history, elle pense

I drink coffee like water. I never know what to say. I like knowing things and being educated. Running and being outside in nature is the closest I get to a higher power. I still don't know how to get out of bed half of the time. I'm not looking to be saved. It's not pretty. or endearing It is enough for me.

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Life changes

I haven't been terribly good at dealing with life issues lately, but it takes me moments alone to sit down and think about it. I read from someone, ... these life changes and challenges are mine because they were given to me. They are mine because I can handle them and I'm supposed to have them". 

I need to think about that more often and not let my thoughts and emotions get so destructive.

I can do this.

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Pour un autre jour America.... Bonjour France!!

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Even before seeing this I wanted to name my daughter Anais, now I am certain.

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sunflower glow

kaysturk:

downtown sarasota. i love my home.

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"Have a vision. Be Demanding."

^ Those words I once wrote for a mock campaign election speech.  I'd like to believe my words are right and hold water in my real life.

But in reality, I do not practice what I preach. I have found in ALL (and I mean ALL) of my past relationships be more demanding doesn't necessarily mean that you will get what you want. In fact, in all situations, I was more demanding and I got the exact opposite of what I wanted. And my demands were always small and painless, in my opinion.

I know this retroactive thinking gets me nowhere in my present situation. The optimistic part of my brain tells my other parts to shut up and be present. 

But as generally rational people we are taught to LEARN FROM OUR LESSONS. So here I am. Not demanding A thing. When we don't fight with the people we hold relationships with, that means one of us is not saying what they really think. I think that person is me. Am I leading myself into a downward pattern? Am I just being too worried? Are my visions too demanding?

Why can't I ever be sure?

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It's not a silly little moment, it's not the storm before calm

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I like a good etymological/history lesson.

Interesting fact: The term 'hippie' grew out of the word 'hipster,' not the other way around. After reading Kerouac I have a deeper appreciation of the word-not the people who embody it.

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lananasser:

when we think of failure; failure will be ours. if we remain undecided; nothing will ever change. all we need to do is want to achieve something great and then simply to do it. never think of failure For what we think, will come about. -maharishi mahesh

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up north, porch sitting at the cabin, picture taking by the river, and missing my childhood so much I can hardly breath.

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Wellies

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sandandicecream:

photo by annabel mehran

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My favorite color photographer, Eggleston, his Democratic Forest work is palpable.

William Eggleston, Untitled, 1975

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Sometimes waiting brings you the hapiness you deserve

As I was flipping through my steno pad at my dated entries I realized I was writing about you long before I even thought about you in a more-than-friends way.

The words fumbled, dipped, and never really came to a point but without fail they always centered on the 'warmth' and 'trust' I felt for you.

I feel like the luckiest person in the world that I get to receive those things from you and then give them right back. The generosity we give each other is beyond the earth. the soul and spirit of us.

And I am beyond grateful that waiting brought me  us.

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Whatever our souls are made up of, his and mine are the same.

Emily Bronte, Wuthering Heights (via rogette)

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You could get lost in this song.

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(by 陳虧寶ｃＲａ)

Wanting him to come back before anyone notices part of the world has not moved since he left. -Brian Andreas

He's gone. He'll be back. Or I'll go there. But I couldn't imagine a more deserving person than him to have this amazing opportunity in a new place.

Or a more deserving person for me to wait around for.

I don't really have the words or the correct definition that describes who he is to me, or what we are to each other. Nor do I care to find the words. I just know that I am the best version of myself when I am with him and that radiates throughout the day when I am not. He brings genuine smiles to my face at almost any hour of the day. He was my best friend first, and that has made all the difference.

I'm not scared of what is to come for us, and this is the first time I can honestly say that.