Complex PTSD and EUPD

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Personality: I DON’T GIVE A FUCK

Anxiety: I do

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You know, people think of PTSD flashbacks as being like movie flashbacks where you have to spend some time reliving the original event, but quite often it’s more like the whole traumatic experience has been compressed into a two-by-four that smacks you across the back of the head.

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Feels so good to connect with someone when you understand eachother so well

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Learnt a new skill today, painted some lovely ladies nails, was very relaxing… try something new everyday!

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All too familiar, who agrees? Acting is a skill learnt by life experiences.

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Dont Limit Your Challenges, Challenge Your Limits

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Truth is the easiest thing

So, he’s come back on the scene, the one that ruined my life, the one thats haunted me forever and made my life a mess. Its decision time.

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Tip of the day

I know you’ve probably all heard it before but you have to find the right thing. Distraction is a helpful tool. Take the new year as another chance, remember how many days you’ve managed to get out of bed and face the day. mistakes are in the past. Continue positively, as much as you can.

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Little me, oh little me i know it hurts but theres lessons to be learnt hold my hand hold it tight, stand next to me and I'll take on the fight. its always been hard, but we'll stick together, just hold on tight, forever and ever

Oscar Edwin Johnston

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CPTSD and Self Harm

CPTSD playing up majorly. Just had another flashback, trying so hard not to numb the pain by self harming but i also dont have the confidence to speak to the staff. his voice is in my head ‘tell anyone and ill kill you’.

Sorry this is so deep

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Hospital

Boxing day in hospital - not too bad. The sales in the shops were rubbish but they’re good online, did anyone find anything good in the sales or get anything good for christmas?

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Tackling psychology whilst on the ward. Trying to connect and help the child within me. It’s tough but I'm assured it’ll be worth it in the long run.

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Take One Minute At A Time

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For me the hardest times are the evenings, but today I am trying to be positive. My only hope it that others can do the same. We’re all in this together.

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This is how it feels to have EUPD feels like.. its an everyday struggle. But remember, you are not alone. Today’s advise from myself is be careful who you trust, we’re vulnerable and people use that against us. Just watch out. 

What are your experiences of EUPD?

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Just a short message tonight; I think many people will be able to relate with this. When I read it I feel the pain. Not in a great mood this evening, probably because I’m due my meds. Hopefully I won’t have any flashbacks (I’ll explain more about those later) tonight and wake up every few hours shaking and crying.

I’ll tell you a bit more about myself tomorrow.

Good Night All

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Hi

Hi, I’m Oscar and I’m creating this blog to share my experiences of Complex PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder). I also hope to help others through their struggles by using my own experiences and knowledge (I’m still learning). I hope you find it interesting and helpful.