College Coffee

A study blog for my free time

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i’m not longer posting here because it’s safe to say that it’s no more collegecoffeesposts and it is officecoffeesposts that doesn’t sound cool

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my contribution to Halloween in the office 🕷️

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13.03.2023

This weekend I went back to my ex university to give a talk about social networks and it went so well! I met people I haven’t seen in more than a year and the rest of the talks were so interesting!

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[toyonberries]

I've been feeling so overwhelmed and exhausted recently, so spending my study time in the sun has been an essential to recharge

[frenchiepal]

love that i have more time for language learning and reading now 💫

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22.02.2023

this week I went back to college!! I really loved my vacation but it feels good to be back in routine! and I bought a new plant☺️

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January.2023

I spent the month studying for my finals and they went very well! I even had the maximum grade in one asignature!

[vodkatales]

For old times sake is actually such a heartbreaking and beautiful sentiment. Like, let’s do it for the love that used to be here. It is reason enough.

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10.01.2022

Studying with the best companions!😂

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One thing I’ve always loved about Donna Tart’s The Secret History is that random phrases have unnoticeable predictions about the future that you won’t ever notice unless you’ve read the book before and know the outcome.

One of my favourites is “She was the Queen who finished out the suit of dark Jacks, dark King, and Joker” used by Richard to describe Camila. Not only is she one of the most complex characters, but also one people tend to forget and underestimate. The truth is, Camila is one of the most important characters in this story and plays an important role in the ending.

By being the only girl in the group, she at some point attracts the attention of every single one of the boys, except for Francis, who isn’t interested but still cannot deny her appeal. Through the book, Richard gives many hints of his attraction towards her, so does her brother, Charles, and obviously Henry. It is Henry’s interest in Camila that causes Charles’ anger and ultimately the tension that separates the group further after Bunny’s death.

Therefore, almost in an unnoticeable way, it is Camila that causes the downfall of them all, finishing out the suit of dark Jacks, the King, and the Joker.

[thesecrethistori-an]

Yes but I'm sorry I know it is intentional but she is more object than subject in the story, she is the character that lacks the most depth, she (like the others) is seen through Richard's eyes and as such, Camilla only exists as an object of male desire, not an individual with any internal qualities that surface through this observation (as all others do).

She is one of the mos important characters but I wouldn't deceive myself saying she is complex. She is intentionally devoid of any complexity

[thesecrethistori-an]

(Sorry I'm back)

I am not saying this is not done for a critical purpose. All the contrary.

But Camilla is the male gaze. She represents the masculine perception of women only for what she brings in to the aesthetic experience. We barely know anything about her, besides that she is pretty and mysterious.

In this sense —and perhaps this is a choice I am making because I have no idea of what Tartt’s intentions are— I believe TSH can be seen not only as a criticism of superficiality in the sense that is often discussed (namely, Richard ruining his life for apprearnaces and aesthetics), but also in the sense that the male gaze allows the male spectator to choose who to perceive as a subject and who to perceive as an object, as atrezo, as a decorative element.

This is why we ship Richard and Henry. We know Richard sees (or wants and desperately tries to see) Henry. We could go as far as to say that the whole plot revolves around Richard’s obsession to work out Henry’s mind, even to become a Henry-like being himself. As a narrator, we see Henry’s subjectivity.

With Camilla, this does not happen. In reality, Richard does not care about her mind. Her mysterious nature is functional to his desire. To his world, his ego, his identity. She only exists as an extension of his person, his perception and his desire, as an idol to adore and to blame for his weakness. Even as the cause of Henry’s inaccessibility. Richard may say or act like he would want to know what Camilla thinks but, ultimately, he does not. The moment Camilla became anything more than an unattainable idea of a woman, she would stop being desired.

We ship Henry and Richard because we want to have someone obsessed with who we are in the way Richard is, not a mere aesthetic obsession that remains not only unaware but unbothered by our "essence".

We don't want to just be perceived and idolised in the way Camilla is; we want the Other to feel the anguish of not being able to decipher every inch of our soul, for them to for them to see us and to even partly become us in the way Richard is transformed by Henry's presence.

Being “impossible to comprehend” is not the romantic feature we should aspire to. Because love without understanding is mere idolatry.

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07.12.2022

Happy Christmas time! I looooove this Starbucks decor😍 it’s perfect for us the coffee lovers. What do you think?

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15.11.2022

Hey! How is your life going? Today I have my very first exam in the master!📚✨ I hope it’ll go well! Wish me luck!

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30.10.2022

Hello! This week I made oatmeal cookies! And they were soooo Good! 🥰 Lately I’ve been watching a lot of Emma Chamberlain’s YouTube vídeos! How about your week?

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22.10.2022

Today is a study coffee date with my friend🥰 Have you already listened Midnights from Taylor Swift? I can’t stoooooop!

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12.10.2022

Hello people!!! How you doing? I’m finally starting my study time! It ended for me having free time 🫣

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04.10.2022

Good morning from the office! I have already started my International Marketing master and I’m working at the same time😴 would you like to see my office life too or just the study life? tell me!🥰

Also I would like to tell you I have a Studygram! You can find me by @/coffeeforcollege on Instagram!✨☺️