne was born in 1988, he is literally a drunk millennial.

Q. What's with the post titles? A. They're songs, like the mission names in game. Some relevant to the content, some not. Mostly just having fun. I do not endorse or condone the existence of Coldplay.

Q. Are you... OK? A. I regularly make myself cry writing soppy text messages between fictional video game characters, what do you think?

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Barrel Of A Gun (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 19)

[This one got pretty spicy, so the 2nd half is up on pillowfort, including an explicit photostory!]

Kerry: babe?

Vincent: Yes, babe?

K: do u think we have a power imbalance between us?

V: Have you been reading Cosmo again? :P

K: maybe -.- K: do you tho?

V: I mean, not really. Yeah you're rich, famous, and way way waaaaay older than me...

K: watch it

V: But I could kill you with my bare hands, so I'm pretty sure we're even :D

K: hey K: i could totally kill you too K: i'm no pussy

V: Yes, baby. You're very big and strong <3

K: im serious! K: i can pin you

V: Yeah, because I let you. Trust me, very different story if I actually meant to hurt you. I don't, for the record, but I absolutely could.

K: pff K: still reckon i could hold my own

V: My pet, you are many things, but an expert in lethal hand to hand combat is not one of them. I can take down guys twice my size without breaking a sweat, and I got 30lb on you, easy. Could throw you around like a ragdoll, put you down so fast your feet wouldn't touch the floor!

K: goddammit

V: I'm sorry babe, but you know it's true

K: its not that

V: Oh my god, Kerry V: That turned you on, didn't it? :P

K: oh cos its soooo weird that i got hot thinkin about my big sexy man tossing me around like a toy K: also i really like it when you call me pet

V: I'll remember that ;) V: You know I'd never actually hurt you, right?

[full story here]

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Last Night A DJ Saved My Life (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 18)

Kerry: hey babe K: got a few mins for ur old man? :)

Vincent: Always! V: Don't say it, let me guess... you're horny?

K: I mean yeah K: nothing new there K: not why i was texting tho :P

V: Sorry. Force of habit :D

K: no its fair K: that is usually why ;) K: but no i had an idea

V: Fire away

K: remember we talked about me maybe teaching you guitar?

V: Yeah

K: I was thinking in return u could teach me how to dj?

V: Oh! I mean, there's not really much to it, I feel like you'd be getting the rough end of the deal there

K: if u don't want to no biggie K: just thought it might be fun

V: No, I'd love to! V: Sorry, wasn't trying to put you off or anything V: You'd have to tolerate my playlists for a bit though

K: hm K: how many of ur playlists have lizzy wizzy on em?

V: Most of them -.-

K: pff K: fine K: wear something skimpy K: not sure it'll help but cant hurt to try ;)

V: You're on :) V: Hey, speaking of stuff you hate... V: You ever gonna record the song you wrote for me?

K: I don't hate it, u know that

V: I know, but I also know it's really not your kinda thing

K: i didnt write it for me ya daft bastard

V: Yeah, but going to all that effort for something you don't even like...

K: god ur such a gonk K: i wrote it coz i wanted to give u somethin i knew u would like K: doesn't matter if i like it K: its still fuckin nova K: coz i wrote it :P

V: That's true :)

K: ur not an artist so you wouldn't understand K: but sometimes we make things we don't like K: for ppl we DO like K: cos it's a nice thing to do K: and sometimes we do it so we can get laid ;)

V: No! You? Leveraging your god given talent for dick? Never!

K: :P K: huh K: just realised something

V: What?

K: think ur the only person I ever dated who wasn't a fan

V: Damn, really?

K: yeah K: kinda nice actually K: cos i know ur not just fucking me for the kudos

V: <3 V: I'm not really the type to get starstruck, I just like who I like :)

K: prolly coulda saved myself some time tryin to impress u K: been so long since someone liked me for me not the money or fame K: forgot how to be normal

V: Aww, babe. Sucks that people don't see the real you. On the other hand, I really like that I get to. Makes me feel special :)

K: you are special vince

V: You are too, Kerry. I'm glad I get to be your person xx

K: me too :* K: AHHH K: wish u were here K: how come we only ever have nice chats like this over text?

V: ...Really?

K: what?

V: Baby. What are we usually busy doing when we're together?

K: oh K: yeah ok K: hard to talk with a mouthful of dick :D

V: Suppose we could try hanging out and not fucking for a while?

K: i guess

V: I'm kidding :P

K: oh thank fuck for that

[Context: FAQ]

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God sometimes I'm writing smut and I'll like, delete a sentence because I'm like, no, I can't write that. It's too indulgent. And then it's like. Girl, what the fuck are you even going to the candy store for if you're just going to buy raisins. Get real.

