member of the order coleoptera

it/its, 20's, some kind of beetle || north american, born on haudenosaunee land, living in the great lakes region|| part of (and main blog of) the rosegarden system || beloveds with halo-fourteen ♡

[targetedknowledge]

[waversteppes]

[whitetrsh-cryptid-deactivated20]

[steamandcream]

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

[steamandcream]

sorry to put your tags on blast on this insane breach containment post I have since muted, but you're right and you should say it.

It is defeatable. Go for the throat.

[dogpuppy]

[dogpuppy]

LMAO imagine thinking acne scars don’t smell 😂💀

[crabussy]

-> listening to a jaunty country style song -> hear the lyrics wrong -> pause. frown. go back a few seconds to relisten -> hears the same fucked up lyrics -> check the actual lyrics to see what it ACTUALLY says

-> oh!

[mariqueenmaandigreznor-deactiva]

David Lynch shows off his Nine Inch Nails - The Downward Spiral CD

[despazito]

Gordon Ramsey finds tile smeared with doodoo on kitchen nightmares

[threedollarsdotcom]

> open up wallet

> full of blood

[urie]

fucking the text man for texts one of society's most influential works

[urie]

just a work of pure art

[dysphoria-things]

if eating three balanced meals a day at regular times makes you gain weight then maybe you were meant to gain weight

[chainmail-butch]

Hi, its me. The warmest creature in the world. I love you. Im the warmest creature in the world and I love you so much and I need to be in your lap right now. Yes, I know about the heat wave. That's okay though because I was already the warmest creature in the world so I don't mind. I love you and you need to let me sleep in your lap right now. I'm soooo warm and I love you sooo much. If you say no you'll be saying no to a thing that love you. Let me sleep in your lap. When I fall asleep I get warmer. I love you

[luxiomahariel]

[luxiomahariel]

im so glad this is my most popular post so i have the pleasure of seeing his face every time i open my activity page

[xiaohongshu-for-you]

[koi-jyu]

HOW IS MY SISTER STRAIGHT UP CARRYING A GUZHENG?????

[creatingblackcharacters]

Remember when Lil Nas X beautifully explored his sexuality, seduced and killed the devil to the banger of all time, and instead of cheering on this openly gay and proud Black artist for his artistry and fighting back against respectability politics, suddenly said respectability politics was all the Queerest Place on the Internet cared about? Hm. Wonder what happened there.

Anyway I miss him and hope he's doing better with his mental health 🙏🏾

[hamlindigo]

This picture is making me nauseous .

[hamlindigo]

[squeakitties]

[innerchildabortionclinic]

I will be put down soon