* i feel like a doormat, i hate having to live up to everyones expectations, but when i cant, especially irl, they often treat me like a child and call me slurs and i hate it, i have to play fucking charades every day, i have to be either the genius, the child prodigy, or the hopeless idiot r----- and i hate this i just want to be myself i want to do things at my own pace (part 1/2)
* and its affecting my work ethic with personal projects and friendships too i feel so overworked but i need to keep the masks up or ill d.ie (comfort character: diana cavendish from lwa) (2/2)
Hmph. Doormats don’t get anywhere... But I understand that it stems from a wish to make others happy or is used as a defense mechanism. If the former, it’s sweet, but it’s not something that will help you in life. If the latter, I’m truly sorry you find yourself in such a situation.
I am glad you recognize that this is an issue, regardless, as that is one of the most important steps in the right direction.
As for those around you, there are those who just aren’t worth entertaining. Most people aren’t, but I’d say this applies especially the ones you are / were with. A successful person is not just one who does successful things, but one who surrounds themself with good people.
Masks are necessary for some occasions, but I’d work on finding some people whom you don’t need the masks around. It may take a while, but you will eventually be able to find confidence to be your true self.
Be warned, though; if you hide your true self for too long, or too well, it may eventually be lost. I hope sincerely this issue has been resolved or at least managed more properly since you requested assistance.
All the best, Diana Cavendish.
(I hope that this problem has been at least somewhat resolved between your ask and now, dear anon. I’m sorry we were inactive for so long, and I hope this advice isn’t needed; but if it is, I hope it helps.)
[with love, mod dragon]




