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"what the fuck are you even going to the candy store for if you're just going to buy raisins" is honestly the thing I needed to hear today

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Not me chewing myself out for spending 6 hours writing gunplay filth and then reading this -.-

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I honestly can't be the only middle aged lesbian who was more attracted to Judy's abuela than Judy

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Idea for the 2nd fic finally coalesced outside my hind brain today.

It's 2079. V's been saved by the good folks at Langley, albeit at the cost of his chrome and two years of his life, and Kerry, unable to process the sudden news of his survival, panics and pulls the plug. V, having been abandoned by everyone he knew and loved (save a precious few) leaves Night City, taking up the life of a solo nomad, and vows to never let anyone get close to him again.

Returning from his Moon tour months later, Kerry realises what a gonk mistake he's made, and resolves to get V back, by whatever means possible. But where is he? How do you find a guy who doesn't want to be found? And what's a pampered rockerboy gonna do out there in the nuclear wilds? Kerry has to learn how to survive beyond the city limits if he ever hopes to be reunited with the love of his life.

And yes, before anyone says it, I'm sure someone else has already written this, but I wanna do it too, and you can't stop me.

Control - Matrix & Futurebound

I've lost count of the ways I've tried to shut this down But the flame never goes out All the dangers I've faced I've taken on my own I've never had reason to doubt But you, you've opened through I've got no defense as you take me over the edge

I feel you next to me

I don't want to lose control But the minute I feel you next to me your fire takes hold Falling like a burning stone But it feels like you're my gravity Gonna let myself go

The one piece that I need to make me feel complete The rest means nothing to me, oh What a rush that I get As good as when you're right there You know you fill my head, you push my senses over the edge

I don't want to lose control But the minute I feel you next to me your fire takes hold Falling like a burning stone But it feels like you're my gravity Gonna let myself go

Falling into you, there's nothing I can do I got no defense against you Falling into you, the ways you pull me through I keep falling deeper into you

I don't want to lose control But the minute I feel you next to me your fire takes hold Falling like a burning stone But it feels like you're my gravity Gonna let myself go

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I Predict A Riot (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 17)

Kerry: hey babe :*

Vincent: Why are you texting me?

K: um K: that a trick question?

V: What did you say to me this morning?

K: said a lot of things this morning K: screamed a couple of em too ;)

V: "Don't text me today V, I need a day in the studio with no distractions"

K: i said u don't text me! K: didnt say anything about me textin u :P

V: You're fucking ridiculous, Kerry

K: i know K: cute ain't it :D

V: Not top of the list of words I'm thinking right now, but sure, let's run with it V: Did you at least get some shit done?

K: no -.-

V: So this is an "I'm bored, therefore horny" text?

K: really takes the fun out of things when u read me like that

V: But you make it so easy! You're not an open book, you're a fucking 50ft billboard :D V: Maybe try and be a little less predictable?

K: but you always predict i'm horny

V: Yeah...

K: so being less predictable would require bein less horny K: an we both know that ain't gonna happen

V: Then you'll have to put up with being predictable, won't you? V: Yes, I'm coming over later

K: goddammit

V: I'll stay home then, shall I?

K: I predict ur not gonna do that ;)

V: Well done Sherlock, you cracked the case :P

K: oh fuck off K: see u tonight :*

[Context: FAQ]

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Is my birthday today. I am now officially more than half Kerry's age! I don't have a lot of meatspace friends, so I'm just imagining my beautiful boys thanking me for telling their story 😭🥰

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Lose In Wanting (Loops excerpt, part 12)

"...Some ways, I wish you had been just a batshit stalker, albeit a smokin' hot one, but y'know, someone I'd have the upper hand on. Not some poor schmuck with the guy I spent 70 fuckin' years hung up on stuck in his head. That chrome-plated tapeworm's got some fuckin' nerve, but breakin' into my place after half a century wearin' some gorgeous young buck, only for him to finally start treatin' me like a human being... well, sometimes life serves you up more'n you can handle at once. Had to force myself to look past you to deal with him. As shitty as it sounds to say, you weren't the priority that day. Had to close a 50 year old wound. Never knew I'd get the chance to bury the hatchet with Johnny, just my luck I'd have to argue with my dick while doing it. Prob'ly didn't help much by hittin' on you on your way out. Couldn't help myself. God, what if you'd said yes? Woulda shoulda coulda, huh. Woulda been so much easier if you'd been some homely broad with a midwest twang, stringy hair, buck teeth, but nah, you just had to be the most beautiful man I ever saw, didn't you? A fuckin' Adonis carved outta stone, and served up on a platter with an extra large side of asshole."

[Context: FAQ]

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I Don't Wanna Fight (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 5)

[Prelude]

Kerry: hey you

Vincent: Hey

K: you still mad?

V: Not really, just sad

K: yeah K: me too K: can we squash it? K: I fuckin miss you

V: I miss you too Ker, but I don't know. How many times are we gonna do this?

K: dunno K: how long you got?

V: Not funny.

K: ah fuck I didn't mean it like that K: terminal foot in mouth disease K: AAHH FUCK i did it again

V: You're on fire today, choom -.-

K: for shits sake just come over K: you know we're better when we don't talk

V: No, we're better when YOU don't talk :P

K: hah I knew it K: made you smile didn't i? K: come over, don't make me beg K: i'll make you dinner

V: Why, you trying to kill me even faster?

K: alright smartass K: I'll buy you dinner

V: I can buy my own dinner

K: I'll buy you a car?

V: I've klepped more preem rides this week than you'll ever own, my guy

K: really gonna milk this ain't ya

V: Goddamn right I am

K: alright how's this K: I will buy you dinner K: (whatever u want and i'll order in so we can chill) K: I will not get shitfaced

V: Bare minimum so far, babe

K: I will make coffee in the morning before you delta K: I will put my coffee cup in the dishwasher K: I will put your coffee cup in the dshwasher K: I will let u have control of the remote

V: Getting warmer...

K: I will not bitch about how cold ur feet are K: I will give back the green hoodie

V: Keep it, you look cute in it :)

K: I will not make any jokes abt dying (on purpose) K: I will not start any gonk ass fights K: I will shut the fuck up if you tell me to

V: Oof, that's a good one

K: AND

V: And?

K: you can be the little spoon

V: Holy shit :D V: Pulling out the big guns, huh?

K: not fucking around this time K: so K: we good?

V: Alright. You got me.

K: yeah?

V: Yeah :) V: Just give me some time to wrap up this gig, and I'm all yours x

K: nova! K: how long?

V: Kerry?

K: mm?

V: Shut the fuck up

K: :*

[Context: FAQ]

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One of my faves. Love the idea that Kerry straight up demands to be the little spoon at all times unless he's in the doghouse

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Well, I'm down on my knees again And I pray to the only one Who has the strength to bear the pain To forgive all the things that I've done

Oh, girl Lead me into your darkness When this world is trying its hardest To leave me unimpressed Just one caress From you and I'm blessed

When you think you've tried every road Every avenue Take one more look, what you found old And in it, you'll find something new

Oh, girl Lead me into your darkness When this world is trying its hardest To leave me unimpressed Just one caress From you and I'm blessed

I'm shying from the light I always loved the night And now you offer me Eternal darkness

I have to believe that sin Can make a better man Well, it's the mood that I am in That's left us back where we began

Oh, girl Lead me into your darkness When this world is trying its hardest To leave me unimpressed Just one caress From you and I'm blessed

One Caress - Depeche Mode

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Run To You (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 16)

Kerry: hey

Vincent: Hey babe :) How's tricks?

K: meh K: am i seein u tonight?

V: Was supposed to be going for drinks with the Moxes

K: oh K: ok K: nevermind then

V: I can cancel?

K: nah its ok

V: Hey, something wrong? You seem rattled :/

K: bad day

V: Talk to me, Ker. What happened?

K: nothing really K: just a bunch of little stuff K: label are up my ass K: nothin going right in the studio K: cant find my notes K: coffee machine broke K: gonk shit K: nothing to worry abt K: you go n have fun

V: OK, first of all, your notes, go look in the den. Sure I saw a couple of your notebooks in there the other day V: Second, lemme have a look at the coffee machine, I got the magic touch with appliances :) V: Third, fuck the label. They need you more than you need them, and they know it V: And fourth, you can't tell me what to do, you're not my dad :P

K: yes i fuckin can ;)

V: Ah, there's my Kerry :D V: Listen, I can hang with the girls whenever, more than happy to blow them off and come hang with you instead x

K: blow them off so you can come blow me K: i like the way you think ;) K: u dont have to tho

V: Yes, I know. Believe it or not, I actually like hanging with you, dumbass :P

K: and there's my vince :*

V: Want me to pick up food on the way over?

K: fuck yes i do K: my man's so damn good to me <3 K: oh my god my notes WERE in the den K: how the fuck do u do that?? K: ur a godsend baby

V: Gonna remember you said that next time you're chewing me out for using the wrong shampoo

K: ITS FUCKING IMPORTED K: AND U HAVE SO MUCH FUCKIN HAIR

V: You want dinner and a fuck delivered or not?

K: i'm sorry K: yes please

V: Good boy ;)

K: i hate you

V: No you don't :P

K: no i don't :*

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Sometimes I wonder if I am emotionally stable enough to be a fanfic writer and then I remember I am not emotionally stable enough to get out of bed every day so I suppose I'll take what I can get

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Kerry's Song

I have a confession to make.

I didn't "get" Kerry on my first playthrough, nor my second. I could appreciate his place in the story, but it didn't click until my first masc V run when I finally romanced him. That's when it hit. The depth. The fucking layers.

The complex implications of falling in love with someone who's harboring your last great love, simultaneously the person who hurt you more than anyone else, and the bittersweet realisation that whatever this is, however wonderful, it won't last, just like the time before.

The joy of finally feeling free from the emotional trauma of losing your best friend and lifelong nemesis, coupled with the gut wrenching regret of having wasted so many years hung up on the wrong person.

Knowing that you'd be a hair's breath away from perfection if not for the cruel circumstances of fate, but understanding that it was those very circumstances that brought you together, and you would never have known what you were missing without them.

I used to think CDPR robbed Kerry of a proper story, but now I don't because what they gave us is a perfect foundation for a million better, richer stories. I love reading other people's headcanons, even when they clash with mine, because it's a marvel to me how many places these stories can go. I get my shit rocked on the daily by all the different kinds of love people have for this man.

Fuck, what a beautiful gift.

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Bring Me To Life (Kerry & Vincent texts, part 15)

Kerry: hey babe K: got a question

V: Shoot!

K: what cologne u wear?

V: Oh no babe, that's all me. 100% au naturel :)

K: dammit

V: Why?

K: nah doesn't matter

V: Oh come on, you can't expect me to let that go :P V: Spill or I'll hide your car key again

K: jesus fuckin christ v K: theres something very very wrong with u K: good thing ur hot K: cos ur a fucking menace

V: Says the guy who firebombed a yacht on our first date...

K: that was poetic justice K: ur just a goddamn chaos gremlin K: oughta put u over my knee

V: Promise? :D

K: is that why ur such a brat? K: you can just ask for a spanking ya know K: would save a whole lotta time

V: Less fun if I haven't earned it ;)

K: baby you've earned several lifetimes worth already K: come over ya little freak K: if you insist on driving me crazy i should at least get head out of it

V: Can't argue with you there V: Give me like 3 hours?

K: 3?? K: fine K: i'm takin a nap K: u know how to wake me ;)

V: Airhorn it is

K: i will fuckin end you

V: I'd like to see you try, old man :P

K: bring an airhorn into my house and you'll get ur wish

V: Gotta catch me first!

K: babe K: how much caffeine have u had today?

V: All of it V: I am LEVITATING

K: make it 4 hours K: can see i'm gonna need my strength for later

V: I'm debating whether to tell you what Johnny just said

K: holy fuck K: as if one of u wasn't bad enough K: now we got captain cockblock on board too?? K: i'm goin to bed K: the slightest hint of airhorn anywhere on my property will result in it being stuffed so far up ur ass johnny can brush his teeth with it

V: You're cute when you're irritated <3

K: YOU'D FUCKIN KNOW

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Can't stop thinking about this quest. I really don't understand why ppl hate Kerry. Only bc he's introduced like a LGBTQ character? Or what? He's such a sweet man with a very sad backstory and this "And earlier... Eh, nevermind".

V literally saved him from the suicide, he gets him outta depression. Tf u mean that this relationship is fake? Tf u mean that Kerry loves only Johnny? Where was ur eyes and ears when u completed his quests? I need to know

Okay, I'll say it, I'll never understand how Panam can be more interesting than Kerry. Alright, I know that Panam can sacrifice her family to help V at the end of the game, when we get into Arasaka-tower, and blah-blah-blah BUT. A real big but. Where was Panam when V had woken up from coma? Where?? She was just like "Oh, my love has disappeared, but I won't text him, and call too, and when he calls me, I won't answer". Tf?? THAT'S NOT PANAM HATE, OK?? I just think, how can romance where she just drops you outta her life be better than romance where he not only promises to meet with you (not immediately but yeah), but offers financial support too.

I think Kerry is a cool character, and Panam is a cool character too. But like a romance option Kerry better. Only in my opinion!!!

Just shit post, don't overreact

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I know you know it Such a dangerous thing Some call it flawless Some say obscene

Even in your wildest fantasy Drunk behind the wheel from the ecstasy No one in their right mind could ignore Working out the details in the dark

And if you ever catch this heart of mine Howling at the moon in the dead of night Blame it on the ghost only you can see Baby, I think we're in too deep

Started so slowly Sewing the seeds It's never-ending Currently trending Patience thinning Absurd to think it's not

Believe me when I say this is torture The hardest part is telling you no So easy to get off in a moment, moment Forgive forget gone

In Too Deep - Battle Tapes